Today is Day 2 for me...I really struggled last night, but I made it through. I woke up feeling refreshed. But...I also know myself to well. Since I feel so good I am afraid my feelings will come back...See I can go a day without drinking...I'm fine. But I know I am not. I've said it before and I truly think it still. It's like my head has 2 brains and they are constantly fighting each other rather than working together. It's lunch time here and so far I'm good....besides the constand obsessing about drinking or not drinking. I more so don't want to drink, but I still struggle with why I don't want to drink??? Crazy thoughts in my head...makes me just want to say screw it...I don't want to worry about it anymore..just drink and live my life.
I know that drinking my life away is not the answer. I don't want to feel anxious anymore or guilty or ashamed.
This is such a struggle...thanks for listening! Sorry if I am rambling and not making any since!
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