About 6 weeks ago, I was lying on the sofa having just polished off a bottle of port (so just feeling mellow) and as I hid the empty bottle under the couch (even though I live alone) and wondered how many beers might be left in the fridge, I had a moment of semi clarity and thought WTF???
I visited an alcohol assessment clinic the next day and they wanted to put me in an inpatient detox facility that day (I told them, quite honestly that I was drinking 15 standard drinks EVERY night)
I shit myself, went to my GP, got some Valium, took a week off work, dosed myself up, tapered off and had a very happy 2 weeks AF...
Then I got shitfaced...
I think about a bottle of Vodka and 2 beers, alone at home...
I didn't panic, thought to myself "you can't change 10 years of learned behavior in two weeks"
And I was right, of course..
Slowly, over the next 3 weeks, the drinking nights became closer and more AL was consumed...
So Tomorrow begins Day one again...
I've been trying to give up for at least 3 years....
I really wonder if it's ever going to happen...
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