Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Notes from Day 68

There is an awesome discussion going on in the 100 Day thread - see pages 31-33 specifically - about folks' realisations through their journeys of quitting...

Lav, succinct as ever, simply said this:

Lavande;1458537 wrote: For me, stripping away the last of the bullshit, being totally honest with myself, not listening to the monkey mind chatter & accepting the fact that I can no longer drink AL safely was the key!

It's true Molly, once we have crossed the line ~ there's no going back

Life is much easier without AL, end of story!

For me, I wonder whether it is less about accepting the fact that I can no longer drink AL safely - can i? can't i? can i? can't i? I don't know, to be honest.

It is about, simply, choosing a path. I have taken the courage to start this path... and I want to see where it leads.

Along the way I know there is stuff - x - that I need to deal with, in part because AL is no longer there to hide it.

So, in time, I deal with x.

I deal with x and my self esteem goes from low to high. I feel stronger, empowered, more loving of others and myself.

I feel GOOD.

Perhaps then, I think, I can pour myself a drink? ...

But here's the rub...

Why?

Why have a drink?

What's it do?

If my self esteem is high. If I have grown up in such a way so as to be more confident, more loving, more embracing, simply more fucking happy of who I am and the world and people around me... why would I have a drink?

See where I'm going?

Look - I'll put my hands up, I spied the half bottle of whisky when I came home from work and OH BOY DID I WANT TO GET DRUNK... but listen, my self esteem isn't that high. Actually it's pretty fucking shoddy. Of course I want a drink. I want to hide! I want to run from reality.

But this path I've chosen does not allow hiding. I gotta walk, tremulously, with a little heart, brain and courage ( kuya). I gotta walk, anxious, angry and scared. I gotta walk until i emerge further along the path stronger, brighter and with a big fat heart of goodness. At which point...

I wont want a drink because...

I wont need a drink...

I will have emerged - not arrived - but emerged somewhere new along that path... and will continue moving.

It's called evolution...



I want to get drunk - on life.

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Get Drunk by Charles Baudelaire

PLEASE... this is not a poem advocating getting drunk per se, but about getting drunk on life HOWEVER you choose to do it. I love the poem... and I put it here because my last post ends with my statement about wanting to get drunk on life... NOT booze!

Get Drunk

Always be drunk.
That's it!
The great imperative!
In order not to feel
Time's horrid fardel
bruise your shoulders,
grinding you into the earth,
Get drunk and stay that way.
On what?
On wine, poetry, virtue, whatever.
But get drunk.
And if you sometimes happen to wake up
on the porches of a palace,
in the green grass of a ditch,
in the dismal loneliness of your own room,
your drunkenness gone or disappearing,
ask the wind,
the wave,
the star,
the bird,
the clock,
ask everything that flees,
everything that groans
or rolls
or sings,
everything that speaks,
ask what time it is;
and the wind,
the wave,
the star,
the bird,
the clock
will answer you:
"Time to get drunk!
Don't be martyred slaves of Time,
Get drunk!
Stay drunk!
On wine, virtue, poetry, whatever!"

Charles Baudelaire

[RingingCedars]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Awesome last post and the poem is great too RC.
RC

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Notes from Day 69 - Friday afternoon at work

Maybe blehness comes from everyone at work doing the 4pm "let's all talk about booze" talk...

"we won some bottles of wine in the quiz, let's crack 'em open in the office"

"remember that time when you said let's talk budgets on the bus home and i said, if we we're taking budgets on the bus home on a friday night, we're sure as hell doing it over a couple of cans of G&T"

"Oh and mind that time after the staff party and she was like, come on - we NEED to get a bottle for the train home, and I was like, but you can't - we're not allowed! But she did it anyway"

And, "I'm on edge, excited, my 3 yr old is away for the weekend with my mum... I just want to get drunk!"

Oh yes.

Hardyharhar.

*taps away at compoopoer*

And everyone goes :H :H

And everyone thinks :happy:

And everyone does :danthin:

Feckers.

It's fecking everywhere... yet just 5 hours earlier there were accusatory comments about a certain person on TV the night before (see Question Time 18 Feb 2013) who we thought might have been drunk. Tut tut... not during work time... only during play time... tut tut...

Sometimes i just get a little bit confuddled with it all

[Quest for the key]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

RunningCourage;1459160 wrote: Maybe blehness comes from everyone at work doing the 4pm "let's all talk about booze" talk...

"we won some bottles of wine in the quiz, let's crack 'em open in the office"

"remember that time when you said let's talk budgets on the bus home and i said, if we we're taking budgets on the bus home on a friday night, we're sure as hell doing it over a couple of cans of G&T"

"Oh and mind that time after the staff party and she was like, come on - we NEED to get a bottle for the train home, and I was like, but you can't - we're not allowed! But she did it anyway"

And, "I'm on edge, excited, my 3 yr old is away for the weekend with my mum... I just want to get drunk!"

Oh yes.

Hardyharhar.

