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[The Little Owl]

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[kuya]

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Hi Owl, welcome back.....wassup?

[The Little Owl]

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Same as always I guess.

[kuya]

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What's stopping you?

[The Little Owl]

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I think its more a question of whats starting me. I'm calling in sick tomorrow. Staying home. And sorting myslef out.

[kuya]

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How long have you quit for in the past ( I read back so know you were on some time ago as little owl)

[The Little Owl]

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Yes I was! I forgot my password and got emailed a new one for The Little Owl. I don't know, maybe I was that as well at some point.

I have quite for a couple of weeks. I think thats the longest. Its not always a problem.

[kuya]

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So what's starting you off?

[The Little Owl]

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Thats the million dollar question. This time probably stress. I'm going to have to cut the hours I work. Its easy to say. I just have to go in and do it.

[kuya]

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Do you want to quit drinking? I'm not clear what's wrong

[kuya]

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Gotta go to work now, jump on the newbies nest thread there are people around

[Byrdlady]

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Hey Owl...well, I haven't checked your previous posts, but you have joined a site where we all drink too much and it has become a problem. You pulled a bad one yesterday, I'm guessing, and said to yourself, 'this is it'. It is affecting your work, your relationships, but you don't want to totally give it up, just get a grip on it. How close am I? Come on over to the Newbie's Nest, we have folks in ALL stages of their quit. Lots of folks to talk to, also see the link to the Tool Box in my signature line below. We're glad you are here...we can help! Byrdie

[Little Owl]

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You hit the nail right on the head Byrdlady.

I called in sick for two days. I've been madly cleaning and sorting out the house. Then on the second day I had to leave the house to go to the shop because I needed bin bags for all the rubish I sorted out. Hubby wouldn't go. So I bought a couple of miniature whiskys. My way to not drink too much. But he had a bottle of wine. I finished it off for him. And I don't remember going to bed. I was in bed with all my clothes on when I woke up just now.

On a positive note I have decided I'm sick of my job. I saw one I would like to do and will apply for it today. I think I can get away with another day off sick, I'm not off very often. Ill or hungover or depressed or fed up, I always just turn up.

[Quest for the key]

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Little Owl;1418212 wrote: You hit the nail right on the head Byrdlady.

I called in sick for two days. I've been madly cleaning and sorting out the house. Then on the second day I had to leave the house to go to the shop because I needed bin bags for all the rubish I sorted out. Hubby wouldn't go. So I bought a couple of miniature whiskys. My way to not drink too much. But he had a bottle of wine. I finished it off for him. And I don't remember going to bed. I was in bed with all my clothes on when I woke up just now.

On a positive note I have decided I'm sick of my job. I saw one I would like to do and will apply for it today. I think I can get away with another day off sick, I'm not off very often. Ill or hungover or depressed or fed up, I always just turn up.

Hi Little Owl

Just wanted to say "Go fot it !!" on the job front - it's horrible when you heat your job - believe me, I know :upset:

Keep checking in - we can help, comfort and support you every step of the way :l

[Little Owl]

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Yes Kuya I want to quit drinking.

Quest I have decided to apply for the new job and see what happens. Not that I got much support from hubby, although he thinks he is being supportive.

Molly. Yes we did talk about painting rooms! My hallway had a leak from the shower and needs doing again. My lounge had a leak from the old boiler and a bit of the ceiling needs repainting. My son's room is full of stuff I don't know what to do with and I'm trying to clear it. My daughter finally took most of her stuff out of her room, she left home years ago! Her room is musty and dusty and needs the walls and ceiling repairing. We have a new bathroom suite but the walls need repairing and painting and the ceiling is black in places. I feel I haven't progressed very far in all that time!!!

So hubby has said work less hours where you are. I haven't had a pay rise for 6 years and it would mean losing a lot of money, they said I had to cut by 16 hours so they can employ someone else. I could work less hours for more money somewhere else and be better off. I think I am fed up with the job and need to leave not just cut down. I have seen one I like the look of and will apply today. He said if you don't cut down you will just keep on working and working and looking for a job and not getting one and nothing will change. Very positive of him . . . I am worried if I cut down now and then leave anyway its not fair on them to have to sort something out.

He also thinks I am clinically depressed. If I saw the doctor he would put me on sick leave for depression. But he doesn't think I should take anti depressants. And if I get the new job I will just let them make me work more hours (it says I would cover for sickness or holidays, but thats just normal!). He said You will go to the interview and you will tell them ... you want to work part time .... blah blah blah ... I hate it when he tells me what to do.

Am I depressed because I drink or do I drink because I'm depressed. Am I depressed because the house will never be decorated. Am I depressed because I am sick of my job.
Am I depressed because I wanted a hug and some sympathy but he just had a go at me. He says he didn't but thats what it felt like.

He says he never knows what mood I'll be in. Some days I'm perfectly normal, others - well I know I shout, throw things, get violent.

I keep trying but not changing. Do I need to see the doctor? I can't even go to work at the moment. I rang in, said I'm feeling a bit better now, I'll be in tomorrow. So now I have to.