I previously sent this but it got embedded in another thread... Duh!!!
I have been happily drunk for 15 years ? all of my adult life ? I have difficulty feeling until my brief dips into sobriety.
Technically, I should not be a drunk my mum and dad were great but mental illness run in my family ( is that taboo) ? my nan is bipolar and my great granddad and second cousin committed suicide) not that I have ever had the tendency)
I am not a bad person but feel like one all the time I drink. I have been to AA but it wasn?t for me and I have tried supplementation and nutrition to beat this before but have never seen a site like this before....
The first time I realised that I was an alcoholic, was when I was pregnant with my second child and couldn?t stop the cravings. How I fought, how I knew that this was wrong but I had my moments but I had mores abstinences than alcohol.
But it was hard. I?d though it was fun till I realised that it is a sinister friend. Oh it will help you when you are depressed or happy or whenever you need it, it is there, waiting to tempt you, I don?t want it there anymore.
Remember it is your brain that addiction is wired too and that is why it is so hard to break, it knows your weaknesses and how to work you.
I guess I am scared but am proud of all of you who are doing it ? we are better for trying ? so many people do not know that there is another option (my husband for example)
This is my cry for help ? I can?t stop but I will!!! Oh am I determined!!!
It will be 2 weeks!! 2 weeks!! before I get the book, CDs, Kudzo, topaz etc...
Love Sarah
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