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[Aoife]

Hi I am so new to you all and still can't put pen to papr to share my story. Lots of yours sound so familiar. I am here cause I ca nt do this any more. I have. tried everything and foolishly found out I was the biggest fool. I had a thought the the night of mentally getting in a big skip then I thought I'd need 3 to gather up all the bottles over the last 33 yrs. One for wine one for spirits and one for liquiors. Then I realized the wine skip was overflowing so I ordered 2 more one for the whites one for the reds still not enough I had to order more in to separate the whites in to the grape varieties and order more to separate my reds. By this st ge the skip company is very happy as I hold the manoply of his stock. And on and on I separated then realized I needed one for cartons, those days of cask wines! I yet have to get to the spirits and liquiors.
I am now 5 days sober and head was still fuzzy throughout the day. I never want to go back to the lies, the hiding, the fear of been caught, believe me it was a full time job working the system to suit me drinking. I can't tell my husband I am here he acted strange to night as I am buzzing around the house where normally I would be snoring my head off only to wake in the middle of the night dying of thirst and dread the morning.. So many morning I couldn't bring myself to look in the mirror. I must go now. Thank you

[Arrii]

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Hey Aoife, Honestly by coming here you've made the first step. I joined 2 weeks ago and staright away i managed 6 days then i stop coming on here and anyway past couple of nights ive drank 2 bottles of wine both nights. So im back and im def not moving away from this place again! Just to know u have support from other ppl in the same situation, with the same habits, guilt you name it makes a differance. The more you read the more positive i hope you will start to feel matey. We all are in the same boat, the lies, hiding drink, feelling like shit the next day, horrible way of life. Anyway im on day 1 again and for everyones sake including my sanity i need to work harder at staying away from that muck. And matey day 5 is something to be very proud of! Please dont be too hard on yourself, everyone is here to support each other along x

[itsmytime]

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Welcome Aoife,

Day 4 here and really need to quit for good. Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
Let's beat this together!!

[Sober Visitor]

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It so good to see you posting Aoife, and congrats on Day 5! Sound like you're doing a great job, so don't stop before the miracle happens!

One of the best things about being sober, I think, is being able to look look everyone in the eye again, including oursevles. I felt like I no longer had to hide in shame. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my soulders.

Keep up the good work!

Sheri

[Aoife]

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Thanks to you all and Sober Visitor. My husband is acting very strange or is it me acting out of character. I am not ready to tell him for fear of been ridiculed, I just couldn't face that now. I don't want to be known as an alcoholic. I couldn't bear that, but I have truly acknowledged it. Taken me years to come to terms with the reality. :thanks:So pleased I found you and do you know I can't remember how I did, must have been in my drunken days.

[Wildflowers]

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Wow, you are all doing great!.... Just take it one day at a time!... Before you know it, you will be looking in the mirror & smiling back, if you all ready aren't!

It's only taken me 30+ years ta realize, life is so much better, without the poison! It will be two months AF this coming Monday & the rewards are like a dream, that I never thought were possible! The support, advice, & tools here, are a life saver! Plus I laugh & smile so much more now too!

Really glad you are all here! :welcome: :l :h






Done With Alcohol 5/23/12

[Aoife]

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Before I go home I thought best to log in for support, typical Friday and by now normally I would be well and truly on the way spirits first and generally a variety to keep the stock lookings like it never empties and secretly replace. Then on to the white wines and then the red and cause it's Friday, why not a very large liqueur! But NO not tonight, I have eaten so much chocolate chips nuts thought best today to try some fruit. It seems strange been full of food and not full of alcohol, no worries with cops or salty chips to mask the smell walking into the house. I am about to head home pour a ginger ale enjoy my roast chicken and watch Coro St. with my family. Gosh I cant believe I am actually doing this..........THIS IS AN AMAZING FEELING......https://www.mywayout.org/community/im...lies/smile.gif
Look after your selves.

[Wildflowers]

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Fantastic!... I'm smiling with ya! PS. I had me some chocolate too!

Aoife;1352357 wrote: Before I go home I thought best to log in for support, typical Friday and by now normally I would be well and truly on the way spirits first and generally a variety to keep the stock lookings like it never empties and secretly replace. Then on to the white wines and then the red and cause it's Friday, why not a very large liqueur! But NO not tonight, I have eaten so much chocolate chips nuts thought best today to try some fruit. It seems strange been full of food and not full of alcohol, no worries with cops or salty chips to mask the smell walking into the house. I am about to head home pour a ginger ale enjoy my roast chicken and watch Coro St. with my family. Gosh I cant believe I am actually doing this..........THIS IS AN AMAZING FEELING......https://www.mywayout.org/community/im...lies/smile.gif
Look after your selves.

[Arrii]

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Hey Aoife!! You sound ten times more positve!!! Brilliant matey! You will do well, just go for it!!I understand how u feel ashamed about being known as an alcoholic, ive only told my best friend that i have issues and my hubby knows as he sees it and u know mate maybe your husband will be more supportive than u think. Im very proud and i dont want anyone to know either so i totally understand matey x

[Sober Visitor]

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Aoife,

It's so great to see you blossoming in your new AF life. You're doing everything you need to do to make it stick, most importantly taking it one day at a time!

H.A.L.T. is a very good thing to remember, especially in the early days. Never get to hungry, angry, lonely or tired. More times than not, those are the things that will trip us up, so "eat, pray, love and sleep" replaces drink, drink, drink and drink for me. It will take some time for the body and mind to get with our new program, but they'll come around. Practice makes perfect!

This is the only place I feel safe discussing the problem I had with alcohol and my sobriety, and that's what works for me. I don't have to shout it to the world because the most important person that needs to know knows and accepts that I can't drink, PERIOD.

Keep up the great work!

:goodjob:

Sheri

[Aoife]

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New Day and feeling good. You see it was always my eyes that were the big giveaway. Red raw sore and semi closed. Last night I got makeup in my eye rubbed it and this morning it's raw red. BUt I Can look in the mirror. Thanks Wildflower, Arri & Sober V. I was driving home last night and thought why do these guys even care for me. Oh devil legs pulling me in. I am so grateful and it's wonderful to pour your heart out and Arri I don't have to tell the world you're right. Now best go and get some housework done! Talk later most definitely.
By the way what is H.A.L.T. .

[Aoife]

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What is H.A.L.T ??

[tawnyfrog]

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Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired

[Guitarista]

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Great stuff Aoife.

Well done on getting started. Keep it going friend and just do your best.

Have you read our https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Some great info and strategies there.

G-bloke.

[Aoife]

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Still finding my way round. No haven't come across The Tool Box. It's feels SOOOOOO good being SOBER.