Hi im brand new to this. Realised i need to quit for good and this site is perfect as i then will have a support network right there! I started drinking from being T- Total 7 yrs ago when i had post natal depression wth my daughter. My mum has always drank and we witnessed this but as far as shes concerned she doesnt have a prob at all...and no one would think to look at her either as she has done well for herself throu out life.
My problem is i have 4 kids newest has just turned 1 and when i started drinking yrs ago it was one or 2 bottles a week sometimes more....until these past few weeks where it is now a bottle a night, 2 last night! Ive always hated feeling that i need it in some way...to give me confidence, because im bored, stressed etc etc I really can not do this to myself anymore or my poor kids as they have seen me pretty drunk sometimes and i dont ever want them feeling how i felt about my mum. My husband adores me, i am lucky but i know if i keep going its going to escalate and it will evntually push him away. I feel theres no will power, i always tell myself that wil be the last bottle. Thats why i hope admitting things to ppl in the same boat me help me hugely as i know im not the only one going through it. I wouldnt admit it to my mum she can be great at criticising me and im too proud to admit to friends as i tend to look like the strong one to them that can handle anything. Thanks for any replies :new:
My problem is i have 4 kids newest has just turned 1 and when i started drinking yrs ago it was one or 2 bottles a week sometimes more....until these past few weeks where it is now a bottle a night, 2 last night! Ive always hated feeling that i need it in some way...to give me confidence, because im bored, stressed etc etc I really can not do this to myself anymore or my poor kids as they have seen me pretty drunk sometimes and i dont ever want them feeling how i felt about my mum. My husband adores me, i am lucky but i know if i keep going its going to escalate and it will evntually push him away. I feel theres no will power, i always tell myself that wil be the last bottle. Thats why i hope admitting things to ppl in the same boat me help me hugely as i know im not the only one going through it. I wouldnt admit it to my mum she can be great at criticising me and im too proud to admit to friends as i tend to look like the strong one to them that can handle anything. Thanks for any replies :new:
Nice meeting you!! Im honestly over the moon ive found this site, i dont feel like im on my own anymore or should be ashamed. Its just normal ppl like myself, with families...who work etc etc and it nice that i can finally feel comfortable and talk and get support while i sort myself out, it now seems so doable where as before i thought id be going round and round and round. Never felt so positive about the whole thing in yrs!! 
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