May makeover

[So over it]

May makeover

Dizzybee, life change odat and k9, thanks guys and anyone I missed too!
Love you heaps.
I'm going good, gym class today and no al.
You guys have been a total inspiration to me! You must be very proud of your efforts.. I have realized this is harder than I thought. I take a great deal of inspiration and positivity from your success and thank you dearly!
Hope for an AF day tomorrow too!
Keep up the good work guys, I will too.
We can do this!! Xx

[Nursie]

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Crap, I meant to post that in the Maykers thread. Oh well, thanks guys!
I'm going to do it, be sober, stay sober and get through this rough patch.
I am done with this merry go round!

[K9Lover]

May makeover

Hi All!
Nursie - post wherever you want...it will get to the people that can help you I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I wish I could help you with the AB. I can't believe a doctor would say it "doesn't work"....HELL YES it DOES WORK! Arggghh, can you go to a different doctor? Please don't give up. If you are throwing out Listerine, it's time to bring out the big guns. I am here for you, please let me know what I can do to help you!

Dizzy - Good job ordering 30 Day Shred. You are right to be scared...she's scary! She has two sayings that scare the crap out of me (that I hear everyday): "I want your heart gurgling in your throat", and "I want you to feel like you are going to die"....and of course I answer her "Yes, Jillian I DO feel like I am going to die!!!" LOL I love her though...I need someone that will kick my ass, and she does! Let me know how you like the workout!

ODAT, Lifechange, Patricia, SOI, Ima and everyone else I missed, have a great day and stick with your goals. As my beloved "trainer" Jillian says "You may feel like dying now, but think how good you'll feel later, it will all be worth it". Of course this is coming from a woman with Abs of Steel. LOL

Love,
K9

[Arial]

May makeover

Happy Tuesday!

Hi all,

Congratulations on everyone's achievements - and being here is just one of the them! Great to hear the energy and determination on this thread I'm typing quickly hoping that I can post this without being logged out which seems to happen on a regular basis so I lose all I've typed.

Anyway, managing to stick to the Palio diet, though it's tough and not particularly enjoyable - I'm missing biscuits, sweets, cheese, crackers! And I didn't think I ate too many of them, but it's amazing how many munchies I must have got through each day wihtout realising. If nothing else, it's really making me think about what I eat and why. I'm not sure I'll keep it up after the month, but hopefully I'll stick to a general healthier way of eating than I have obviously been doing. No alcohol, though!! That I don't miss!

Nursie, stick with us all - maybe it wasn't a mistake that you posted here - it's a great place to be - you're amongst friends and there's strength in numbers. I hope you can get the meds you feel you need, but in the meantime use the strength you have and the determination to move forward 1 step at a time - to probably misquote a wonderful person, 'a journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.'

Dizzie - it's great to take back control of our lives and look at things through a sober, clear lense rather than a drink-laden fuzzy lense. It's funny how our perception of things can change so dramatically, our ability to handle things, to look at opportunities, to find the courage to change and take charge of our own destinies - what an empowerment! Unfortunately we don't always like what we see, but at least we are now in a position to think and make conscious decisions. Good luck to you!

Congratulations on all those AF days building up everyone - Health and strength to all on this May evening!

[Nursie]

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Thank s Guys. I'm not giving up.
I'm scheduling an appointment with a psychiatrist to discuss some deeper issues and go back to my addiction counselor. The hard thing is it is a huge trigger to go back to my story, my beginnings and my pain. Feelings of worthlessness return and once that happens I feel like I might as well drink.

Perhaps it would help to post my story here first. Before telling a strange psychiatrist.

[patricia]

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Hi guys,

New rather rainy day in uk but feels good. Day 2 under belt and into day 3. Had to think a mo on which day I am on!! Sticking close to boards today reading with fascination all posts. Often thinking that's me - know about that - yip have felt that - we do make life hard for ourselves don't we!!! Have a good strong day all. Px

[DizzyBee]

May makeover

Hi guys

Thanks for all the positive energy and encouragement. I still have a cold but have been walking the dog every day for 20 minutes and gardening for 20 minutes. And when I say gardening that includes some heavy lifting. I have a gardening thread in the holistic section for anyone here whose interested, I find gardening very therapeutic, especially for the newly sober. It’s a way of learning to trust myself to nurture things and see them bloom and I can see direct results every week and month!

Lifechange, yes I think its really hard for us to learn that we had ways of dealing with life before the bottle come along. They are there though, mostly it entails stepping back from the situation and looking at what’s behind the problem.

I know not everyone on here is planning to go AF for the long term but I find when I did you now have two problems: firstly you have to deal with say the bf problem and then you have to deal with the fact that you have never dealt with the bf problem before because previously you just drank and smiled...

But you know what, I did 31 days sober, ‘took 3 days off’, and back on day 9 again. I have already found a lot of solutions for problems that caused me to drink. And if my decisions to become sobers costs me my relationship then my boyfriend loves alcohol more than he does me. I’m not saying thats the case as we’re at a Mexican Standoff at the moment but I am standing by my convictions this time.

When I was drinking I went along with so much crap because I simply did not have the energy to fight it. As long as I could get my work done, have the house in reasonable order and got to the wine at the end of the day, that’s me happy. Now, I stand up for what I believe in and its incredibly impowering. I don’t mean this in a: now I’m a controlling person way. I just mean I now stand up for what I believe for. And LOL, I no longer fight like a drunk person. You know, I’d get all drunk and emotional and tearful and then ramble on at people and feel SO not in control of the situation.

*Anyway – rant over.*

I’m not going to talk about meds on this thread as this is about health and fitness. If you’re curious about meds, look at the meds section below. I hang out at https://www.mywayout.org/community/f2...ml#post1312984 but there are quite a few others as well.

