I'm new here also, and so glad I found this site. I've been having marital problems for a while now related to my drinking (no violence though, just arguments about honesty), and finally decided that enough is enough. First off, I'm in my early 40's and have been drinking heavily for about 6 or 7 years. By heavy I mean anywhere from 4 to about 8 ounces of hard alcohol per day, after work, with the occasional day off (about 1 or two a week). I considered myself a "functioning alcoholic" and thought I was OK with it, but I've come to realize that a problem with AH is a problem with AH and won't get better on its own. I also teach in the medical field, and very well know the effects of alcohol on the body.
My wife knows that I have been hiding AH, and is constantly checking up on me. I have hurt her very much with my promises, and I know that she has given me many chances, but she's had enough - and so have I. I don't want to quit for her directly, although I'm aware my relationship will improve without the AH. I really need this for ME. So far the willpower hasn't been in me until now. I recently promised her there wouldn't be any more problems, but I think we all know how that promise goes. I actually was doing well with cravings for about a week on Kudzu, Niacin, a Multivitamin for Men and Hawthorn (to help with my AH-induced blood pressure). I moved that stuff into a different cupboard, and forgot to take it. Needles to say, my cravings are back and I relapsed - a major problem with my relationship then ensued. I'm keeping those vitamins on my desk from now on so I remember to take them every day, in hopes of saving my marriage.
Sorry for the long post, but I've spent about 3 hours reading this forum and it's been very helpful. I plan on getting some L-Glutamine tomorrow to see if that also helps.
This looks like a very supportive place to visit, and I thank you in advance for all your help! I know I can do this, I HAVE to do this.
WAY looking forward to AF so I can enjoy the occasional social drink someday without further problems....
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