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[bimble01]

hi,
can neone please give me some help?ive always been a drinker,and had many cell,and hosp visits!!ne way to cut a long story short,ive lost my job,and am starting earlier and earlier in the day,im on antidepressants so all i do is end up in bed,its beginning to affect my kids that im either half pissed or asleep and im totally depressed all the time,but im sooo scared of stopping ive tried aa etc and cais,docs useless,has ne one stopped or cut down and noticed a difference in there mood?i just want to feel happy againlease:

[lolab]

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Hi Bimble - I really could never see it while I WAS drinking - but the alcohol has such a depressive effect that it's usually a huge part of the problem with our unhappiness. I thought I was drinking to make myself happy...and when I went without drinking I got so agitated and feeling down, that I thought I needed to drink to stop those feelings. But the only way to escape the whole rat race is to get yourself out from under that alcohol cloud.

It is a hugely scary thing to do - and there are so many games that your mind plays with you - but to answer your question - there is a vast improvement in my mood and my whole outlook on life since quitting. Even if I felt "happy" momentarily when drinking - I would then be overwhelmed with guilt and anxiety about what I was doing to myself and my family. I constantly felt that I was doomed to ruin their lives when they had to watch me die an early death or take care of me while I was chronically ill from alcohol abuse. I felt my life literally flying by - while I sat in a stupor. I don't have those feelings anymore....at all. I can truly feel that I'm living it fully and doing what I want to do and what is best for my family and myself.

this is a drastic turnaround from just over a year ago when I was drinking 24 hours a day...There are stories like mine all over this board - it can be done!

Take a look at the toolbox - link in my signature line...and visit us in the Newbies Nest thread. There are lots of people there at the very beginning of their journey supporting each other - and sharing information. https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...560-30074.html

-lola

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Bimble and :welcome: I can relate to that whole viscous cycle of drinking and depression. I was just like lolab described - I thought the drinking was helping my despression when in reality, the drinking was causing my depression. I quit my last corporate job before getting fired for drinking on the job. It had gotten to the point where I couldn't wait any longer until 5PM (or even 3PM) each day to start drinking. I made up stories in my head about how all this drinking was due to my shitty boss, etc. I really thought the drinking would slow down when I quit.

Well, I ended up doing what you describe. I started drinking earlier and earlier in the day until finally I was pouring drinks instead of coffee when I got out of bed in the morning. And my depression got worse and worse.

Alcohol interferes with anti depressant medication. I'm in school now, and I've heard many professionals in the treatment field say that it's virtually impossible to treat depression while someone is drinking. (this is true even for people who are not necessarily problem drinkers, but drink normally on a regular basis)

I really think you will find that getting away from the booze will at least help you figure out where you stand with the depression issues. I started here by reading the My Way Out book and implementing the supplement, diet, exercise and hypnosis CD recommendations. I had a rocky road in that first year, but the My Way Out program got me on my way. Life is so much better now that alcohol is not a part of it.

Good luck! You are absolutely not alone.

DG

[Alcoholic]

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Are you seeing a good psychiatrist? Find one you like and trust. Alcohol and depression don't mix well. Recently a girl on this site committed suicide so it's important to seek professional help.....

[Kradle123]

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Hi Bimble:

You have found such a safe and great place. Welcome!:welcome: I also started on my way with the My Way Out books and CD's nd supp program. It was invaluable to getting starting, getting going at least.

I know this sucks and is harder than hell but please please read and read and read. It will blow you away how so many of us are here and have gotten through or are getting through or are trying to get through...

Stay close. You are absolutely NOT alone!! :l

[RunningCourage]

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Hey Bimble,

You are NOT alone here - listen to the likes of Lolab and DG and Kradle and others, each have a mountain of experience, advice and AF days/weeks/months/years under their belt. DO check out the newbies nest and toolbox as Lolab has given links to. They are invaluable for advice and support.

Good luck, Bimble, and know that we're here for ya.

RC

[bimble01]

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thank you every one,got pissed last nte,woke up feeling like crap!!been out to get more,just txt the kids that im not feeling well and maybe asleep when they come home!!i HATE myself so much x

[bimble01]

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i just cant imagine a life with out booze x

[kuya]

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There IS a good life without booze.

How old are you? You have kids, tell us a little about yourself.

It may help

[Mootsbill]

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Bimble how are you today xxxxx

[stumpy]

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Hi Bimble, Welcome, how are you today? There is a life without booze! I felt the same as you do but I've learned that life is actually pretty damn good without being drunk. Try it for three days, see if you feel better then you can make a clear minded choice.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Bimble,

I can hear the pain in your posts. I know you don't want to live like this. What is it about life without booze that you can't imagine? Will you miss feeling like crap? Will you miss letting your kids down? Will you miss the depression it's causing? Will you miss the anxiety, guilt, regret? When you start looking at what alcohol is REALLY doing to you, you will gladly get it out of your life. I finally quit when drinking became harder than not drinking. It was a lot of work making up excuses and covering my tracks...now that I don't drink, life is actually quite simple. You can get there too. Get a few days sober and once the fog lifts, you can work on a permanent plan. Stick close to us...we do understand and most of us have been there.

K9

[bimble01]

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hi again,havnt bn on as had a two day binge,only had a few
tonte,as full of cold,just got them to help me sleep,i will come
on tomorrow and tell u all properly about myself,ive got
to admit im an alcoholic,but i dont want too,i just want me
back.x

[RunningCourage]

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Hi Bimble,

Have one of these :l

Have a good nights rest

And we'll all be here tomorrow for you.

Take care

RC

[Yogamom]

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hi Bimble, to tell the truth I have a hard time doing it for me, but I look at my kids and they deserve more. Stay close.