*taps away at compoopoer*

And everyone goes

And everyone thinks :happy:

And everyone does :danthin:

Feckers.

It's fecking everywhere... yet just 5 hours earlier there were accusatory comments about a certain person on TV the night before (see Question Time 18 Feb 2013) who we thought might have been drunk. Tut tut... not during work time... only during play time... tut tut...

Sometimes i just get a little bit confuddled with it all

I've just come browsing RC and seen this - I posted a rant in the army - not the same but similar lines

And I was one of those Friday " lets get sloshed" peeps - in fact it's early days yet - but I'm hoping I'm not that person any more

[Byrdlady]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Life is just MORE than this now....

Getting 'stupid' just doesn't get it done for me anymore....I think I've GROWN out of this thinking....maybe you have too, and THAT'S what stinks....b

[paulywogg]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

youre so cute rc,i love how you talk real,theres no stupid inspirational quotes,or overconfidance in your quit,youre just...real i lke it!

[paulywogg]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

also 69 days is the perfect opp for a dirty joke

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

paulywogg;1459297 wrote: also 69 days is the perfect opp for a dirty joke

I KNOW!

Dunno if i can think of one...

Sobriety: suck it and see...








Tastes nicer than you might think...










Ehm....

I loved to swallow my Bud...







These are pretty bad Paully :H:H

[kuya]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

paulywogg;1459296 wrote: youre so cute rc,i love how you talk real,theres no stupid inspirational quotes,or overconfidance in your quit,youre just...real i lke it!

There is one thing we share Pauly, we both don't think too much before we speak ! :H:H:H

[paulywogg]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

for sure kuya,and rc those were bad but you tried! keep bein real my friend

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

When considering moderation, read this first...

Patrice's moderation experiment

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Notes from Day 72 - Pope says "nah, bugger this... gonna do it another way"

Today the Popey resigned. Now, whether you hate the church, love the church, are a fully signed up member of the Christian faith, or a stout athiest, I honestly don't give too much of a dinkum. Fascinating as everyone's points of view are, and debates I do like to see here at times .

Here's my ickle thought though. Joseph Ratzinger, as Popey Benedict numero 14, did what no other pope has done in 600 hundred years. He broke a trend. He didn't follow the expectations of 1 billion Roman Catholics and the other 6 billion peeps living around this wee planet. No, he decided, for whatever his reasons, to do it differently. He changed the course not only of his path, but perhaps of the paths of many Popey people to follow. He broke the trend...and maybe he'll start a new one.

Whatever your opinion - of him, of the Holy See, of the Roman Catholic church, or religion generally - I do doff my bunnet to him that he has taken the courage to do something as serious and momentous as resigning.

Take it or leave it but the courage to change our own lives and the courage to make what can be serious and momentous decisions to do that, i believe, demands respect. Just like every person at MWO with their own decision to get to grips with drinking.

Your decision is serious and momentous
Your decision breaks moulds you have set and expectations you have created
Your decision is breaking moulds and changing expectations that were set long before you popped into this world
Your decision is radical
Your decision is courageous
Your decision must be respected
Your decision proves that you have the power to chose a better life for you...
And your decision shows others that the status quo need not be the only way

Respect your decision. It's massive.

[RunningCourage]

Stella (Chook), I stole your booze...

Notes from Day 72 - Pope says "nah, bugger this... gonna do it another way"

Today the Popey resigned. Now, whether you hate the church, love the church, are a fully signed up member of the Christian faith, or a stout athiest, I honestly don't give too much of a dinkum. Fascinating as everyone's points of view are, and debates I do like to see here at times .

Here's my ickle thought though. Joseph Ratzinger, as Popey Benedict numero 14, did what no other pope has done in 600 hundred years. He broke a trend. He didn't follow the expectations of 1 billion Roman Catholics and the other 6 billion peeps living around this wee planet. No, he decided, for whatever his reasons, to do it differently. He changed the course not only of his path, but perhaps of the paths of many Popey people to follow. He broke the trend...and maybe he'll start a new one.

Whatever your opinion - of him, of the Holy See, of the Roman Catholic church, or religion generally - I do doff my bunnet to him that he has taken the courage to do something as serious and momentous as resigning.

Take it or leave it but the courage to change our own lives and the courage to make what can be serious and momentous decisions to do that, i believe, demands respect. Just like every person at MWO with their own decision to get to grips with drinking.

Your decision is serious and momentous
Your decision breaks moulds you have set and expectations you have created
Your decision is breaking moulds and changing expectations that were set long before you popped into this world
Your decision is radical
Your decision is courageous
Your decision must be respected
Your decision proves that you have the power to chose a better life for you...
And your decision shows others that the status quo need not be the only way

Respect your decision. It's massive.

DISCLAIMER: This post aint about the church, or the pope. It's about making courageous decisions. Decisions that go against the flow of the status quo.

[anon]

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Fab post Arsey. Made me rethink loads of stuff:goodjob: