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[EmbracingIt]

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Sorry for the foul language

I'll bet there are rules against that. My apologies.

[EmbracingIt]

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Damn

I have had 3 drinks. Is anyone on here in my difficult window from 4 or 5 - 8 PST, USA. I didn't drink until 7:30 and then I did. It is less than usual and I've now eaten dinner and am going to bed, but still, this is not who I want to be. I would love to find a support network that I could dialogue with in the window where I am struggling the most. Obvioiusly, this is my own responsibility, but I would really like the luxury of some timely support.

[Kradle123]

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Embracing:

There are no rules honey for trying to free ourselves. :l

Have you looked into downloading the book from RJ and starting on the program? Tpoa and supps?

The prgraom is SO helpful and can really help with all your rcravings. There are other meds which help too and there are threads here for them.

Stay close :h

[paulywogg]

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hi embracing,im always on here at that time,those are my hours too so i preoccupy myself here but it is DEAD around those hrs on here,ill be around

[Slaythefear]

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I went to a support group meeting last night for abuse and found out 1 in 3 women are in an abusive relationship. Wowza! Folks we have an epidemic and we wonder why there is so much substance abuse today. Maybe that is part of the increase in the use by women...part of it.

DAMN!!!!!

[K9Lover]

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Hi Embracing!

Sorry I did not see your post yesterday! I can give you my story in a nutshell: I drank 12+ beers every single night for about 10 years. My daughter is now 15, but when she was around 12 she really started noticing what I was doing. My nightly antics were getting worse...from wandering the neighborhood in my pajamas to driving drunk to the store to get more beer. One night I came home and she was crying on the couch with a letter she had written me. It broke my heart. I wish I could say I stopped right then, but I didn't. It did, however, trigger something inside of me. I realized I could not continue to hurt HER, hurt ME, like this anymore. Drunkenly one night I left a message on my Doctor's message service and made an appointment for the next day. I got a prescription for Antabuse and Ativan. I came to MWO all day, every day and read, read, read, and posted, posted, posted. Eventually, it "clicked". I realized how much happier I am (my daughter too). I went through 2 DUI's, jail time, work furlough (jail for people with a job...they lock you up at night), 2 years of forced group meetings, and about $25,000 in fines....but ALL of that was not my "bottom". My bottom was breaking my daughter's heart.

You can do this...I know it's not easy, but it CAN be done. Stick close...we can help!

K9

[EmbracingIt]

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Here and Thank you

Thank you for the support all, and to K9 for your story. I fear that could easily be my story in short order.

It is 5:30 p.m. here now. I purposely offered to pick up a friend of mine's boy from school and have him over for play time and then DRIVE HIM HOME by his dinner time 6:00. I knew that would force me not to drink right when I came through the door (which I would have because I am in a lot of pain today with a chronic condition I have that gets worse when I have been out and gotten exposed to perfumes and petroluem fumes, etc. --- often physical pain is my "excuse").

I am already thinking about having a drink when we get back from dropping the boy off. I don't know that I have the strength or motivation not too. It is amazing how I convince myself it will be just 2 - ha! I am really good at that mind game the day after I have "moderated" - which means 3 or less for me.

Anyway, gotta run, and I feel like apologizing for not being 100% into this today. I just figured I'd show up and share and maybe the urge to committ would stike me again here as the evening progresses.

[EmbracingIt]

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7:21

Still hanging in there. Off to read story and put my son to bed. Then, planning to drink. I admit it and I wish I was not. Years, and years of habit. Though waiting until after my son is in bed to start has NOT been my habit in the past year or more.

[FlyAway]

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Think about waking up tomorrow morning. How will you feel then? Will you wake up happy that you drank? Or will you wake up disappointed in yourself? How will you feel if you wake up tomorrow and didn't drink?

[Slaythefear]

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Great advice, Flyaway. Looking into the future toward the consequences of most decisions can help sway us at times. She is locked in right now, so she doesn't have a lot of experience with how it feels to not wake with consequences.

Embracing it, YOU can do it, but most of the battle is in the mind. YOU have to want to do it. Until then, you don't have part of your mind fighting for you being your true advocate.

Changing habits is a big piece of the battle as well. It's a start. Good for you.

Love,

Slay

[Kradle123]

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EmbracingIt;1445322 wrote: Still hanging in there. Off to read story and put my son to bed. Then, planning to drink. I admit it and I wish I was not. Years, and years of habit. Though waiting until after my son is in bed to start has NOT been my habit in the past year or more.

I know how damn hard it is Embracing. Your doing great just by being here. :l

One thing that helped me in the beginning when my witching hour was near was pulling up those RAIN IN MY HEART docs that are posted here...I think in the General Section.

Those stories and the absolute power of seeing it first hand were a real deterrent..

Stay close,
:l:h

[K9Lover]

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Hi Embracing,
How are you doing today? I think you hit the nail on the head when you said you just weren't motivated to NOT drink. Until you really, really want it, and I mean more than anything, it won't happen. Nobody can force you to be sober...sure you can quit drinking, but you'll be a "dry drunk"...sober but not happy about it! I was a dry drunk for a long time. Now I consider myself truly sober. It's no longer "I can't drink"...it's "I don't have to drink!" Freedom from the bottle (and cigs, in my case) is the best feeling...better than any buzz. I know you can do this when you are ready. We'll be here to help!
:h
K9

p.s. I read many a drunken story to my daughter...hurry...hug, kiss, goodnight..stay in bed so Mommy can go drink. I regret it, don't do the same!

[New Day]

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K9Lover;1445615 wrote: Nobody can force you to be sober...sure you can quit drinking, but you'll be a "dry drunk"...sober but not happy about it! I was a dry drunk for a long time. Now I consider myself truly sober. It's no longer "I can't drink"...it's "I don't have to drink!" Freedom from the bottle

K9.... IMO you have defined the difference between those that will succeed at staying AF and those who won't. A "dry drunk" who is unhappy wont last......a switch to the positive side is what is needed. It has to be more of "I chose NOT to drink, rather than I CAN'T drink".

[catch22]

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[QUOTE=EmbracingIt;1444670]
Man, the ideal of admitting I am an alcoholic is just so hard! I don't want to be that person!!

Hi EmbracingIt, I so understand what you are saying i was once in your shoes took me a long time to admit inside me. when i use to say in AA Hi my name is ...... and am a alcoholic was hard. Trying to find a way out that am not one of them. Once i accepted deep inside my heart and my life is unmanageable because of it. That's when thinks started to click in my head. I started to change, but had to put a lot of work in my sobriety.
There was a time i use to add up my days drinking on here and not add up my days AF i was so angry with myself. I had resentment with people in AA and also on here.
Acceptance is the key. You have that key hold it and Embrace it, it so worth it. Once you move from denial, into acceptances.

I to have to accept that my life has become unmanageable and am not drinking, and i know deep down its all to do with change.

Keep posting and reading And try and keep safe.:l

[K9Lover]

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New Day;1445625 wrote: K9.... IMO you have defined the difference between those that will succeed at staying AF and those who won't. A "dry drunk" who is unhappy wont last......a switch to the positive side is what is needed. It has to be more of "I chose NOT to drink, rather than I CAN'T drink".

I think it's our dear Mollyka that's signature reads: "Contentedly sober since...

You're right NewDay...content/happy is the secret to success.