Reading the community posts here is certainly inspiring. Those who have failed and still come back to try again, as well as those who succeed but still find value in helping others, it's a draw to the site.
I've been struggling with my drinking since college when I thought getting sick and blackouts were a result of starting on anti-depressants and the effect of drinking while on them. Of course I have the perfect excuse of starting college and being a typical college girl. Unfortunately the binge drinking is a typical college experience but that's a WHOLE other Pandora?s box.
Some 10 years later the drinking is still out of control. I don't know where I cross the line in the evening from having a few drinks and being social to being the girl who goes home with a stranger only to wake up without the slightest recollection as to what happened. I've eaten everything out of the fridge in a post-bar binger, passed out and wet the bed, and had hangovers that have lasted for days. When I look at the wasted time and energy of worrying about it all I wonder why I can't channel that into moderation. This is not the life I would choose for myself.....and yet it is the life I consistently choose for myself.
I've considered abstinence but I am not ready to be the odd one out. It is such an excuse but drinking plays a huge part in being a single 30-something trying to be social in the city. I would love to be able to have a glass of wine, sip it slowly, have a water or two and then see how I feel. Instead I have two glasses for every one of those my friends do. They're always shocked when I say I'd blacked out the night before. Apparently I'm seemingly sober and in control, even when I go home with someone. And yet I don't recall anything that has happened since drink number 4 or 5 or 6.....depending on the night.
And so I'm going to try the plan here and hope that I can make it work for me.....
BUT....
How do you recommend keeping the medication prescription from your insurance company. I do not want my insurance company having any sort of inkling that I am a problem drinker. The ramifications of what they can do are just too high. I have enough trouble as a person with depression in getting health insurance . I know if they sniffed a drinking problem I 'd be black balled from any company I applied with ever again (I am an older student without Cobra or a pt benefit package).
Also, these meds that are suggested, do any of you take them with antidepressants and have your physicians given any indication that there is negative drug interaction?
Thanks to those of you who can offer answers to these questions!
I've been struggling with my drinking since college when I thought getting sick and blackouts were a result of starting on anti-depressants and the effect of drinking while on them. Of course I have the perfect excuse of starting college and being a typical college girl. Unfortunately the binge drinking is a typical college experience but that's a WHOLE other Pandora?s box.
Some 10 years later the drinking is still out of control. I don't know where I cross the line in the evening from having a few drinks and being social to being the girl who goes home with a stranger only to wake up without the slightest recollection as to what happened. I've eaten everything out of the fridge in a post-bar binger, passed out and wet the bed, and had hangovers that have lasted for days. When I look at the wasted time and energy of worrying about it all I wonder why I can't channel that into moderation. This is not the life I would choose for myself.....and yet it is the life I consistently choose for myself.
I've considered abstinence but I am not ready to be the odd one out. It is such an excuse but drinking plays a huge part in being a single 30-something trying to be social in the city. I would love to be able to have a glass of wine, sip it slowly, have a water or two and then see how I feel. Instead I have two glasses for every one of those my friends do. They're always shocked when I say I'd blacked out the night before. Apparently I'm seemingly sober and in control, even when I go home with someone. And yet I don't recall anything that has happened since drink number 4 or 5 or 6.....depending on the night.
And so I'm going to try the plan here and hope that I can make it work for me.....
BUT....
How do you recommend keeping the medication prescription from your insurance company. I do not want my insurance company having any sort of inkling that I am a problem drinker. The ramifications of what they can do are just too high. I have enough trouble as a person with depression in getting health insurance . I know if they sniffed a drinking problem I 'd be black balled from any company I applied with ever again (I am an older student without Cobra or a pt benefit package).
Also, these meds that are suggested, do any of you take them with antidepressants and have your physicians given any indication that there is negative drug interaction?
Thanks to those of you who can offer answers to these questions!
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