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[briseus]

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Thanks K9 and I hope you have a wonderful time with your family! Congrats (again) on quitting smoking. You won't regret it! My life is so much better for it since I quit. Now I just have to shake this alcohol thing.

So I told myself that I was going to have a drink at 5pm and it is after 5 and still no wine for me. YAY! I did the entire day without booze and I'm still here! Lol.
I have some yardwork that I need to finish up so I won't be having wine for a while yet.

I am still up in the air about my quit date...if it is going to be tomorrow or if it is going to be this coming Monday. I always start things on Monday's...and I know that quitting right before the weekend is going to be tricky as Saturday's are HUGE drinking nights.

Usually I post after a huge argument about my drinking with the boyfriend...this time everything is totally fine and I guess I am just disappointed in myself for doing the every night thing after 2 weeks sober (one drinking night on Saturday) another 2 weeks sober (then a 3 day binge), 4 days sober and then drinking since this past Saturday.
I guess I really can't moderate...hm..
Lots of thinking done today and I am preparing myself for the no booze thing.

Thanks for always listening to me ramble on K9!
Safe and fun travels with you and your family!

[mama bear]

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GOOD JOB B!!!!

[LibraryGirl]

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Good job, Bri!! Are you in school or working? Or is it summer vacation? I know if I had too much time on my hand, I would be drinking. I did some reading on moderating before I quit, and one of the suggestions was to wait later and later to start, so maybe that will help a little.

[briseus]

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Thanks Ladies!
I didn't drink all day AND my first glass was at 7pm! An hour later and I am on two. Usually I am half in the bag!!
That makes sense LG. Start later.
The idea of not drinking at all was something I toyed with. Ugh. Toyed. I shouldn't say that. It was something I considered seriously but the temptation of that wine bottle was too great tonight.
Tomorrow there will be no wine (just beer but I hate beer) so my day will be fine. I am planning already how to keep myself busy.
I am going to set my quit date on Monday and tell the bf so he can hold me accountable. I also have an appointment with an addictions counsellor on the 28th of June so I feel like I am already making progress. )
Hope you all are fabulous!!!

[pixie]

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Hi Bri!

Sounds like you're doing a great job at moderating tonight. I'm also working at moderation while I try to decide on my long term goals. For myself the two key things are 1) starting later (which LG mentioned) and
2) keeping yourself distracted, which helps with #1.

I hope you keep reading and keep posting - there's lot's of good people here to give advice.

[Destiniey]

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Bri...So sorry about last night but look at the progress you made today! I am so proud of and I know how hard it is not to drink when there is AL in the house...I have never been able to resist it so now I just keep my house AF....well at least for the last 3 days! Ha! Today is my day 3 AF and I made it! YAY! Usually on day 3 I am downing the vodka to celebrate....but today I have been downing my supplements. I hit a couple tough times but all in all it's been tolerable. I listened to a Stop Drinking hypnosis CD last night in bed before I went to sleep. I slept in the guest room so that I wasn't hooked up to a friggin cd player in bed with my husband! Ha! I need my "Me" time right now and it was very nice and relaxing being by myself and having the WHOLE bed to myself! Ha! I know it may sound selfish but its what I need right now. My husband can see how hard I am trying and has stopped asking me if I have "behaved" and actually asked me if I was doing OK and if I was feeling OK. I was shocked! Congrats on your moderation....you can do this.....I have faith in you....keep me posted!!!!!

[Destiniey]

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K9...I was on here this morning but it was only like 5 am your time!!!! I worked all day and didn't get on here til now. I wanted to wih you the best of luck with your smoking....just remember....I am your cheering sqad....Mamas too! I did really good today....day 3 and still AF....usually by now I am half in the bag from the vodka I drank to celebrate!!!! I am totally in a different place this time and I am looking forward to waking up to day 4!!! Anywho...have fun on your mini-vaca and we will catch up when you get back!

[FlyAway]

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Nicely done Destiniey!

[Destiniey]

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Thanks so much Fly! That is just the encourgement that I needed to hear before heading to bed!

[briseus]

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Hello everyone!

Would like to say that I did pretty well last night with moderating and not getting stupid drunk. I actually remember the evening. )
There is no booze left in the house - other then some beers which don't interest me so staying sober during the day won't be a problem.
I am still going to mod before my quit date which is Monday.

I have a question.
I had some considerable sober time the last month and now seem to not be able to drink like I used to (not that I want to) and was wondering if anyone else experienced this...it isn't terribly important but I remember being able to drink an entire bottle of wine no problem and now I am having issues with just half a bottle already (I'm talking the big bottles too).

Thanks for listening!
I actually might even just buy a small bottle for tonight and wait even later to have the first glass. Hope everyone is having a lovely Friday.

Oh - and no hangover today! Thank goodness.

[LibraryGirl]

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Good job on moderating Bri. It's nice to remember our lives. It should be something we take for granted, if we are young and healthy. That's a good reminder of what AL (poison) does.

As for not being able to drink as much, I feel that way too. The last few times I drank I was not tempted to drink very much. However, I have read where other members did the same, but over some time got right back up to where they were if not worse. AL is a sneaky beast and the minute you forget how dangerous it is, you are in trouble.

Hope you have a wonderful day!

LG

[briseus]

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Thanks LG. I agree...alcohol is a sneaky beast.
I am not going to moderate here forever...I do want to quit. I don't want it to have a hold over me like it has and I know that I will go back to drinking heavily again.
I am actually kinda excited for Monday to start so I can start my AF life!

How are you doing in your journey?

[TheSunFlower]

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Because

Once you realize you have an issue with drinking....it ruins your drinking. I like you, did many of the same things....drinking later. Regardless, of what you do now....you will not have that same joy drinking.....as you did when you were not aware you had a problem. I am only speaking for myself....but, when I held off on the drink if it was hours....or days....when I caved....I never got the same joy I did before. Now I knew better. And did it anyways. I would love to be "none aware" again.....but, do I really want that? Its what got me here. If that makes sense. And when I got aware.....the internet was not even born yet, much less sites like this.

[Australia]

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All those things you've said k9 are exactly how I feel and what I do, moderating or choosing to quit later only leads to my binging. It's horrible. and im heading for 40 this year too!

[LibraryGirl]

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TheSunFlower;1323129 wrote: Once you realize you have an issue with drinking....it ruins your drinking. I like you, did many of the same things....drinking later. Regardless, of what you do now....you will not have that same joy drinking.....as you did when you were not aware you had a problem. I am only speaking for myself....but, when I held off on the drink if it was hours....or days....when I caved....I never got the same joy I did before. Now I knew better. And did it anyways. I would love to be "none aware" again.....but, do I really want that? Its what got me here. If that makes sense. And when I got aware.....the internet was not even born yet, much less sites like this.

This is so true! I know that I would consciously NOT even allow myself to admit to myself that I had a problem. Other people might say, I'm never drinking again! after a terrible hangover, but I never did. I wouldn't even say anything about feeling bad after drinking. In some ridiculous part of my mind I thought that if I admitted (even to myself) that I had a problem and that I needed to QUIT, then I would have to, lol. And I loved it too much.

LG

P.S. Sometimes I would ask my bf: Do I drink as much as your father did? (his father died of alcoholism at age 52) He would always respond: Noooo! He drank all day long. And with that, I would comfort myself. De Nile is not just a river in Egypt.