i want to get off the bus

[The time is now]

i want to get off the bus

RunningCourage;1425965 wrote: TTIN - hey, all i can add (and diss it if ya want) is that it's in you to make the quit. Doesn't matter what anyone says here - it's in you whether you decide to do it. You know that. I know you don't need me to say it.

But if you do decide to get off... then we will all support you - we got your back.

Here's the thing. I got off the bus - and i'll be frank, i'm scared. Day 11 and I'm freaking out at the 'normality' of things sometimes. I'm thinking why the feck did i get off that bus? I don't know this place i got off. I've never been here before, and sometimes really all i want is my creature comforts. The wine. The beer.

BUT i know peeps here have got my back. And I WILL USE THEM - Byrdie, Kuya, Cat the entire Army and many others. I WILL USE THEM, because i do want to make it. I want to get to a brand new destination and the only way to get there was to get of the damned bus. The bus can't drive along my life's footpaths.

Thanks for your input

RC :l

Thanks for your input

[Mootsbill]

i want to get off the bus

I too am worried about the hols but I know drinking will make them rubbish anyway ;0) so lets do this togetheR. I've got my first xmas do on Friday gong to dress up, drive and dance like a crazy person! Then drive home sober to a warm bed and no hangover, anxiety or shame in Saturday xx

[The time is now]

i want to get off the bus

Mootsbill;1426023 wrote: I too am worried about the hols but I know drinking will make them rubbish anyway ;0) so lets do this togetheR. I've got my first xmas do on Friday gong to dress up, drive and dance like a crazy person! Then drive home sober to a warm bed and no hangover, anxiety or shame in Saturday xx

sounds the plan !

I actually dont have many xmas partys i am more of a get home and start to drink the night away , getting the kids to bed asap so i can chill !

[TheSunFlower]

i want to get off the bus

Someone asked you what changed between today and yesterday.....regarding moderation. Here is my deal.....I have moderated.....even though I often say I have not. Those moderation days came and I did not have to work that hard to have them. That is what has kept the dream alive for me......those few days. Those days are more dangerous to me.....because they stick in my head. I'm like the the "little train that could"....except I end up in a train wreck.

Some people work very hard to moderate. Others just do it naturally. Due to some circumstances.....I was able to do them naturally. Yet, keeping the dream (demon) alive.

So what if I had 1-2 beers for a day or two.....or even a month. It always landed me back in some shit I did not want to be in. I get too focused on those days that I could.....than the days I could not.

I know there is only one way not to be a slave or victim of the drink. Its hard....I am restarting my journey again. I am not a slow learner....I am bullheaded

I wish you the very best.