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[Nursie]

Sorry i haven't been on. As most of you know, my younger brother was killed in a terrible accident on June 13th. I wasn't allowed to see his body. There was an ongoing traffic investigation so we couldn't bury him until July 8th. We had hi cremated and buried where his will directed. i said the eulogy. I planned everything.

Anyway, I drank.....alot....for the first 3 weeks after his death. I started smoking cigarettes too!

I stopped drinking and smoking. But I have found myself drinking the mouthwash. MOUTHWASH. I am astonished beyond belief, but it's true and I have done it a few times.

I'm sitting here telling you the truth because my brother was an alcoholic and addict and I don't want to be.

[ATLThrash]

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Nursie-- I remember all the trials you went through with your brother some time back and if I recall with your mom. Isn't there a history with your sister as well? oh nursie my heart hurts for you! I am here to helP in any way I can-- you know what you need to do -- but I know it is not easy. First, throw out the booze and the mouthwash-- then set about trying to getting a plan-- I know it sounds trite and I hate to sound that way-- but step by step is the only way to get out of it. I am here for you!!

[Kradle123]

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:hNursie:

I dont know you well but I have read and benefitted form your posts. I am stunned by your news. I can't remember of your brother had moved away from Al and Drugs yet.
I feel in my bones that you will though. Please stay close to MWO. So many poeple here to help you for as long as need be.

Strength and huge hugs,

:groupluv:

[WickedMom]

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Hi Nursie,
I'm really sorry to hear your news. I remember you talking about your brother earlier this year. It's so sad -- such an unnecessary end. My younger brother also died in an alcohol related accident. I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could say or do to make it better, but all I can say is please be kind to yourself. I'm sending you strength. Take care.

[Guitarista]

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Hey Nursie,

Good to see you posting. I'm so sorry to hear of your brother.

Stick with us here. Make sure you stick around here if it helps you in any way whatsoever. Keep yapping and keep communicating if you can, whether that's here, or with good people in your world.

Take care of yourself, and cool signature you have.

G-bloke.

[Wildflowers]

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Hi Nursie,

I've had you heavy on my mind the last few days!... Wondering if I should put a shout out to you I knew it had been a month on 7/13, that your brother had passed. I just wanted to give you, your privacy, but I've been concerned, even worried about you!

Even though we've never met, I do care a lot for you & your son! Your story is probably one of the hardest I've read. I know you want to get well & give your son the life you never had!.. You will get well & give him that life you never had!... You are just in so much pain right now!...

One day soon you will take all this pain, suffering & turn it into your strength! Strength to fight, strength to overcome, strength to heal!... Healing that will lead to a healthier & reasonably happier & sound life, for you & your precious son!....

In time your pain & suffering will ease hun!.... Take our hands & let us help you!... Please ~ please seek out some professional counseling!.... If you don't have Ins. There are free agencies in many communities that provide this service to people who are in need!....

I have been praying for you & I will keep praying for you too!... You can PM me anytime & I will give you my e-mail. I will even call you if you want!. There are others here to who will help!

Can you please start out tom, by eating something decent & drinking lots off water? Do you have any relatives or friends you can call? Please ~ please, dump out the mouth wash hun! I drank it once or twice, when I was desperate too. Out of booze a long time ago. Oh gawd, my stomach was in shambles!....

Please know you can & will get sober again! That you are loved very much! You are being watched over & you have friends here that will encourage you to get sober, get healthier! It will happen for you hun, it's just going ta take some time & a bit of effort! It will be worth it!...

You deserve this, you are worth it!... Keep reaching out here!... You are loved!....

Love,

Wildflowers :l :h

[daisy45]

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Nursie, I am glad to see you back. I have also thought of you often. So sorry to hear about your brother. I will pray that things ease for you....every post you ever make holds a strong desire to be sober and that is what you will build on. Don't let the thought of what is ahead overwhelm you. Take baby steps and know that you have the support of us all here......take care.

[itsmytime]

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Sorry Nursie,
I know the pain of losing a brother and how terrible grief can affect us.

Take care,
IMT

[Mick]

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Nursie,
sorry to hear your news.I am new here so didn't know you before, but I join with the rest in saying we are behind you all the way

[LibraryGirl]

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Thinking of you, Nursie.:l You were so helpful and kind to me when I came here. I'm so sorry for your loss. I think of you as a strong, beautiful person and I know you will get better. Please take care of yourself.:l



LG

[Lavande]

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Glad to see you back nursie,
So sorry about your brother. It's difficult to grieve properly when we drink. I know that from personal experience. My 18 year old nephew killed himself in an AL related accident & I was still drinking at the time.

Please take good care of yourself now! Stay away from AL, we all know it's evil & potentially deadly.
You have a good life waiting for you without the bonds of addiction:l

Lav

[Nursie]

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Good Morning all of my beautiful friends,
I can't thank you enough for your kind words and support. Coming here gives me peace and I need that so much right now.
My plate is so full. My step-daughter is in the hospital food attempting suicide again. This time she took prescription medications and 2 bottles of nyquil. She did this the day before my brothers funeral.
My mother has been hospitalized twice since my brother died. My sister had a drug addicted baby but she is doing better now. My other sister is 17 weeks pregnant and she is in the hospital with a possible embolism. When my brother died, his girlfriend was 4 months pregnant. She lost the baby the day and hour of the one month anniversary of his death.
I am overwhelmed with grief and it is so utterly exhausting.
I am going to grief counseling, and when I am strong enough, I will be attending a support group. I am amazed that there are so few resources for sibling grief when it is one of the most significant relationships we have in life.

OK, so today is day 1. I am relieved that I am stopping. I am doing something that my brother was never able to do, or my mother.

Booze out, started my vitamins and ate a healthy breakfast. Said my prayers and I'm going to start working out again starting Monday.

I can do this!

[So over it]

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Oh nursie, my thoughts and prayers a with you and your family.
Stay strong and post if you need support. We are all here for you.
Xx

[mama bear]

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Nursie, my sweet
please don't stray far....keep us posted. I dribble on about my issues, but they are nothing compared to yours.

[Mick]

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Nursie stay strong..your plate is overflowing but take little steps one at a time we are all here for you.God bless
Mick