I blew it!

[Over It!]

So much for bragging about being 40 days AF -last night I had 2 bottles of wine and I feel disgusting. Guess I am back to day 1 again, again.

One thing I have learnt for sure is that it is far better living AF than waking up feeling yucky!

I have let myself down big time.

[coriander]

I blew it!

Hi OverIt!
Look I've been feelin like a spare wheel for while now, just floating around.
Had some Af days here, there, everywhere, like a Playskool song, but I know how ya feel & if it's any help, i'm back on day 1 tomoz 28/4/12. Kerr-rist I feel like a broken record.
I'm in oz too, West Oz when most folks are sleeping. makes it worse for talking sometimes.
Best of luck & if you'd like to talk then just pm me.

[rooniferd]

I blew it!

I know you feel bad right now, but try to concentrate on your success. I mean, gosh, you just went 40 days AF! I can't even imagine accomplishing that! I'm lucky if I get five days sober. Just get up and continue on the path you were on. Try to think about what caused you to fall down, learn from it, and move on. You'll be at 40 days again before you know it!

[LibraryGirl]

I blew it!

Over it and Coriander you're here, so you have a fighting chance! More than that, you have the best chance. Dust off your armour and get ready to take on that AL beast.

Here's two swords, and when you level up I've got some enchanted bows and some giant hammers, your choice.:H

(Can you tell I've been playing the Reckoning on PS3? HAHAHAHA!)

LG

[Guitarista]

I blew it!

Over It!;1305673 wrote:
One thing I have learnt for sure is that it is far better living AF than waking up feeling yucky!

G'day Overit,

Yep!

As long as we learn from these events, and sharpen our tools.

40 days AF is a huge achievement mate. That can't be taken away. Stick with it.

G-bloke.

[Lavande]

I blew it!

Over It!

So what's your new plan?
What happened that made you decide to drink again after 40 AF days?
Please spend some time thinking about your triggers & how you're going to handle them in the future. So glad you came right back

Lav

[K9Lover]

I blew it!

Hi Over It!

Be thankful that you feel "disgusting". I remember all those times I felt like CRAP. Because, I'll be honest, if I never felt bad, would I have ever quit? Probably not! Not only did I feel physically bad, but I felt emotionally/mentally bad...the anxiety, embarrassment, shame, regret...the list goes on and on. The good thing is, you NEVER have to feel that way again. You did 40 days, so you know how great it feels to be sober. You know what to do, and I have faith in you. Please keep us posted!
K9

[KateH1]

I blew it!

Hi Overit,

The good news is that, You Never Have to Feel This Way Again! Lav, gave you the Keys to The Kingdom of Sobriety.......Your Plan! This truly is the Key to Sobriety......what will you do next time the Urge to drink, hits you???? A Plan does not need to be elaborate, in fact, my plan started off with barely a quarter of a page and grew over time.

Something that worked for me was to get up am move.....just go out and walk....snow, rain, sun....just walk it off! During these walks I would switch my mental gears into how great it felt to be healthy and feel good. What I would be able to do the next day having slept without AL......you get the idea!

Best Wishes to YOU!
Kate

[finallydone]

I blew it!

Hi Over it! I recently too had a set back and it's very tough on your emotions. I am with you and keep positive! I am trying my best to do the same. I am learning alot now from these set backs to get to the ulimate goal here. Full life sobriety. It's attainable and it's there for us. I am with you!!

[Wagoneer]

I blew it!

Oh Lord, I have been there. I went 11 MONTHS sober and for no apparent reason went back to drinking. Not alot, but drinking nonetheless. And seriously, FOR NO REASON! (Like there is ever truly a reason). I have found it harder than I could ever imagine getting back on the sober train, but it feels better...SO MUCH BETTER. You did wonderfully - 40 days is a long time. If you did it once, you can do it again and maybe forever. I wish the best of luck to you - and all of us. It is a hard road, but very worth it. Love Waggy

[Over It!]

I blew it!

Do you know what? I am a bigger failure than all of you, sadly. At least you are still trying. But I am just a big, fat fraud beacuse I am still drinking as I am writing this.
I cannot deny that I am not enjoying the drink - but I know that I have gone past the point of no return. I will feel so bad in the morning. :-(
My husband loves a glass or two (or 3 or 4 or more ). He is almost 70 years old now and I am a spritelely 61, he has an incurable disease and we both love to drink beer and red wine. Hey-we are Australian, what can I say?
Help me please. I cannot stop once I start. Never have been able to since I was 16 years old. It is my lifestlye and I love a glass of white. I am not strong enough to do this but I dont want pity I just need a sensible solution. It's been more than 30 years sadly.
Where do I go from here? I so enjoy a drink - especially when I am cooking and listening to opera and other music. The biggest problem that I have is that my husband, who likes drink, invites me to drink with him, often. However, he is the biggest critic of my drinking habits. Sometimes, in fact most most often, I wish that he and I would separate. But he is ill and I feel that I need to look after him. However, He is still capable to go to the footy, do some gardening, etc. .
I am a bit of a wimp, but, I love my glass of of wine, (s) and find it hard if he keeps inviting me to join him, But then, he tells me off BIG TIME for getting drunk. pfffft!

[Over It!]

I blew it!

So lucky to have you beautiful, wonderful, enlightenting (I am a bit pissy) and fabulous MWO people in my life.

[ZenMetal]

I blew it!

Hello Over It,

My advice would be to be gentle on yourself. You said that you were a bigger failure than all of us because you were still drinking as you wrote. I'm sure many people have been in the same boat. I'm at 5 years sober and before I turned the corner, I was disgusting. While I was sobering up, I was hell to be around. I am lucky - so lucky - to still have my family around me. You are NOT alone in all of this, be assured - although I know it feels that way.

SO: today is a new day. Be gentle on yourself. Try to keep to the path of sobriety. You already know in your heart of hearts it's the right thing to do.

Wishing you peace and strength,

Ian

[Daya]

I blew it!

Hi Fellow Aussi

Hi Overit,

I am also in Australia, and also my partner loves to drink. I think its really providence that i came across your post this morning...I have been floating in and out with the booze....40 days AF is such a HUGE achievement...the most i have ever gone is 2 weeks.

I think it is hard when your partner drinks...I was away last week on my own, and hardly drank at all. Had half a glass of wine one night, none the next.

You can give up whilst living with a drinker, you have done it before. Can I ask you some advice, how did you stop drinking before whilst your partner was ? I definitively need some tips...I am actually thinking about going on medication.

Dont feel bad, if you've done it once, you can certainly do it again. Your post actually gives me hope for myself.

(((hugs))))

[Over It!]

I blew it!

Ok, here I am back again with the (predicted) hangover. :-(
The way I did it before was to shove an AB in my mouth as soon as I felt the craving for a drink. I am already on AD and Topa but the difference, I think, is that my doseage has been reduced. Time to increase it maybe?
Reading back on last nights post makes me feel even more ashamed of myself. My husband is a lovely man and I am luckt to have him still in my life. He has put up with a great deal over the last 35 years.
Back to the meds today - I was so happy being AF. It is truly, truly liberating. Lets face it, anything is better than feeling the way I do right now.
Thankyou for listening to me MWO'ers.
Hugs to all,.
xx