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[Demondrink]

Hi, I've stumbled across this site whilst nursing another hangover still led in bed!!! I've been drinking heavily for around 10 years now, last year I was diagnosed with depression and I know that it's down to the drinking, I feel anxious when I have a hangover and basically hate myself for what I'm doing..., I really want to stop do today is day one! My relationship with my fianc? is struggling and I know it's because of the booze. I thought I was the only one like me, who lie to themselves by saying because I work and keep a family I'm fine, when I know I'm not.., please share stories of hope people as last night I woke up passed out on the sofa again after wetting myself again too.., I want to start enjoying my life and my children and stop wasting days feeling sorry for myself and anxious having hangovers???

[Nelz]

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I can assure you, you are not alone. You have picked a great place to start your journey, and it will be a journey. It wont be an easy one, but it gets easier with time. You will get a lot of advice....Id say pick out what works for you, and go with it.

Wishing you strength to fight this crazy battle!! :welcome:

[porqoui]

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Good Morning DemonDrink and like Nelz's says, You're Not Alone.

Glad you stumbled onto this site, made me think of myself because that's exactly what I did, and I haven't looked back.

Surf around the site and read, read, read. A good place to start off is https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...est-30074.html. Lots of newcomers and many Senior Members there to support you.

I found just doing a lot of reading here made me feel better. Soon I got up the courage to post, see you've already got past that one.

Stay close and post often. PPQ

[Kradle123]

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Good Morning DD :rays:

Wow! Just from your post you have crossed a huge hurdle already. I dont think I could have come here in the beginning and had so much self awareness and honesty about my position. That is HUGE

And this is definately the place to start your new journey sans AL. You are 100% not alone. Pop over to the Newbie nest and you'll see!

Happy your here,

Hugs,
:l

[Oneredshoe]

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Hi and Welcome Demondrink....

Glad you found us. I am a newbie, I found MWO last Sunday while nursing a large hangover and beating myself up trying to piece together yet another blackout night. Like you I was telling myself I was fine when I wasn't. Thought I didn't have a problem with alcohol because I would take one or two nights off a week. It took one last blackout night for me to hit my rock bottom. Enough was enough for me...I am an alcoholic. One drink is too many and a million isn't enough for me. Drinking for me is too much work...trying to piece back together the drunken nights events, the embarrassement of learning about stupid things I said or did from my friends, putting myself in situations I would NEVER have if I had been sober, the anxiety I would feel from all of this just wasn't worth it for me any longer, not to mention the hellish hangovers and the toll the alcohol was taking on my body. I like you thought I was alone and found great comfort in learning that I wasn't. You have jumped a huge hurdle by coming here, there is a wealth of knowledge and support. I am 7 days alcohol free and could not have done it without MWO. I wish you well on your journey.

[Oneredshoe]

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Hi Demondrink

Hi and Welcome Demondrink....

Glad you found us. I am a newbie, I found MWO last Sunday while nursing a large hangover and beating myself up trying to piece together yet another blackout night. Like you I was telling myself I was fine when I wasn't. Thought I didn't have a problem with alcohol because I would take one or two nights off a week. It took one last blackout night for me to hit my rock bottom. Enough was enough for me...I am an alcoholic. One drink is too many and a million isn't enough for me. Drinking for me is too much work...trying to piece back together the drunken nights events, the embarrassement of learning about stupid things I said or did from my friends, putting myself in situations I would NEVER have if I had been sober, the anxiety I would feel from all of this just wasn't worth it for me any longer, not to mention the hellish hangovers and the toll the alcohol was taking on my body. I like you thought I was alone and found great comfort in learning that I wasn't. You have jumped a huge hurdle by coming here, there is a wealth of knowledge and support. I am 7 days alcohol free and could not have done it without MWO. I wish you well on your journey.

[kdog]

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Hello and welcome:welcome: Trust me its not easy but damn well worth it! I too was a heavey drinker, wake up feel like S#$T, get past 13 hours and start all over again, I shook, rattled, and had major anxiety. I also was diagnosed with depression, my doc gave me some pills and sent me on my way. I quit drinking 12 days ago, don't shake, no anxiety, and I never touched one of those pills! He did give me a script of librium to taper with, and that helped a lot for those first 3 days, because I was scared of the withdrawals, but I am past all that now. Good luck on your journey. Keep reading and posting and drink lots of water with lemon wedges, that seemed to help me a lot!
Kdog

[K9Lover]

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Hi DemonDrink,

I can totally relate to your post. I was blacking out about 6 days a week. I'd wake up riddled with anxiety over the previous night, wondering what I did, who I called, who I texted and what I said. I'd go look at my car for clues...did I drive to the liquor store? A receipt laying in the seat would indicate that I did. Soooo many nights are a blur to me. I'm sad when I think about it...but I'm happy when I realize I NEVER have to go through that again. I finally quit when drinking became harder than not drinking.

You CAN do this too, and we can help. Please keep posting and let us know how you are. You are definitely NOT alone in this.

K9

[rubydoo]

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I'm a newbie too-been struggling for 20 yrs

[MissTipsy]

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Hi DD

I am a newbie too - I have been drinking a bottle of wine every single night (six oclock is wine oclock) for over 10 years. I am a mother, go to the gym and run my own business so I am fine right? Wrong!

Someone called me a "functioning alcoholic" on Sunday as I sat there and shared three bottles with another gfriend.

I vaguely remember the train home from London. I woke up Monday thinking once again that I HAVE to quit.

Then I too stumbled into here and am now on day four (three nights no wine). It is HARD, I am not going to lie but waking up feeling guilty over a nasty thing I have said or an embarrassing thing I have done is HARDER.

We are all here for the same reason. Someone yesterday told me to "grab her hand" and together we could do this. It made me cry because for the first time in a long time I didnt feel alone or judged.

You can grab my hand - we can do this

xx

[Quest for the key]

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Welcome DD x

I'm a newbie too - it's hard - a real struggle - I'm back to day one today after falling off the wagon last night - But though I may have lost that battle, I know eventually I'm going to win the war xxx

Take care hun - we're all in this very large boat together xxx