I'm not very "old" but i suppose not new too
I'm on Day 7 and it' s the first time since i arrived in Australia last september!!!
What helped me this time??? I have to clarify that my ex-fiance, now husband (yes i'm freshly married) is alcoholic too and he drinks every evening despite my requests to support me and actually to improve his health too...
1) My day 1 this time was very terrible+ after 6 months i quit Zoloft - slowly and with scheme but anyway i had some withdrawal..i read some info and discussions in depression forum about poor americans who' s doctors prescribed them "horse doses" of this drug!!! I was lucky i had "baby dose" and i took it only 6 months not for years..those guys really suffered from a huge side effects for weeks..
So, i'm afraid to say - never ever, but i really don' t want to be addicted to any chemical which changes your brain chemistry. There are herbs, meditations, yoga etc.
2) I have very big determination to see my daughter on her highschool graduation on July11. I have ticket but i'm in a process of getting "normal" Australian visas..It' s abnourmous work with papers, documentations..piles of papers...i postponed guess why??? drinking!!! not clear mind, no control etc. and this is really serious!!! I applied for permanent visa, but now i have to get visa for travel otherwise i' ll be able to leave AUS but not to come back:H Quite strong "wake up" !!!!
3) This time i really religiously listen to MWO cd' s. i bought a new mp3 player and coppied them. Day 1 i was such wrek that i only was reading MWO all day, iwas not able to write.. My muscles were so tense, hands shaking..didn' t sleep in the night.
Day 2 in the morning i felt better but still my spine was blocked, anxiety..I put Hypnotic NR1..Probably i was counscous till the middle than i collapsed in a sleep..i woke up when voice told me to wake up..it was miracle!!!! My muscles were almost loose, less anxiety..i started slowly normal life again.
I have some meditation and hypnosis expierience which of course helps me.
My favorite are Clearing cd' s..i think i (and EVERYBODY OF US HERE IN MWO) have a lots of pain, losts, guilt, regrets etc. which have to be healed..after Clearing sessions i really feel more light, bright, even transparent and MOST IMPORTANT - more in PEACE with myself..which i never had..
Wishing everybody sunny day (here in AUS is winter but from my northern herritage perspective - is early autumn or spring)!!!
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