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[paula]

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I can't add to the advice you have been given, I wish you well. If you are determined enough you can get through this, just take it a day at a time.

[Doggygirl]

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Hi almost free. Nothing new to add - just more words of support. The only way to fail is to stop trying. Good you came right back.

Strength and hope to you!

DG

[almost free]

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Thank you so much byrd, k9lover, lavande and mama bear. I have always hated to ask for help. I love to help others, but it feels so weak and pathetic to ask for help for myself. I guess it's an indication of my despair that I posted my pathetic 'please help'.

Thank you so much for your suggestions and encouragement. The truth is I don't have one single friend left in the world. I was embarrassed and didn't want to have any contact with the (probably two) number of friends I had, until I got a handle on my drinking problem, but year turned into year with no success. I just kept to my smaller and smaller world and they just kind of drifted away.

In these many years, nobody has ever made the effort to contact me or see how I'm doing, so of course it makes me feel that I really don't matter to anyone. This includes all my siblings and both parents, both of whom died within 3 months of each other in 2004. No one has ever contacted me since my mother's death.

I have two older children who are extremely successful, one a PHd, the other with a masters degree and a very successful career. The third, and youngest, has put me through years of drug addiction, violence, culminating in a diagnosis of schizophrenia, arrest and hospitalization. I am currently in a foreign country, alone, babysitting him, separated from my husband. And completely alone.

I'm humbled to find that there are people here that actually care and have responded. Thank you all so much.

[almost free]

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thanks doggygirl and paula. I appreciate your encouragement.

[Zenstyle]

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Hiya AF...

Hang in there and don't give up!

From one of my favourite "wise people"...

"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." ~Winston Churchill~

[paulywogg]

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hi af,jeez with all that going on it seems pretty hard to quit! your here though so that means you are trying to get a grip around this monsters neck! its hard trust me,im always struggling too,but were all here for you anytime,take care of yourself,and dont be too hard on yourself,as everyones said weve all been there.

[Mootsbill]

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Stay strong, each hour that passes is one closer to your mind and body healing.

Sending hugs I know how your feeling, we all do but you will be ok ;0)

[Alcoholic]

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Almost free:

If you are having severe withdrawal symptoms, it's different from simple cravings. Severe withdrawal symptoms can be serious, and so if your hands shake a lot, your blood pressure and heart rate are high and hands are too sweaty, you may need to consult w a do or or need detox. Whatever you do, be careful and get medical opinion if needed... So good luck, be safe and we will be here for you!

[Turnagain]

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There's HOPE....Almost Free...there really is. I'm glad you came back.

I also had a real hard time even getting through one day and felt the blackness of the dispair of being trapped again and again by this addiction. But...thanks to the amazing support of so many here, I was able to FINALLY get past those tough first weeks. And...with a lot of healing and education and a full acceptance that my body can no longer accept ANY alcohol....I'm finally free...for good.

Sending you hugs.....and encouragement. You can do this.

[almost free]

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Good Morning Everyone,

Thank God it's Friday. The withdrawals were truly horrible yesterday. I had ended up finishing off the rest of the bottles of wine, which had started Halloween afternoon, still going at it until around 4am, yesterday morning, all on an empty stomach. I posted here, not long after that, and things started deteriorating as the hours went by.

I must confess, I was in such bad shape and shaking too much to drive anywhere to get help, that I ended up with the 'poor man's detox', which meant dragging myself around the block and getting a couple of dark beers, to help wean off. I've always been skeptical of 'weaning off', mainly because it can be a slippery slope for me, but you were right, Alcoholic, severe withdrawal can be dangerous. I was afraid of a heart attack or convulsions. Where would this leave my son, if something happened to me?

I have never been in detox and usually do it cold turkey, but, being older now, and having beaten the hell out of my body, I was alarmed at the symptoms I was experiencing. Luckily, I was able to just nurse those two beers for much of the day, treating it like a dose of medicine, as needed, to keep the worst of the shakes and sweats at bay.

I'm much better today, and started with my usual lemon water and GABA. This has always helped in the past, but it was ineffective against the level of withdrawal I was experiencing yesterday.

There is an AA meeting today at noon somewhere nearby. If I can get the energy to clean myself up, I will drag myself over there. I must admit, I'm kind of turned off of AA, having spent years there, but this isolation is very bad news for me, unless I just spend most of the day posting here.

I love that this forum is international and it seems that someone is always around, no matter what time of the day or night it is. Thank you all for being here and being so supportive. I feel so much better today. Thank God yesterday is over.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Almost Free,

I just wanted to check and see how you are doing today. Please stick close and let us know what's going on. I'm thinking of you.

K9

[almost free]

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Hi K9 Lover,

Thanks so much. I am much better today. A hundred times better than yesterday. Thank God. I just posted to the new lady, Scots lady, this morning, then in response to her question about whether I just use willpower, as opposed to meds, I realized that I was just rambling on and on. I have a tendency to do that. Everyone else is so succinct. I always feel stupid afterwards, I mean, a simple question turns into War and Peace! Saw you over there, too. Thanks for thinking of me and checking on how I am doing.

[Catbuddy]

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Hi Almost Free,

I remember I post I made that said "I'm just blathering on" and I apologized. Everyone responded back, feel free to write and write! That is the other beauty of this forum - you can share as much as you need, as often as you need, and everyone else can do the same. I've never been to AA, but I can imagine there is only so much air time, and all members can't have their say. But here, you have the stage as much as you need. So post away today.

Catbuddy

[almost free]

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Thanks, Catbuddy,

I must admit, when I read over my endless post from yesterday, I realized that I was in such bad shape, and clearly feeling sooo sorry for myself and desperate, that I ended up spilling my whole life story. Too much information, for sure! Talk about a pity party! Thanks, though, it is a help to be able to share and feel connected to others. Many of us become very isolated with our drinking. I was pretty much a lone drinker, not a wild partyer. Feeling much more optimistic today, nothing like yesterday. Thanks for your kind words.

[Alcoholic]

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Glad to hear you are feeling better, almost free! One day at a time! Keep us posted!