ODAT – Congrats on your AF days! Go day 4.

Nursie – I have seen some of your posts and the mere fact that you are here and fighting your hardest to be sober is such an inspiration. I know what its like to have family members who are constantly affecting my sobriety but they are not nowhere as intense as yours I’m sending you positive, healing thoughts.:l

Oh, and well done for going to the psychiatrist. I’m no newbie to psychiatrists. I consider myself quite normal :nutso: but have been depressed my whole life. The psychiatrist finally figured out I was unipolar bipolar and that Topamax was the best med for me. It works like a bomb! Anyway, half the people I know go to psychiatrists and I think we are beyond the day and age when people are afraid to admit that.

Imaclean – I also found that I’ve not relaxed enough the past month and a half but then I have done hardly anything but relaxed in my drinking years. LOL. Sometimes I just flick on a movie and the yoga, gardening and dog walking also relaxes me. (gym doesn’t!)

Patricia – At the risk of sounding corny, it’s not about falling off, it’s about getting back up. The boards are interesting, hey? There was a time I thought this may become my new addiction! LOL, it may have been the best one I ever had. Day three is awesome, keep on working it.

Thanks Arial – you're spot on. It hurts like hell to see this clear cut version of my bf and I really hope that he may still come around but I’m fighting very hard every day not to contact him. If he comes back to me and say I have heard you and I am willing to work on A, B and C, then I may give this a shot. If he is going to be childish about this, then I’m afraid I’m going to let this go.

K9 – Jillian even scares me when I watch her on Biggest Loser. I’m not big enough to end up on the show but I always secretly wished that if I were and if I did I would be in Bob’s team – LOL. I had a very strict PE teacher at school and I HATED her. But then this is just a DVD and I can always flick her the finger or put her on pause if she really scares me.

You are rocking it though. I also wanted to say that I recognise all the work you are doing with people on this site and I think you for that. I know you don't do it for recognition and you dont need me to thank you but I needed to say that. I have helped people here and there but I need to be more stable myself really. You really are an inspiration. :h

Enough with the soppiness!
Get yer asses into gear and do some exercise today ladies!
I want your hearts gurgling in your throats all the way to South Africa!!!

[odat1234]

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I lost the battle last night but will win this war. I'm not stopping! I'll post more later.

[DizzyBee]

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ODAT - :l I love your fighting spirit :l

[So over it]

May makeover

Hia I'm sugaring but pushing through..
Dizzybee, this is to you,
You are a strong ang admirable woman. If I could give u hug I would!!!
Luv, u are going through so much and have pushed through AF
.you truly are and angel and have inspired mexxxx
If only I could be like you
One day at a time huh.

[K9Lover]

May makeover

Hi Makeover-ers? LOL

You all sound good today...Dizzy you are kicking some serious AZZZZZ....keep it up girl! You just "rant" anytime you want, it helps to get it out! I was actually able to keep up with Jillian last night, I only had to take a 5 second break twice, so that's not too bad. I made the mistake of "previewing" Level 3 and now I'm shaking in me boots...I'm glad it's still a few days away!

I'm glad to see everyone here. How is everyone doing with their healthy eating/exercise programs? I like to hear updates...so come on! LOL

Dizzy, you inspire me to garden. I have a little patch in my backyard that would be perfect, but I've never done anything with it. My dad planted some artichoke plants in there, but they keep dying and then coming back to life. I think it's time to start over! Of course I can't have too nice of a garden, that's where my dogs do their business (unless it's raining, of course)!

Well I better get to work, I have been SO lazy this week. I do just enough that nobody notices. HEHE

You all take care, stay strong and kick the AL beast to the curb!

I'll check back in later peeps!

K9

[Nursie]

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Maykeroonies, lol
I will post here too.
Dizzy, I love to garden too! Free therapy I always say.
Good to see everyone's doing well.
ODAT, keep up that fighting spirit. You can do it!

[odat1234]

May makeover

Checking in on the day after another unsuccessful night but you know what I'm done damn it! I do not want to drink any more. K9 said on another thread that she stopped drinking long after drinking stopped being fun...that is where I am. Me and drinking do not play well together AT ALL! My plan is every night clean a room spotless and watch a show, at least one, in the living room with my family (or whoever will watch with me), but in the living room non the less. I need to stay away from holing up all alone in the bedroom. This week money will be tight but in the past that has been a good thing. I pay all the bills and spend the rest on food, cigs (for hubby), and gas and then there is none left for booze. Anyway, gotta get to work, I get off at 1:00 ish today and I will go to the gym for an hour or hour n a half n then home for a protein shake and some cleaning. Wow I thought I lost this post! Wooo, that would have been ashamed! Have a great day all!

[DizzyBee]

May makeover

Hi Everyone
I’m snowed under with work until the end of tomorrow and I’m really determined to meet this deadline. I’ll try to check in properly tonight to respond on a more personal level but til then know that I am AF, OK and I am wishing you a happy and healthy day.
:l

[ImaClean]

May makeover

Morning All!

Beginning of day 4 and i feel GREAT!! Went to hot yoga last night, ugh! It's freakin hot. I dont think i have ever sweated that much in my life. Going to be hard getting in a lot of classes as the weather gets warmer but i'm gonna give it my all. It also completely exhausted me, i hope i get used to it or i'm going to be taking a lot of naps. lol

Back from walk and need to get ready for work.

The weekend is coming up and my only plan so far is to drive straight home from work on friday, do not stop at store for wine. Maybe catch a movie on netflix.

Hope you all have a great sober Thursday!