Newbie

[buffalo]

Hi, my first time on the site. I am what I term as a functioning alcoholic. My problem is that's I love alcohol. But I am tired of the control it has on me. I want to stop. It takes priority over everything in my life,but I know how to control it so no one really knows.That is why I haven't gone to aa. I hope I can find the peace I am looking for here.


b

[mario]

Newbie

Hi buffalo and welcome to MWO, You have come to a great community with lots of support and good advice from people who are or where you are right now,Read as many posts and threads as you can and post your thoughts and feelings.Remember give your self a chance,Nothing changes if nothing changes.Good luck and hope to see you around the forum.Check out these forums as they will help...

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...est-30074.html

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

[Quest for the key]

Newbie

Good morning and welcome Buffalo :welcome:

As Mario said, keep reading and posting - check out the newbies nest, and the tool box - lots of ideas to get a plan together for you.

Looking forward to seeing you around

[New Day]

Newbie

Hello Buffalo......I'd say most of the people posting here felt the same way you do......loving alcohol, trying our best to conceal how much we drink from others, still managed to function in our daily lives, but for me, it was taking more and more of an effort and I just wasn't feeling very well each day....was just getting through it until I could veg out with my wine in the evening. I also was very unhappy on the inside and not enjoying life as I should.

Just decided I'd had enough of that and need to take care of my health before its too late. I don't want a miserable old age. We've all seen the sick and frail elderly and on the other had, the vibrant and active seniors ......that's the group I want to be in. I have a friend at our golf club who is 75 years old, and she not only walks the entire 18 holes, she carries her own clubs! ......and is always hopping on a plane for somewhere.....she exhausts us who are 15 - 20 years her junior! I want to be like her when I grow up...LOL!

[nonamegirl]

Newbie

Welcome, Buffalo

buffalo;1426116 wrote: Hi, my first time on the site. I am what I term as a functioning alcoholic. My problem is that's I love alcohol. But I am tired of the control it has on me. I want to stop. It takes priority over everything in my life,but I know how to control it so no one really knows.That is why I haven't gone to aa. I hope I can find the peace I am looking for here.


b

Well, yes. Exactly. Me, too. I also love(d) alcohol. Very much. Love the taste, the initial effect and the "coolness" of it. I have tried many times to moderate, and only recently have come to the conclusion that since even when I so-called-moderate, it DOES take priority over everything in my life. And yes, I am pretty sure no one else in my life knew how much I was drinking either. And, yes, I also could not stomach the idea of going to AA. But, I am done for good. I know now that alcohol is a poison to me. It took me a couple years coming back and forth to this site before I finally arrived at this decision.

And so, my dear Buffalo, I hope you will KEEP coming back. Step by step in the right direction will get us there. Our health and sanity is so very worth it. Worth much much more than the taste of the first sip of .... whatever.

[K9Lover]

Newbie

Welcome Buffalo!

I "thought" I loved alcohol too. Until I stepped back and saw what it was really doing to me. Why would we love something that steals our money, time, sanity, peace, family, job, and self-respect? Granted, you may not be that "low" yet, but many of us were. When your love turns to hate, that is when you will be able to get it out of your life. Take an honest look at alcohol, write down what it does FOR you versus what it TAKES from you. You might find your love diminishing.

Again..welcome, I hope you stick around...I look forward to getting to know you!

K9

[ThreeDogNight]

Newbie

Hi, Buffalo.

Glad you came here. It is a great place for help, advice and support.

I, too, was a functioning alcoholic for a long time. Then I became non-functional, had two DUIs in six months (had never even had a speeding ticket at the age of 58.) Went to AA, a couple of short detox/rehab things, then finally a 28 day rehab a year ago. It was wonderful! I did relapse after about 6 1/2 months, but finally knew I couldn't take any more of this madness. I'm on day 21 now, and am determined to stay AF. Have had quite a bit of stress lately, but I know that drinking would only make it worse and complicate things.

Hang in there, and don't give up!

TDN

[Byrdlady]

Newbie

Good advice from all...hop on over to the Newbie's nest! We've got folks in ALL stages of their quit, so you'll be in great company. We all loved AL! Now we hate it for it's done to us and all our friends here. Be sure to check out the Tool Box, there are 100's of tips and coping skills to help you thru those first challenging days. You've come to the right place if you are ready to take action. It is NOT impossibile and I'm living proof! See you in the Newbies Nest, I hope! Byrdie