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[stumpy]

Hi,
8 months ago my husband suffered a seizure due to alcohol withdrawal, he hasn't drank since but I have. Not only did I continue to drink, I drink more then ever. I found a wonderful addiction doctor who will start me on librium tonight. My husband will be home with me for the next few days and the doctor will be calling each day. I'm scared :l, I don't like meds but I don't like seizure's either. I drink 6 regular size glasses of wine per night but the weekends it's up to 8or nine. Wish me luck. I let you all know how it's going. Any advice you may have for me???

[Turnagain]

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Stumpy....

You are heading down the right path again already. Detoxing is tough and you are taking the proper safeguards to get through it without damaging yourself. It's also great you've got support from your husband and your doctor.

Everyone reacts differently during detox, and you saw how it impacted your husband, but most likely you'll just end up feeling really tired and shaky - most folks describe it like having the flu. When I did my final detox, I spent a lot of time reminding myself that my body was ridding itself of the toxins and that I was beginning to heal.

On the physical side of things....I let myself rest - I was fatigued! I drank a lot of water and I made myself eat at least 3 healthy meals a day - even though I didn't feel like eating.

As for brain retraining - it really helped me to stick close to this site and do a lot of reading. I devoured the toolbox and learned a lot about addiction and how to deal with it. As a bonus it was also a welcome distraction.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...-23-27556.html

(The Toolbox lives in the Monthly Abstinence section)

One of the lessons that made a HUGE difference and really made it possible for my QUIT to stick for good this time was learning to cultivate the attitude of gratitude and boot deprivation thinking to the curb. I've pasted a great post from MARIO below.

If you're interested in getting into the site even deeper, I would also strongly encourage you to get to know the folks over in the Newbies Nest in the Starting Out section. You'll find a lot of good peeps there in various stages of dealing with the early days of detox and what comes next: living a good life FREE of addiction.

Let us know how you're doing if possible......You're getting your life back - I'm excited for you!!!!

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Posted by Mario:

In Deprivation Mode, we think alcohol is a good thing that we are being deprived of. We are sad, and grieve the loss of what had felt like a friend to us. We consider it a treat that we never get to give ourselves again. We are envious of others who "get to drink."

In Gratitude Mode, we recognize that alcohol is (for us, because of our brain structure, genetics, physiology, etc.) a toxin, a poison, something that nearly destroyed us. Mentally, physically, and spiritually. We recognize that we have the most amazing opportunity to rid ourselves of something that makes us very sick in all those ways. We recognize the craziness of voluntarily damaging our brains, minds, bodies, families, jobs, futures. We are really, really grateful for that opportunity, and we guard it and cultivate it carefully.

Most of us start a recovery program in deprivation mode. Some people stay there forever. Those people tend not to be able to create a consistently successful program, or life, of freedom from alcohol and its devastation. Some of us transition into gratitude mode.

For most of us, Gratitude Mode does not just happen all by itself. We have to make it happen. If we want to shift into gratitude mode, we learn to cultivate it. We cultivate it by being careful about our thoughts, and about what we notice. If we find ourselves thinking about how wonderful it would be to have a drink, we deliberately shift attention away from this train of thought, and we deliberately choose to think about how good it is to know we will never humiliate ourselves with alcohol again, never again have another horrible hangover, never disappoint our children again with the way we are when we get drunk. We notice alcohol advertising, pay attention to how it makes us feel, and detach from the message by noticing how distorted the message is.

That kind of thing is crucial. We literally can BUILD a new way of thinking and feeling about things. And I think that's something to be grateful for, in itself!

[stumpy]

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Hi Turnagain, Thank you so much for the reply and the wealth of information that you supplied, On my first AF day. Tonight, I will go through the tool box and take anything I can get. I agree with Mario's post. I'm excited and yet scared. I hate the thought of using librium but as I said before, it beats having a seizure. I'll get through it.

Hi Merlot100, My husband drank for 40 years. At the time of his seizure he was up to about 18 bottles of beer per night, in a six hour frame. That's alot.

[kdog]

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stumpy, I too was prescibed librium. but still scared as hell! How did you husband quit?
Good luck, and welcome aboard!
Kdog

[stumpy]

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How my husband quit

HI Kdog, My husband ended up in the hospital for over two weeks. When he came out, I had the head of AA out here come and talk to my husband, I got my husband to agree to three months of AA and he promised. I even went to AA with him every night. He doesn't go anymore but starting after my detox he will be going to support me.
As for me, I'm freaking out here, just took my first Librium.

[JackieClaire]

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Hi Stumpy,

I have done a few de-toxes using valium (diazapam). I know there's a thread about someone who did a librium de-tox. Give me a few mins and I'll have a look and find it.

You look like you've got a cracking support there. try and eat little and often, keep the fuids up and rest and rest and rest.

I know ,love, very scary but in just a few days you won't know yourself.

[stumpy]

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Jackie, Thank you. I knew I would need a lot of support to do this, I'm lucky for that. Right now I'm just having peanut butter and cracker because I'm nervous, my Dr. called and told me to take another pill in an hour.

Kdog, how was your detox?

[JackieClaire]

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Found it.

Don't be put off by the first post keep reading.


https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...tox-35806.html

[kdog]

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stumpy, I have gotten18 hours in so far, shakey and feel ill. ty for asking, how many did your doc say to take? Mine said 4 the first day, then3, 3, 3, till detox has happened. Ugh
Thanks any advise would be appreciated.
Kdog

[stumpy]

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Jackie, Thank you, I read the whole thread. Right now, I'm dizzy from the librium, I don't know if that is normal. Waiting to hear from my Dr.

[stumpy]

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Kdog, did they make you feel dizzy? My dr. excpected me to take 4 or 5 tonight. He just called and wants me to wait two hours and call him back. I hope I can't take them. I want this monkey off of my back.

[kdog]

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yes they did, I don't care for the feeling, but better than the alternative! best of luck, keep me posted!
Kdog

[kdog]

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How are you doing?kdog ps on my kendle at the moment hard for me to type

[stumpy]

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HI Kdog, I'm doing really shitty. I had to stop taking the librium after just one, I'm having a bad reaction to it. My Dr. told me to pan it tonight and call him first thing in the morning. I can't sleep even though I'm so tired. It sucks! How are you doing?

[kdog]

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about the same, can't sleep and I am very tired, looks like tomorrow will not be so fun! Ok going to try and rest, hope you can too!
Kdog