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[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Ah, Sweetpea... realise it may sound more than it might be... I don't have dependents, am single and don't really go out so much in the evenings (am knackered!) ... so i do have a bit of spare time. But you are SO right in that I do need to learn when to shift down gears... sometimes I don't perhaps because I haven't planned well enough in advance, perhaps because i may feel guilty that I'm not doing enough... Yet... I do look forward to evenings slouching with the lappie and a movie...

I am still looking for the right balance. I was speaking to another here about how I can have a tendency to do stuff in order not to deal with other stuff. Action as a means to avoid. I haven't found the balance yet. Slowly... slowly does it.

[kuya]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

your new avatar is crackup!:H:H

although shouldnt it read BEER not BEAR???

[honeysuckle]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Melon Collie is hilarious love it!

Running Courage, I really admire you. havin so much on your plate and I guess you are in tip top condition to run a marathon (I cant run, even from a bear I think you will feel better back on your own and I appreciate your story which started this thread, I think it is what we are all trying to get out head round, our temptation to be 'moderate', which we cant be) Please dont quit uni, just get your degree and it's another goal achieved!..

[lagataloca]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

RC, I think having roommates is great if you are living with a person/people you really LIKE, find interesting and who actually do half of the housework, otherwise? Its much worse than living alone.

At this juncture in your sobriety you should avoid putting yourself in situations that add undue aggravation. I speak from experience, not just conjecture.

I also am glad you have decided to go back to school, I hope your lit class is FULL of brainy cute girls, just to make it even more interesting. :wd:

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Notes from Day 59

Went to the doc. Gotta go get blood tests in a couple of weeks. See him again in three weeks. Directed me to moodjuice website. Plan is to do some work around this and then report back to him along with the blood test results.

As I run, I also need to be wary that I get enough fuel into me. Ran when I was drinking, but then a bottle of wine and 4 cans of lager has quite a lot of calorific energy... which I don't intake any more. Instead I am trying to eat more. This is a good thing. But this needs to be balanced with my running:

lots of running + not enough fuel = not very good.

Have had a headache much of the day, tired and lethargic. But then we know that.

...

Brother emailed me in response to a question from me about what marathons he might be doing in the UK this year, with a wee list of the marathons he is doing either in the US or in Switzerland. Marathons up mountains too.

Well... kinda made me feel what's the fecking point: he runs on far flung destinations and up mountains while I can only run local alongside fields with sheep. Jealous? Damn fecking right. Feeling of inadequacy? Yup. Resentful? Just a smidgin.

...

Heavy drinking colleague at work having a guiness while reading the paper after work. For the first time in a wee while that looked so bloody lovely. Really comforting. To stand there with a pint or two or three after work, talking, blethering, letting it all hang out, ranting and feeling a sense of collegiate reverie. For a while today I missed that.

[Hippyman]

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kuya;1452692 wrote: your new avatar is crackup!:H:H

although shouldnt it read BEER not BEAR???

:H :H :H :H

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Day 60

30th January, 2013.

I hope today has been the beginning of the end of some niggles that have plagued me for a few years. Like 16 or so.

Today is less about 60 days, but it has taken me these 60 days, plus support from folks here, to get to a point in my life where I hope - no, I believe - I am finally dealing with... dealing with...

I am finally dealing with me. Little I.

Little I...




And Little

I

Needs

To grow.



(I also needs a hug, but that's OK, i realise that this is an internet forum, and such things really aint physically possible!)

[Byrdlady]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

I wish I could hug you...but since I made that remark about being 20 years younger and such now I feel like a Perv.... but here's a hug anyway.:l
Growth hurts sometimes....after when you can look back at it in your rear view...it's ALWAYS good.

'groth' noun 1: stage or condition attained in growning. (no help in this case)
2: a process of growing; progressive development of increase. Bingo!
3: an abnormal mass of tissue....(WHAT????) It's not a tumor!!

Growth is a process of increase...I like that. If you'd have told me 2 years ago this was going to be a journey of growth, I'd have called you a BOOB! But boy howdy, has it ever been. Stopping drinking is the easy part...figuring our WHY WE did it in the first place is the task. And as we do, we grow!

I'm so happy for you and your 60 days! You should be proud of yourself! This is NOT easy! Byrdie

[Starfish1]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Little

I

Needs

To grow.

R.C.- First of all, :l

Next, you know what? I was thinking that same thing, just yesterday about myself. I am beginning to recognize behaviors of the spoiled little child in me (I call her Starlett) and now I can do something about them. It won't be easy, but we will all be happier now that I have the courage, the patience and the will to begin working on Starlett's behavior. I think it has been mentioned somewhere on the boards (Kuya, maybe) that we will start experiencing personal growth after a little bit of AF time. I guess this is it. Its kind of scary, but it's also a good sign for us. We are just gettin better and better, R.C. Nothing can stop us now :l Keep up the great work!

[K9Lover]

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RunningCourage;1453251 wrote: Well... kinda made me feel what's the fecking point: he runs on far flung destinations and up mountains while I can only run local alongside fields with sheep. Jealous? Damn fecking right. Feeling of inadequacy? Yup. Resentful? Just a smidgin.

Hell...I'd be happy if I could keep up with the sheep!

[Starfish1]

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Wow, R.C. !! Byrdie and I cross-posted and since she and I are the same age, NOW I feel like a perv:blushing:

But, R.C. you are just too damned cute and I'll fight Byrdie for ya :boxer:

Byrdie, shall we take this outside?

[Byrdlady]

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Step aside, Star!! I saw him FIRST! Hag!!! ehehehehe....he is so lovable!

[Catbuddy]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Ahem. I'm first in line. Will fight you both for him.

:kissyface:

Cat

[Byrdlady]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

:stomper:

[Starfish1]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

R.C.- ya GOTTA feel the love, here Carry on lil friend!

:groupluv: