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    :h Didnt get much sleep last night which I know from past experience is only to be expected. Last time I think it was about a week before I slept thru, its like the first night your new baby doesnt wake you up a mixture of concern and elation. Had a really strange semi-awake sort of dream in which my son and I were caught up in (in the wilds of Scotland!) what proved to be a world wide riot instigated by my daughter. Weird or what?Still better than the unconsciousness of alcohol. Nearly headed out for bottle of wine about 9 when hormonally charged teenage daughter tried to upend the coffee table but resisted and Im really glad I did. I dont get physical symptoms (apart from not sleeping and needing to go to the loo a lot) when I dont drink but I think thats just because I have the constitution of an ox. For me the big hook is emotional/psychological. I have been reading the posts and realise that a lot of people grapple with the same question "why do we do it?" and that there are probably as many answers as there are people out there. And I am amazed at how many of you there are. Partly for me its boredom and lonliness (alcohol has been my main companion for at least the past 4 years) but also I feel that at my core there is a big black hole which I have consistently tried to fill up with booze. I realise thats something I have to tackle in a different way and know I will get lots of insight here. When I am drinking one of the worst things (health, family, rationality aside) is the feeling of total negativity toward myself and when I dont that starts to dissipate almost immediately. I go to a parenting class today and the kidology going on with that hasnt escaped me - if mum is sober being a parent isnt a problem - but still I find it useful, companionable and uplifting so hope that will be enough to get me thru today.
    I raise my mug of tea to each of you, best wishes Fiona

    #2
    day 2 of attempt 2

    Fiona,
    You fought a BIG battle laastnight in not going out for that wine when you really had the urge for it. GREAT JOB! You did it!!! Bravo to you....

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      #3
      day 2 of attempt 2

      Hi I,

      World wide riot in the wilds of Scotland Eh?

      No biggie, you were just dreaming of a perfectly normal Saturday evening up here!!

      Well done on resisting the urge to hit the bottle when kids kick off - they sure know the buttons to push don't they?

      Take Care

      Satori

      xxx
      "Though there are many paths at the foot of the mountain - all those who reach the top see the same moon - as any fule kno"

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        #4
        day 2 of attempt 2

        Well done iola, i raise my mug of coffee to you too. Kids push you to the limit don't they! take care. B

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          #5
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          GREAT JOB!
          :flower: Change a life; make someone feel important. ................. ........................ ..................... ........................ ................. ....... sigpic

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            #6
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            Well done indeed.

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              #7
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              Iola- That's great not going for the wine last night . Believe me I understand. I came soooo close to doing the exact same thing when dealing with my teenage son last night and for the first time in a long time I didn't give in to it. It's so true about the self negativity when you drink. It can be so destructive and scary really. If I slip ( have 10 days AF) I'm trying to not let that happen because I think it's a real obstacle to making progress.
              In tryng to be realistic I think slips are something inevitable but it's how you deal with them that really matter. I also think when you are just starting out trying not to drink ( and I am no expert) it seems that it is very difficult to tease out if the way you are feeling ( like in a big dark hole) is really you or it is your brain making you feel that way from to much alcohol for too long. I'm hoping with alot more time of no alcohol those kind of feelings will go away or lessen. Anyway-good luck to you, remember we are all here for you. Aquamarine
              NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF YOUR OWN DETERMINATION
              AF SINCE 3/16/2016

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                #8
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                Iola:
                Excellent job! You did not give into the temptation of the old companion bottle of wine.Well done, especially in the midst of riots is Scotland!!! I may not have been so brave. I have had those wild and wacky dreams too. Where do they come from from? LOL!!
                Learning to live life on the outside of a bottle. :flower:

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                  #9
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                  Kids used to trip my trigger all the time too. Get overwhelmed and stressed then reach for the bottle. Great job overcoming that hurdle. I have younger kids so I can't even imagine dealing with the teenage hormones ugh.
                  Best to you,
                  Beaches
                  "Keep your eyes and heart focused on the end goal at all times, and never settle for less."

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                    #10
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                    iola, lucid and vivid dreams get me so bad when I start to abstain,...but it's a good sign. I'm hoping to start my first dream of that kind tonight or perhaps the next. rest well. D.
                    nosce te ipsum
                    (Know Thyself)

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                      #11
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                      Many congratulations - what a great show of strength! Teenage daughters? Aaahhhggg! I have two and they certainly know how to twist the knives - it was wine or leave this evening - luckily I put on the jogging shoes and left, so they, and I, survived another night...

                      Keep it up - look forward to hearing the next installment of world wide riots in Scotland!
                      :rays: Arial

                      Last first day - 15th April 2012
                      Goals:
                      Days 1-7 DONE
                      Days 8-14 DONE
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                      30 days DONE
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                        #12
                        day 2 of attempt 2

                        Congrats too from me on resisting the urge. I had a real bad nights sleep the first night and wasn't really expecting that but last night was better. Am on day five today and am making it so far, its not may teenager but my older daughter who pressies my trigger!

                        Keep going
                        Sal

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                          #13
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                          World wide riots in the middle of Scotland - but surely that must mean that Scotland now covers the whole world!
                          My plans for Scottish world wide domination finally must have come to fruition while I was asleep!

                          MmmmmWwwwwwwAHAHAHA!



                          Satori

                          xxx

                          (I know - I'm weird!)
                          "Though there are many paths at the foot of the mountain - all those who reach the top see the same moon - as any fule kno"

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