1. I have a sponsor who I really like. She gave me a good long talk at the beginning that really got me going with the sobriety and for that I am forever grateful. The thing is, she wants me to call her every night to "check in" with her. I find it to be kind of a pain. I have to talk on the phone all day at work and the last thing i want to do when I get home is call someone just to tell them that I am not drinking. I can do that here. I don't want to hurt her feelings, but I don't really feel like I "need" her. But, she gets mad when I don't call.
2. I don't feel like I am powerless over alcohol. Step one of AA is to admit that you are powerless over alcohol. I don't really feel like I will ever be able to "work the steps" because I am not a religious person and feel like my destiny is not up to someone or something else. It is up to ME. I do have power over alcohol. I have the power to choose not to drink. So, although I get pieces of wisdom and tools from the meetings, I don't think I will ever be able to completely "work the program"
Does anyone else have this type of experience? Does anyone go to meetings without working the steps? I feel like if I shared my feelings with an AA member, they would be alarmed and would think that I am going to inevitably fail to stay sober. I find AA people to be all or nothing in terms of the program so I don't really know what I should do.....any thoughts?
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