As you can see from the date, this isn't my first time as a member of MWO, but I'm hoping that this will be the last first day back! Having been AF for 6 months back in 2008/9 which I loved, I gradually turned to moderation which gradually sank back to too much too often, and finally back to a bottle of wine a day. Another 3 years have gone, much of which has been wasted time, looking at life from the bottom of a bottle. I kept a journal during the good times, and in it I wrote that if I returned to my old habits, it was a choice I was making, as now I knew I could stop and how much I liked being sober. How then, did I let it get back to this? Back to waking up with regrets, facing the day with a sluggish mind and negative attitude; trying to piece together the events of the night before and hoping I have nothing to apologise for; the endless arguments in my head throughout the day of whether to drink again that night or not - and the recognition of that point when the argument was lost. Anyway, I need to accept once and for all that I don't control my alcohol consumption - it controls me. So my choice now is to face the challenge and start again on this journey to freedom from alcohol. There are many inspiring people on this site whom I congratulate and thank - your stories make this seem possible, and I want to be one of you!!! So day 1, and round 1 to me - I'm back on MWO and ready to fight!
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Hi All,
As you can see from the date, this isn't my first time as a member of MWO, but I'm hoping that this will be the last first day back! Having been AF for 6 months back in 2008/9 which I loved, I gradually turned to moderation which gradually sank back to too much too often, and finally back to a bottle of wine a day. Another 3 years have gone, much of which has been wasted time, looking at life from the bottom of a bottle. I kept a journal during the good times, and in it I wrote that if I returned to my old habits, it was a choice I was making, as now I knew I could stop and how much I liked being sober. How then, did I let it get back to this? Back to waking up with regrets, facing the day with a sluggish mind and negative attitude; trying to piece together the events of the night before and hoping I have nothing to apologise for; the endless arguments in my head throughout the day of whether to drink again that night or not - and the recognition of that point when the argument was lost. Anyway, I need to accept once and for all that I don't control my alcohol consumption - it controls me. So my choice now is to face the challenge and start again on this journey to freedom from alcohol. There are many inspiring people on this site whom I congratulate and thank - your stories make this seem possible, and I want to be one of you!!! So day 1, and round 1 to me - I'm back on MWO and ready to fight!:rays: Arial
Last first day - 15th April 2012
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Hi Arial
Welcome back.
I too was AF in 2008/09 for 8 months, then I was persuaded to accept a champagne toast at an 18th birthday party and from here I started drinking again. I was so mad with myself. I decided I'd moderate but like you my levels kept creeping up until I was back where I started. I came back to MWO in February this year and am now on day 52 AF thanks to this wonderful site. I too feel the same as you about the 3 years when I drank but couldn't find the mental energy to start again. I generally post on AF daily and Newbies nest as although I'm not a newbie I feel comfortable there with others starting out on their AF journey - there is a lot of support. Look forward to seeing you around.
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Thanks JC - look forward to meeting lots of new and old faces!
Congratulations Sausage on getting back on the wagon - it's amazing how 3 years can just disappear, particularly frustrating when I look at some of the amazing people on here who have had those 3 years of sobriety whilst I sank back into old habits! I'm hoping I will be one of them in 3 years from now - so, onwards and upwards - look forward to following in your footsteps !!:rays: Arial
Last first day - 15th April 2012
Goals:
Days 1-7 DONE
Days 8-14 DONE
Days 15-21 DONE
30 days DONE
60 days
100 days
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The last day 1 group!
Hi all,
Sounds like we have a common theme - I'm sorry that you've experienced the same rocky road, but selfishly it's somewhat reassuring to know that there are people out there in the same position. If there's safety in numbers then I think we have the 'last day 1 group' already formed! - together we can beat this and look back on 2008 as a practise - a taster of what the rest of our lives could be - I don't like myself as a drinker either - you're so right - weight gain, no energy, a spectator rather than a participator in life - what's fun about drinking?! I'd rather focus on what's fun without drinking - like today, for example, I saved the cost of a bottle of wine, actually went out after work (nowhere where they were selling drink I have to say!), and gained an extra 4 hours of actual life (rather than a blurred fuzzy head staggering through the evening) - my drinking clock starts at 6pm on the dot after which I pretty much write off the evening. Therefore say approx. bed time 10pm, that's 4 hours a night of productive time I gain - a massive 28 hours a week - over a whole day's worth of extra time each week! So what to do with it all...?!!
Good luck everyone, stay strong and I look forward to moving onwards with you!
Arial
Last day 1 - 14th April 2012:rays: Arial
Last first day - 15th April 2012
Goals:
Days 1-7 DONE
Days 8-14 DONE
Days 15-21 DONE
30 days DONE
60 days
100 days
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Arial, count me as another who stayed dry for a long time, then bit by bit went right back to The Habit! One of my daughters got married in 2011---all the parties, then the event itself (huge fun, everything was perfect!)---well, need I say more? Waved them off on their honeymoon and proceeded to enjoy the leftover bottles from the reception over a period of days...what was I thinking? Then weeks, months of Same Old Same Old...
Day Nine today, and I feel wonderful. Hope it's the last Day Nine! We can do it.Jane Jane
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