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[Pooks]

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Sorry to hear family feeling ill and you are havin a few wobbly thoughts. Hope all calms down for you soon x

[mauritiusdodo]

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Thanks Pooks

Feeling strong again, my AL thoughts are getting crushed the minute they enter my head, I am so determined now, I can't actually believe I have managed to cut down by so much and that I have actually found some willpower from somewhere!!

[vlivengood]

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Maur - Soooooo excited for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Keep up the good work and I love reading all your inspiring posts and even the raw honest ones when things are tough

[mauritiusdodo]

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thanks vliven

I am trying to be honest about my thoughts and feelings in the hope that I will hear myself trying to quit quitting and stop myself in my tracks lol

[mauritiusdodo]

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So I went to my AA big book study tonight, it was a bit strange at first, I passed up on my turn to read as I don't feel ready to speak out yet, I didn't really 'get' the passage we read but I always struggle with understanding unless I read things for myself they don't sink in! the sharing afterwards was meant to be geared towards what we had read but actually only one person made reference to it. The shares were all very inspiring and there were a couple of people who shared after only a few weeks of sobriety, their shares were very moving and I really enjoyed the meeting as a whole.

Just drunk my quota for this evening (200ml) and tomorrow is my last drink, I already have a mini bottle in the cupboard, it is a major accomplishment for me to leave al and go to bed but that is exactly what i am about to do, good night everyone

[daisy45]

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You are doing great Mauri; even though you official day 1 is not here yet, I feel you have already gotten a few under your belt.....be proud of yourself. I don't think I would have been able to do it using reduction - well done.

[K9Lover]

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I applaud you as well Mauri. The reduction technique never worked for me, even though I tried and tried. Stay strong, you can do this!

[mauritiusdodo]

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Thanks daisy and k9

Well last day today, i am exhausted as ds still not well and i was up a lot in the night, dh not good at all either so looking bleak on the weekend front feeling fed up as i was really looking forward to some child free time not to mention a night away with my hubby

No idea what I am going to do this weekend if we can't go, the thought of staying at home nursing two sick people fills me full of dread if I am honest, I thought at least being out and about would take my mind off not drinking, if I am stuck here it is going to be ten times harder I tell you every single time DH and I have gone away in the last three years (4 times) one of us has been ill, I think we are just doomed to be miserable.

Sorry for the pity party but I feel shit today and my son is so difficult, he won't take any medicine just point blank refuses and trying to force it he spits it out so his temperature won't come down and now he is complaining of tummy ache but it is because he hasn't eaten for two days but won't try anything :upset: AAAARGH I am being pushed to my limits :upset:

Rant over

[JackieClaire]

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Mauri ~

Sending you massive amounts of strength for your last night.

I know it's not easy with wee one and a husband being sick but you'll cope. I have every faith in you.

Give yourself 5 minutes today to write down everything that you wished for your birthday. Doesn't matter how ridiculous from a Rolls Royce to a pedicure, then when your DH is better see how many things he can arrange for your slightly delayed birthday.

Anyway we'll have a HUGE party here on MWO for you with cakes, hats and music. Your special day won't pass without celebration.

Oh and have one of these :l

[mauritiusdodo]

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Jackie thank you (i seem to be a stuck record but I really mean it) I appreciate your help so much I can't tell you! My actual bd is Monday so I guess even if we don't get out on Saturday there is still Monday although DH will be at work and I will have DS so will be groundhog really!! I am on such a downer today, DS is really trying my patience, I mean I know he is ill but he is just being a nightmare and I am at the end of my tether, been in tears already, my sis is coming round for lunch soon though so although she has no idea about my AL problems at least I will have company for a few hours - just hope she doesn't turn up with wine!!!

I am feeling strong for today, keeping in mind my desire to be af and the reasons behind it and I am sooooooo determined, something has finally changed in me this time and for all I could murder a drink right now I don't actually want one - IYKWIM?

[mauritiusdodo]

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EVer wonder why you bother? I made a lovely lunch of wild mushroom tortellini with mushroon and pesto sauce, a mixed salad and some red onion and garlic flat breads and my sister hardly ate a thing, she also refused dessert of tiramisu, I am so pissed off with her, we have had loads of really bad ups and downs over the years and I now feel like we hardly have anything in common at all, I find it hard to talk to her, i didn't even want her to come for lunch but she kind of invited herself as she was bringing my bd present, also she brought my bd card from my Mum with her saying my Mum said she didn't know if she would see me before Monday - WTF why couldn't she arrange to bring it to me herself honestly my family are half the reason I drink they stress me out beyond belief


:upset::upset:

Not having a good day at all!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mauritiusdodo]

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PS All this trauma is making me more determined that I will get through stress in my life without alcohol!!!!!

[pixie]

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mauritiusdodo;1355642 wrote: EVer wonder why you bother?

Hi Mauri

It sucks when other people let you down, but in the end you only have control over your own actions. Don't let others' behaviors take you down.

I'm sorry so much is going on right now. If you stick to your AF plan, despite all the stress, think how much stronger you will feel. Can you reschedule the dinner/hotel plans for next weekend? Think how good you'll feel celebrating one week AF, and how easy it will feel to have a good time without AL. Good luck, and an early Happy Birthday! :goodtime:

[Byrdlady]

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Mauri....welcome to Life 101. The best laid plans....don't let all this crap build up into an EXCUSE to give in. This is what separates the men from the boys...you will be so much better able to cope with these things once you get AL OUT! That sounds odd, I know...but my coping skills are 10 times better than they ever were drinking. Do not let these incidences become EXCUSES to drink....just dodge those bullets...the best birthday present you can give yourself IS yourself...you know all these things, I'm not telling you anything new...just THIS time, do not give way no matter what and no matter who.
AL is NOT an option.....(that's what I say to myself). You have been building up to this for years....THIS is your time...DON'T GIVE WAY. Byrdie

Be wary of the pity party (especially at Birthday time)....don't fall for it....

[mauritiusdodo]

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Pixie I am used to being let down by my family I don't know why I am surprised really! They say no man is an island but I have had to be really!!

Byrd I am using these trials to prove to myself how strong I can be, I am not going to give in and succumb this time I promise