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[iamaquitter28]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Hi AJ, I know exactly where you are (as does a lot of other people here). Something huge happens in your life due to the abuse of alcohol and you know that you MUST stop now however there is that lingering Alcoholic that does not "really" want to stop but knows that you should. Been there, done that my fair share of times. Lets see, after cheating on my husband, getting naked at a party, waking up in the morning with the biggest bruise on my ass, hardly able to walk and having no clue how it got there, losing my job because I was so drunk the next morning that I ignored my alarm and slept through most of the day (twice might I add)...Yup been there done that. It took years of this abuse to myself (and others) that something finally clicked in my head and I was like ok so what part of any of that is fun or worth it. Just take it one day at a time and take the time to read around here. It was a total game changer for me. This forum quite literally is a life saver and the people here are amazing!!!
As for the tapering, I'm sorry but I cannot advise on that because that is something I have never been successful at because I can never have just one or two...it's always half a gallon of vodka for me!
I wish you luck and we are all here for you when you need a shoulder or an ear!

[kdog]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Hi AJ, How are you doing today? I have to say I tried to wean off too, and was successful for a while, but slowly climbed right back up, so my answer to tapering is, you have to be very very strong to do that. I know it sucks, big time, but you can do it and after a few AF days you will think with a much clearer head and feel so much better. Find a doc that can help. Don't be ashamed to come on at any given time you need help. We have all been there and want to be there for you too! Please let us know how you are doing.
Kdog:l

[Amethyst Jewel]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Wow! thanks everyone! I am doing somewhat better today. I have stayed busy and I'm trying to have a better attitude today. I don't like having to look for a job, I don't like wanting to drink, wanting to quit drinking, wanting so much to be different than it actually is. I'm just dealing with a lot right now. I tend to get mentally paralized when things get overwhelming for me and I can't do anything. But today I've crossed a large number of things off my to-do list so I'm counting it as a "win". Thanks all for your kind words.

[Struggles 106]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Hey AJ

I feel your pain; we have all been there. Please feel free to PM any time if you want to chat.
I work online so I am always around. I have been sober for quite a while and feeling strong. I am hoping that you can out it behind you and move on. So sorry for your loss and wish you the strength you need to persevere.

I live alone and I love having someone here to "talk" to nearly all the time. My addiction is not a secret but I don't have anyone around who wants to commiserate with me, except the wonderful people here.

If you are feeling down and hopeless any time reach out!

[caper564]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Amethyst Jewel;1406934 wrote: I tend to get mentally paralized when things get overwhelming for me and I can't do anything.

that is me 100% very well said..

[Alcoholic]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Glad to hear you doing better!

[Janice]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

Amethyst, I've just read this thread & you are sounding so much better today!! It is hard to be positive but that is half the battle...tell yourself you CAN do this and you WILL do it! Realise that you are in control, you CAN beat this and you CAN make your life different, you CAN make things better. Read, read, read as much as you can on here...across all the boards. As people have already said, there is some great advice. Dont worry too much abt posting until your ready & when you do, maybe find a small thread that is not too overwhelming. Good luck, I wish you well...make this the start of your new life. xx

[Tipplerette]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

I, too, read through your thread and am really happy that you are feeling better. It's like a veil has been lifted, eh? Stay strong and when you feel weak, re-read your thread. You came a long way in a short period of time confidence wise. There will be lots of ups and downs in your exciting future. Your job is to take each moment as it comes and stop and think before you act. I feel that you can do this. I wish you well.

[kdog]

I'm new. I'm not doing ok. I need support.

AJ, You are sounding so much better today! So glad to hear it. Stay focused and positive,
You Can do this. Keep posting and reading, it helps so much!
Kdog