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[kdog]

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Wow Good news, finally got my mascara on without poking myself in the eye! Is this about the time I need to get some hot dogs?:H
Kdog

[JackieClaire]

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kdog;1375463 wrote: Wow, did I have a big urge today! ugh, but I am fighting it off, and going out! I know it will pass. the thing is, should I wean down to 2 pills today or wait till tomorrow? If someone has the answer please let me know, Thanks,
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Mmmmm trying to think here. Can you half the pills and spread them out evenly over the day.

[stumpy]

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Todayt at my mother in-laws was AWFUL! My husband trying to talk me into moderating and my MIL drinking Vodka at the crack of Suzie, I don't know if I can do this. It's really hard.

Kdog, Remember 3-3-3-2-2-1- call your doctor to make sure. Those number are what you told me, you were told to take.

[lolab]

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Are you ok Stumpy? I've been thinking about you today...

[stumpy]

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lolab, no, I'm not ok today. It will get better. Thanks.

[lolab]

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you can pm if you want to talk...anything we can do?

[hadit]

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Stumpy, These times zones are driving me crazey! Its about 8.00am in oz. Are u OK? Stay strong it will be so worth it! We are here for you. Please let us know how u are doing.I am sending you a big:l to make you feel better:l

[kdog]

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stumpy, very concerned, please call if you need to talk! I understand I woke up this morning and wanted a drink so bad, but thought, no you don't, so I didn't went to see my daughter, bought some mums, ran some errands and came home. Feel much better....for now. I know its not going to be easy for me either, just want to let you know I am there for you anytime!:lKdog
Jackie I thought of that but they are capsules so I will do as doc said, I don't want to screw things up so to speak. Thanks for the advice though. and thanks to all that have been trying to help us out:thanks:
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[kdog]

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Stumpy how are you doing???? I know, I had a reallllllllllllll hard night but, I didn't touch anything but cranberry juice and gingerale, I felt so good today for the most part, execpt for a brief moment this morning. Are you feeling better?
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[hadit]

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Stumpy, What happened at your MIL must have been horrific for you. Its really not fair! How are you now?

[stumpy]

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Boozer, I slipped last night and had three glasses of wine. I'm meeting my AL pyschaitrist at noon so I can go on Nalthrexone ASAP. My MIL was drunk when we showed up at around 1pm, I brought o'dooles which worked out find, once we let my cravings were unbearable all day, I also note, that I had not eaten all day,. That didn't help with the cravings. My husband took me to dinner at 6:30. They had no table so we sat at the bar (bad idea) I ordered a club and cranberry and a Sirlon, once dinner arrived I order a red wine and then two more. I screwed up on day 9. I am not taking my 8 days AF back as far as I'm concerned today is day 9 and I'm moving forward. Thanks for asking. I'll be on later and let everyone not what my Dr has to say.

[stumpy]

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I'm back from the Dr. I start on the med tonight, I feel better after talking to him, it really does help. We got a phone call last night from my Sister in-Law, My MIL ended up in the hospital because she was so drunk she fell down and bruised her heard. We left her house at 2:30 in the afternoon and she was drinking her Gin and Tonic's. 80 years old and a drunk. I can not go back to her house for a long time. I'm not strong enough. The husband can go but I'm out. I have to start thinking about me.
It's kind of funny but during the week I eat my 3 meals +, once the weekend comes I go a full day with no food until dinner, I can't do that while going AF, my blood sugar dropped yesterday and that along with the stress of MIL caused me to crave that shitty AL. it was awful. I never felt anything like it in my life. Going grocery shopping now.

[JackieClaire]

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Oh feckity, feck, feck.

It was my own mother that used to be one of my triggers. Unfortunately her drinking played a huge part in her death, but that's for another time.

I have to say I was surprised when I saw that your husband wants you to moderate. Actually not surprised astounded to be honest.

Anyway that's for another time. Have a read back over your thread. Pick out anything you can recognize as a trigger. Write out a list if the good things about drinking and the bad things about drinking. If you're anything like I was there'll be about 2 pages full of dislikes and about half a sentence about the good things.

Ooops just saw you're back.

Good you've recognized one of the huge triggers. HUNGER.

Damn. We've got visitors. I'll be back.

[kdog]

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Stumpy, I am so glad you are feeling better today, and that you went to see you counsler!
Now you know you must eat, and thanks for that advice all cause I am terrible at that too.
Don't let it beat you up! Start aknew, and carry on. and WTG on day 9ish. I feel sluggish today, no al but I slept for 10 hours. Mind you not more than 3or 4 a night for the last 4 so I guess I needed it. Hope your outing does you some good. And call if you need to. Take care all!
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PS is MIL ok?