Well finally I guess that if I admit this in public I might just drag my sorry arse to do something about it! My husband first found this site a bit before Christmas, and whilst looking at posts/threads over his shoulder I thought to myself yeah yeah yeah im fine, if I need to kerb this I can do it on my own, famous last words huh, I then didnt have a drink for about 5 days, then slowly the litres of wine are being downed again by the evening.
What really bought it home, as it does everytime, was New Years Eve, we were spending the time with my family and woke up New Years Day with that "I remember bugger all" feeling and then it kicks in, the dread of how you acted and treated everyone, and yes true to form as my husband unfolded the evening for me I was that right royal verbal pain in the arse abusive drunk.
So this morning I wake up with the same feeling as then after remembering only upto round 6 of the 10 round pub quiz. I truely deeply feel inside worthless and embarressed but then you have that little voice that kind of justifies it all and the "I dont care" voice, but I do and really have to do something about addressing the (I was going to say situation there, but ill be honest) PROBLEM that I have.
So here I am, not sure how it all works, but hey the way I feel right now, and I dont mean a hangover because strangely enough I didnt have one, I have to start somewhere.
So, Hi and thanks for reading my rant X
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