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[Wildflowers]

Hi, It's me

Hi Nursie,

I am so happy to read this part, that today is your day one! That your relieved that your stopping & that you took time to take care of you!

Stay focused on you, your health, your grief counseling, your recovery!.....

Yes, you can do this!

We are all here for you!.....

I will keep praying! Your tears will be your strength!.... You will overcome!.... You are loved!.... You are not alone!....

Love,

Wildflowers :h :l

[Guitarista]

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Nursie;1353004 wrote: Good Morning all of my beautiful friends,
I can't thank you enough for your kind words and support. Coming here gives me peace and I need that so much right now.
My plate is so full. My step-daughter is in the hospital food attempting suicide again. This time she took prescription medications and 2 bottles of nyquil. She did this the day before my brothers funeral.
My mother has been hospitalized twice since my brother died. My sister had a drug addicted baby but she is doing better now. My other sister is 17 weeks pregnant and she is in the hospital with a possible embolism. When my brother died, his girlfriend was 4 months pregnant. She lost the baby the day and hour of the one month anniversary of his death.
I am overwhelmed with grief and it is so utterly exhausting.
I am going to grief counseling, and when I am strong enough, I will be attending a support group. I am amazed that there are so few resources for sibling grief when it is one of the most significant relationships we have in life.

OK, so today is day 1. I am relieved that I am stopping. I am doing something that my brother was never able to do, or my mother.

Booze out, started my vitamins and ate a healthy breakfast. Said my prayers and I'm going to start working out again starting Monday.

I can do this!

Yes you can, and you are. :h:h:h:l:l

[Guitarista]

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Wildflowers;1353047 wrote: Hi Nursie,

Your tears will be your strength!....

Nice line Wildflowers.

[Pinecone]

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Hi Nursie, I'm sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking about you. Please take extra good care of yourself through this period of your life.

[techie]

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Nursie my deepest condolences and prayers!!!

[ThreeDogNight]

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I am so very sorry for your loss. My brother committed suicide a long time ago when he was 31 years old--took an overdose of drugs and alcohol after my attorney sister got a restraining order against him. He had been living with our parents and terrorizing them , so she had to do it. So horrible. My prayers are with you, and I am in admiration of you for giing up the AL!
:lTDN

[Byrdlady]

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Nursie, I just hated to read about all that is being thrown at you. It just seems to much to bear. No amount of notice would be enough when you lose a brother. A lifetime wouldn't prepare you. I am afrad I know this from bitter experience...I also know that my resolve has really been tested these past 2 months. I did not let AL win...I was able to be there for friends and family when they really needed someone to lead. It was an awesome responsibility...people were counting on me, and I was there. It would have been easy to give in, but to what end? Was one drink going to fix anything? Was one DRUNK going to bring the person back? No...sadly. It would have just made everything worse...just like it always does.
No one ever has regrets when sober....but plenty when they are not. Stay strong, dear lady. Byrdie

[Sober Visitor]

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Hi Nursie,

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your brother and wish there was something I could say to take away your pain. Please know that you don't have to go through this alone, and that we are here to support you in any way we can.

Remember to be kind and gentle with yourself so that you can heal too.

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Sheri

[scottish lass]

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Oh Nursie, so sorry - I am logging back in to try again, and was contemplating all the reasons why I had not succeeded again - and was feeling somewhat righteous until I read your posts - no matter how hard things are, someoen always has it a lot worse - my problems are insignificant when I read what you are facing - and I so know my problems won't get any better if I continue to drink. I have cleared out today ready to start tomorrow, but your note about mouthwash made me remember the bottle of vanilla that started this last fall down the rabbit hole for me - off to clear it out.
Thank you nursie for sharing, and reminding me that what I am facing is not so bad that I can't succeed in this aim....
I do hope you are able to find the strength to do what you need to do, those of us who have managed to have soem AF time do know how much better it is when we are able to get to the otherside, I sincerely have no idea why that knowledge does not make it so much easier to get there though!!
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[Destiniey]

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Nursie...I am so sorry ot hear about your brother! You have so much on your plate right now but you are such a strong person and you can do this! One day at a time and baby steps!!!!! I am sending you big {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}