This message was posted to one of our desparate. I think it pretty much applies to us all one way or another, so here you go...
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I haven't been posting much for a while, having fallen off the wagon heavily since last Christmas(!) after 3 years free of this damned monkey. Oh! Yes, just one little glass of wine led me straight back to a bottle of vodka a day & a withdrawal seizure on the job 2 months ago because I went cold turkey because of the kind of work I do.
No epilepsy but the doctors have me on Epamin (Soda Fenitoin) 3 x 100mg a day against siezures - the name sounds similar to your med. Plus heavy doses of Thiamin and vitamin B complex. Everybody in here recommends drinking lots of water and they are right. It's the only way to clean your body and organs of the toxic effects of substituting the main element in the human body which is water, with alcohol.
Let's face it, as a heavy drinker,nearly 40 years off and on, I've done a pretty good job of screwing up my life, body and soul and the minds of my nearest and dearest because of this crap. It's time to stop and it sounds like you do too.
There is no cure for our mutual disease it just gets worse and then your liver shuts down and unlike Larry Haggman (Dalas), if you don't have the money, you die. Just like that.
Last Saturday after a week of cutting back, I returned to work. Let me tell you, the shakes were terrible. Couldn't write my own name, etc, etc. Most of us in here have experienced similar symptoms along the way. But I'm now going into Saturday again and feeling wonderful. YOU CAN DO IT TOO! It takes some effort of course don't kid yourself.
A.A. might help to kill a couple of hours in your day. Go for long walk, leaving the 7 empty bottles in the trash where they belong. Eat somewhere that doesn't sell wine, beer or liquor with the meal. Drink lots of lemonade. Walk home. There's 6 hours gone and before you know it, PooF! 1 day AF ready to take on the next.
After 3 or 4 days you'll start feeling a lot better and after a week, you'll be wondering why we have all tortured ourselves for so many years, listening to that little bastard lurking in some dark cell in our brain; screaming through the bars to let him out.
Never fear, you've definitely come to the right place! Lots of good people in MWO willing to help, we've all been somewhere close to touching bottom and some of us already have.
Have a go and get your life back. We will be with you all the way. Be strong even if you feel like being weak.
All the best
Bashley
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