...and it's been an interesting ride!
Aside from anxiety the first few days, and some fatigue, this journey has been pretty easy physically. However, emotionally, it's been a real roller coaster. It's worth it, though.
My mind is already starting to say "Hey, just get off the drugs for a short time, take one night off and have a drink, then you can go back to taking the Antabuse the next day." Then in the back of my mind, the more days of sobriety I string together, the less I want to break that string, so the two sides are battling it out subconsciously.
I'm feeling cautiously optimistic, like I CAN do this. I'm not ready to give up the help of the Antabuse, though. I don't think it would take much to fall back into old patterns.
Thanks to all of you for your support and sharing your lives!
Aside from anxiety the first few days, and some fatigue, this journey has been pretty easy physically. However, emotionally, it's been a real roller coaster. It's worth it, though.
My mind is already starting to say "Hey, just get off the drugs for a short time, take one night off and have a drink, then you can go back to taking the Antabuse the next day." Then in the back of my mind, the more days of sobriety I string together, the less I want to break that string, so the two sides are battling it out subconsciously.
I'm feeling cautiously optimistic, like I CAN do this. I'm not ready to give up the help of the Antabuse, though. I don't think it would take much to fall back into old patterns.
Thanks to all of you for your support and sharing your lives!
eeky::dancingskel::
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