I'm starting day #1 right now! In one hour the little alarm in my head will start sounding "Time to have a drink". Then 3 or 4 drinks later, I'll be alone, my family in the other room disgusted with me again. Then off to bed and all over again tomorrow! I recently stopped for a solid week, felt good then had a few to celebrate my success. So disappointed in myself and can see the disgust in my kids eyes at dinner. God please help me to do this!
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Hi Mark & Welcome:welcome:
I am all over the little alarm bell going off in my head...for a long time I didn't even realize that that's what that was...
So you are way ahead already.
Lots of support and great tools here. Pop over to the tool box- sorry I don't know how to post to that link. The newbie nest is a go. I'd place to start reading and posting.
You are really are in a god place here. You CAN GET PAST DAY ONE.. I have children too and I completely understand the looks and the hiding and the WTF days...
I have to run as I have to go buy shoes for my twin girls,God help me. ! :H
Stay close and I am glad you found us!
:lOn My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
*If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
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Hi there, just wanted to say hi and good luck, if you have managed a week recently you know you have the strength and courage to do this
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Hi Mark
Day one for me too and its been really really hard, since about 3:30pm. I have a sore head and Im grumpy but just think, tomorrow morning there will be no sicky feeling, sore head, heartburn, no gettin up 3/4 times for a pee and no booze taste in mouth. Fingers crossed for you xComment
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Thanks for the good words!
Good to know I'm not alone!:thanks:Comment
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Day one for me too - it is 5pm, amazing how I looked at the clock exactly at 5pm, the voices are getting louder - but if we do this, tomorrow will feel so good. There seems to be a few of us on day 1 today - hoping this is a good day, thanks for the company!“The only courage you will ever need is the courage to live the life you want"Comment
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You're right, scottish lass. Tomorrow WILL feel so good. You deserve that! You too, Mark and mauritius.Comment
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Welcome Mark, you will get good advice and help here, good luck on your AF journey, I know its not easy, but try and not listen to that alarm.....Mark Garita;1354289 wrote: I'm starting day #1 right now! In one hour the little alarm in my head will start sounding "Time to have a drink". Then 3 or 4 drinks later, I'll be alone, my family in the other room disgusted with me again. Then off to bed and all over again tomorrow! I recently stopped for a solid week, felt good then had a few to celebrate my success. So disappointed in myself and can see the disgust in my kids eyes at dinner. God please help me to do this!
here is the link to the tool box
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.htmlComment
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Day #2, Feeling great, the day is a perfect 10 where I live! Just took an overtime shift at my job this evening so drinking is out of the question today! Trying to keep my free afternoons/evenings busy so I'm not idle! Also figure if I go 30 days alcohol free I might even lose 10 lbs! Glad to have others with me on this trip! So many positives in this if I can do it! My big question is . . . Should I stay off alcohol for the rest of my life or can I have a drink here and there? Wish you all the best! Going for at least 30 without! That's my 1st goal! Cheers! Oops, I mean good luck to you all!Comment
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Ditto to day two - also feel great - woke up this morning to see a pile of chocolate wrappers, so not sure about the 10lb weight loss - but it was so much better than a pile of empties!!!:H
Last night 5 - 9 pm (4pm really) was bad, but signing on here and reading kept me going.
Mark - I had same questions - back in Dec managed the golden 30 days, heck hung on for 66 and thought that if I did that I was just fine - a short 5 months later, I have been back on the yo yo and back up to the daily bottle of wine and more!
I am not ready to say never, but I think that might be my truth....
for this run, I am just going for the one day at a time and trying not to think too much about what could be - just dealing with what is...“The only courage you will ever need is the courage to live the life you want"Comment
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Hi and welcome mark to mwo, You have come to a great community with lots of support and help from people who are or have been where you are now, keep posting and reading and also share your thoughts and feelings in what your going through and remember your not alone in this battle.
:congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:
Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
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Mark, welcome.
Just coming here is a very positive first step. I definitely recommend the Tool Box - found on 2nd or 3rd page after postings, as well as The Newbie's Nest who have seen and done it all.
When we quit we all hope we can go back to moderation because then quitting seems okay. I personally believe it's a myth once we have crossed the line. Moderating then becomes an obsession - how much, when, how, etc. The thing that helped me was to do it in 12 hr block for a while, take Antabuse and once you start thinking clearly again - just keep on going.Enlightened by MWOComment
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Mark, good luck with this - stay with it. Day one for me and feeling sick as a dog after a bender last night. No more - today it ends. Scottish lass - hang in there too. Looks like there are a few people on this train!!Comment
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Day #3 Seem to be OK but eating a bit erratic today! Just polished off a can of cashews! Drinking Lime/Raspberry Soda but have guests coming for dinner who love my Margaritas! Busy working more this week than ever so some good $$$. Was in a parking lot today and spotted a black bag on the ground neatly tied. Thought it would be something nice to investigate? Opened it up to find a plastic cup and 2 empty Pino mini bottles! Someone had a nice snack today but it wasn't me!Comment
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Striving on! Going for day #4! Best of luck to you all!Comment
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