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[SAUSAGE]

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Daya - so glad the lunch went well.

You can do this - check out my post (earlier today in the Tool Box ) where I write my thoughts at each stage of the first 70 days. It may give you an idea what to expect. It won't always be this hard. It will get much easier.

[Struggles 106]

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Hey Daya

Great! Sounds like good lunch. I'll bet your son is very hopeful.

Stay strong!

[Over It!]

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SAUSAGE;1310470 wrote: Daya - so glad the lunch went well.

You can do this - check out my post (earlier today in the Tool Box ) where I write my thoughts at each stage of the first 70 days. It may give you an idea what to expect. It won't always be this hard. It will get much easier.

Sausage,
how do I look at your thoughts in the Tool Box? I still cant seem to find it. :upset:

[SAUSAGE]

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Go to the Tool Box thread - its the top thread in the Monthly Abstinence section.
My thoughts post is currently the last item posted - post # 198
Hope you find it OK

[MadtownMom]

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Shocked me

One night my daughter made a comment about how I was drunk and said, "Mom's an alcoholic" right in front of my son and husband. My jaw hit the ground and I felt humiliated. Talk about a slap of reality. I thought I was fooling everyone, even myself. Kids can really pick up on things - especially those you don't want them to.

My Father was an alcoholic and I vowed I would never do that to my kids. I am beginning to realize that I need to nip this in the bud now before it gets even worse and I end up just like him. I am a binge drinker on the weekends mostly, but I know it is a slippery slope. I just hope I can clean up my act and be a better example for my kids.

[K9Lover]

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MM -
My daughter and I talk openly about my past drinking. It really hurt her, but it didn't do "irrepairable" damage, thank goodness. She wrote me a letter one night saying she has a good life, EXCEPT that she cried every night because she thought I was going to die. That was the night I decided I was done. We are now able to talk about it and I am quite honest with her. In fact last night I even said "sometimes I miss beer" and she said "You don't need it mom, you're doing good"....It made me feel good and happy and proud. You can get to that point too. Good for you for starting now while your kids are young. You can all get past this.
Stay strong!
K9

[MadtownMom]

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Hard Look in the Mirror

Yes, I am trying to take a hard look at myself as if I were someone on the outside observing. Not easy to do. The thing that motivates me is my kids and wanting them to have a happy healthy life. I don't want them to end up with dependency issues.

I feel hopeful that I am admitting that I need help. It's easy to fool yourself into thinking you have it all under control when it's obvious you don't. Thanks for the encouragement.

[K9Lover]

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MM,
It gets easier to look yourself in the mirror, trust me on this. I would NOT meet my own eye when I was in the thralls of alcoholism. I couldn't believe how I behaved. Not only did I do embarrassing stupid shit, I drove WAY too many times (just around the corner...but that could have turned out BAAAD!). The day after was always so shameful for me. Oh and believe me, I thought I was so bad ass, everything under control. Single/working/independent mom, holding it all down, paying the bills, keeping the house running, blah, blah, blah. I was a drunk. The good thing is, I don't have to ever go back there, and neither do you. Stay strong and keep posting. It helps to let stuff out!
K9

[Guitarista]

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K9Lover;1312663 wrote:
In fact last night I even said "sometimes I miss beer" and she said "You don't need it mom, you're doing good"....It made me feel good and happy and proud.
K9

That's so cool Niner. You're doing good alright. You're one of my heroes around here.

Great stuff Daya. Keep cracking on. We don't need booze to enjoy ourselves or to cope, ever. It is one of the great myth's and a big fat lie. It is easier after a few months AF and we have learned other ways to spend our time. We just have to keep on plodding through and have faith that with every AF day, we are healing and growing stronger. And we are.

Thankyou for this thread, and to all contributors. It has somehow warmed my heart hugely, and inspired me no end.

Take care all, and just do it. :h

[K9Lover]

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Guitarista;1312871 wrote: That's so cool Niner. You're doing good alright. You're one of my heroes around here.

Right back at'cha G-Bloke!

Yep, keep crackin' Daya! You can do this and we are here to help!

K9