you know that the way you feel today is a result of a few (to many) after work relaxing ales & wines, you now that having a panic attack in the cafe this morning was due to the amount of relaxing drinks you had last night and you know its also due to a long period of heavy drinking.
You know that this can only go on for so long as your body is breaking down and you know eventually something will give, you know that you cant keep taking wild long routes to work to avoid anxiety from things like fast motorways
You know that your children are getting to the age when they are modelling you and you know you would not want then to do what you are doing
You know that it is a amazing that your partner has stuck by you and you know your partner will one day say enough is enough and you also know you would not want to be single and alone
You know that you have lost all drive and ambition , you know that once you were unstopable in your career and now you know you just do enough to get by each day
You know now is a good time to take a break from the booze and you know you can do it but you know what ....... when will you know its time to start
love you know
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