Before I start, I just need to say - I'm not typing this pissed, I truly am THIS rubbish on the relatively new laptop!
Anyway, I am almost 33, a single mum, used to be considered very attractive. Now I am a bloated, overweight, exhausted version of myself that I barely recognise.
At the age of 10, my dad was crying beside my bed and he and my mum were telling me he had a terrible disease (alcoholism). From then on, I had an obsession with alcohol-mainly, avoiding it, and judging my dad and anyone else, whenever I could. And my first serious boyfriend had a bit of a problem with it so we purposely didn't drink together.
But he was sexually abused at a younger age. Dealing with that (as we were each other's first true sexual relationship) and my own crippling shynesss was just too much for 2 teens living together. So we split up and I started drinking like other "normal" friends my age. But then......they started settling down. So only a few boys in my friendship group still went "out" out. And I was then one of them. So I drank more to keep up. There were drunken one night stands, blackouts, but nothing tooooo awful really.
And then I went travelling. I never ever drank wine previously. So I blame the vineyards of western Oz for my downfall. But as ever, there were man "issues". And to be fair, even on the EAST coast, i found myself in random rooms with random men/boys. So maybe discovering wine's palatability wasn't truly the issue.
Anyway, I am almost 33, a single mum, used to be considered very attractive. Now I am a bloated, overweight, exhausted version of myself that I barely recognise.
At the age of 10, my dad was crying beside my bed and he and my mum were telling me he had a terrible disease (alcoholism). From then on, I had an obsession with alcohol-mainly, avoiding it, and judging my dad and anyone else, whenever I could. And my first serious boyfriend had a bit of a problem with it so we purposely didn't drink together.
But he was sexually abused at a younger age. Dealing with that (as we were each other's first true sexual relationship) and my own crippling shynesss was just too much for 2 teens living together. So we split up and I started drinking like other "normal" friends my age. But then......they started settling down. So only a few boys in my friendship group still went "out" out. And I was then one of them. So I drank more to keep up. There were drunken one night stands, blackouts, but nothing tooooo awful really.
And then I went travelling. I never ever drank wine previously. So I blame the vineyards of western Oz for my downfall. But as ever, there were man "issues". And to be fair, even on the EAST coast, i found myself in random rooms with random men/boys. So maybe discovering wine's palatability wasn't truly the issue.
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