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[mauritiusdodo]

Hi all, after another lengthy absence I am starting over again for the millionth time, I had been managing a few days AF each week but I have slipped back into my old habits and am ashamed to say I have drunk every night for the last 10 days anywhere from a bottle to two of wine with the odd cider or lager thrown in, I am so sick of this vicious cycle I have created for myself and I am going to try my very hardest to break free this time.

[Nelz]

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Wishing you all the strength and support needed Mauri! I admire the fact that you keep on, keepin on!


It "will" work when you really really want it to.

[patricia]

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Good luck M - I got to that point (again) last Wednesday morning. Now on day 6. Because I've started again so very many times I realy don't feel qualified to offer advice but wish you all the luck in the world. Px

[mauritiusdodo]

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thank you both, I am so fed up of having to start over again i just want this time to be the one!

[Lavande]

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Hi Mauri,
Welcome back! Going completely AF was the only real choice for me & one that I have never regretted

Hop back into the Newbies Nest for a while!
Lav

[Nursie]

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Hi Mauri, welcome back! I recently started over too. I think our relapses will cement us into sobriety now. We can do it together!
Just never take that first drink.

[madmans]

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Hi maudi good to see you back, have you made a plan this time on what you are going to do different?

[mauritiusdodo]

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Hi everyone, thanks for the warm welcomes I always feel like I daren't post and say I am back to square one because I know I have messed up so many times before!

I know for certain this time that I can't just have a drink on a Saturday or moderate in the slightest way because one drink always leads to many more and one day turns into a week of bingeing, I am going to read through the tool box again and see what plans I can come up with because I am sure to fall at the first fence if I don't change my plan of attack!

[gingersnap]

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I understand your feeling of not wanting too post....hey, I'm back again....that seems to be my pattern also. It embaresses me, but I do know others have posted the same many times before....ok, at least we are here posting - that means we don't accept what has happened to us. We want to change. It has taken us years to get here-so in reality it will take us time and a lot of hard work to grab hold of life again. We must never give up.

[paula]

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I think most of us have done the same thing, I have many times. I'm just taking it odat. Good luck to you.

[Sisyphus56]

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I join everyone else in wishing you strength. I am new here and currently doing a slow taper so I have yet to face the reality of being AF this time. But I know from past experience that it's that 1st drink that will get you every time. I guess from what I've read here that we've all screwed up more than once. Don't beat yourself up, just focus on the goal as best you can. *hugs*

[mauritiusdodo]

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thanks it is good to know that people are in the same boat although I am sorry you are because it is a horrible place to be but i guesss as long as we have the desire to beat this thing we have a chance i long to get through a day without thinking of al or wanting it!

[K9Lover]

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Welcome back Mauri!
I'm glad to see you posting again. Very few (if any) of us got "it" on the first or even twentieth try...the main thing is you never quit quitting. The fact that you are back here shows that you are not giving up. Stick close. I've found that every time I stray from the boards, things get tricky. We're here to help you...again, glad you're back!
K9

[Arial]

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Hi again!

It looks like we're on the same road, so look forward to the company! The past is good, not to beat ourselves up over, but as a motivator for change, and as a comparison to the new lives that await us as we move further away from it! there is only one direction to go and it's not back! Good luck and best wishes!

[jenniech]

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{big sigh}.....I'm back too