I've been a lurker and have posted a couple of times. I'm going for 30 days af. Using the supplements and this site.
I've done long periods over the years, mainly after bad binges or during pregnancies. In recent years I have been good at not drinking for days then going for it!!
I find once I start I can't stop. I have done some awful things under the influence and really want to quit for good, but I find it hard to admit to myself that I just can't drink at all. I have read the big book, jason vale and countless books regarding alcohol abuse but just can't find the inner courage or will power to stop ;0(
My parents do not like me drinking, my husband knows I struggle and monitors me, if I'm over doing it the atmosphere in the house is tense! I'm not a bad drunk and I know the people whom I know would be surprised to hear I have this problem.
I'm on day 3 today. No cravings and no desire to drink but I know this won't last so any encouragement would be helpful.
Xx
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