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[janka]

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I have had countless day 1s for over 7 years. Feel like a jerk. Cannot say I'll be abstinent.

[Destiniey]

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De Nile is not just a river in Egypt.
Omgod LB.....I love it!!!! Soooooooooo true!

[briseus]

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It is true.
Drinking is no longer fun for me.
When you sit there and think about your first drink and then you have it and think to yourself "here we go on another craptastic drunken roller coaster ride".

Of course sometimes I do have a lot of fun...but I haven't been able to for the past week...I was so content with being sober...but that addictive voice sometimes won out.
Not sure why.
Especially with all the health problems we all could be potentially facing in the future.

Day 1 for me tomorrow.
And congrats Destiniey on Day 6!

[briseus]

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Janka - keep on trying.
You've been drinking the past 7 years or more? How much would you say? Daily?

It sometimes can be so hard when you say to yourself that you are never drinking again. I am so young! But I gotta do it. At least the 30 days. If I can do 30 days! Then anything is possible!

LG - De Nile...yup. Before you know it one day you will wake up and want that drink right away. I know I have...and it all happened in one year!

I know this is strange, but once I labeled myself an "alcoholic" I thought that gave me a "get out of jail free" card to drink as heavily, as much, as long as I wanted to.
That if I relapsed - oh well, try again...
Just keep going on and on and on.
Isn't that bizarre??

[janka]

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Maybe I should not venture to quit just moderate. I can do that.

[briseus]

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It is up to you and I wish you all the best.
I tried to moderate but couldn't. I have a problem - end of story. And the only way to solve it was to quit drinking all together...
Mind you...I am doing 30 days first and then see what happens after.
If you are going to moderate then truly moderate...if you keep thinking about that second or third drink afterwards than you will know you can't control it.
Alcohol has the power over us...

I really think you should check out AVRT Janka! It is interesting!

[janka]

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What's AVRT?

[briseus]

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Addictive Voice Recognition Technique.

It's the biggest thing next to AA.

If you google "AVRT Crash Course" click on the first link. Make sure to not drink while doing this though.
It really has helped me put some sober time under my belt. I just should have taken it a lot more seriously. I am not big into AA and don't think supps alone will help (for me anyway) so reading up on addiction/recovery has helped me in the past...

I hope it helps you hun. Let me know how you make out.
Really READ it. )
xo

[TheSunFlower]

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Bri

I so relate. Once I called myself an alcoholic....then it was not my fault. Some people don't drink because they are, others drink because they are. I remember being at a bar once and telling the guy sitting next to me that I was an alcholic.....and to boot calling my sponsor! He must have been terribly impressed That said, a friend of mine who went to out patient....I guess it was pointed out that once you know you are one.....then it does become a choice vs. doing something that you have no idea that you are. Now days I don't like the word because its become a joke among people. I am a shopalholic (haha) a shoealohic (haha).....of course they have no idea how serious this is.....but the label has lost its meaning for me. I am a person who abuses AL. I do go to one meeting a week and label myself there, but only there.

[janka]

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Labels do not help me. They end up being self-fulfilling prophescies.

[janka]

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BTW ... I find meetings helpful but rehashing past is not useful.

[LibraryGirl]

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Janka, ordinarily I would agree. Rehashing the past seems redundant, but there's also a saying that if you can't remember the past, you're what? That's right you're destined to repeat it. Cliche yes, but also true. It has helped me to see what I wrote and where I was when I first came here. It has also helped me to "rehash" the past and think about some of the stupid, crazy and downright dangerous things I've done while drunk. If it helps you more to think about a sober future, then that is what you should do.:l

LG