Realising just how much of a priority alcohol was...

[Lasha]

Realising just how much of a priority alcohol was...

Taking the dog up the forest now and used to go by the recycling yard on the way to dispose of the excess empty bottles that couldn't fit in my recycling box. Then stop by Sainsburys store as my little store didn't sell alcohol until 12:00 on Sundays. Of course the excuse was to get a Sunday roasting joint and sometimes I struggled to punch in my PIN due to the shakes.

Blah wouldn't thank you for it now especially after watching "Trainspotting" of course alcohol is a drug and has done more damage than any other drug.

[Alcoholic]

Realising just how much of a priority alcohol was...

JJ:
I remember those days of worrying about not able to sit through a movie without having a drink! Or wanting to stop by the store to get wine before heading home.

It's a new kind of freedom to not have to worry like that anymore, isn't it?

[Lasha]

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Hi Alcoholic,
It's great not to have the shackles on, I'm starting not to worry about it and the dog enjoyed his walk without having to wait in the car while I got booze, Freedom.

[Findingcara]

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Freedom

Yes Lasha, freedom, that is what I am looking forward to most. I'm thinking January 1 to begin, but you all make AF sound so good now. Will have to look up Trainspotting and see if it is on on demand or some other way to watch it.

Bet your dog is a happy doggie now!

[Lasha]

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Hi Findingcara, Yes my chocolate roan cocker spaniel loved the attention and the extra long walk we had as I wasn't in a hurry to get to the store for booze, I don't know what stage you're at and I'm still working on it as we say but freedom is worth the pain.

[Struggles 106]

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GREAT THREAD

I can so relate to all the posts here. I have felt that same impatience after having a few drinks and then having to wait for more. It is just awful to be like that.
The cycle has to be shut down; the one drink that starts it all has to be avoided.

I think most heavy drinkers are not fooling anyone, in most cases.

I remember Trainspotting-good movie.

Here is something that my daughter and I watched and discussed (though I already knew about it)-HBO ducmentary Something is Wrong with Aunt Diane. Available on youtube.
A 36 year old mother of 2 drove the wrong way on the Taconic Parkway in NY straight into another vehicle. She was killed, her daughter was killed, as well as her brother's 3 girls in the back seat. Along with the 3 men in the other vehicle. Some of you may already know about this. Terrible tragedy-weed in here sytem, and BAC of .19. It seems that noone had ever seen her drunk,and she was a highly functioning person. Her husband is in denial about the whole thing and had blood tests re-done with the same results. Bottle of vodka in the minivan.
The case brought up conversations about drinkers who have a great facade going on, where noone knows how much they drink. Of course all sorts of speculation and no real answers. SAD.

[JingleJo]

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Alcoholic;1434626 wrote: JJ:
I remember those days of worrying about not able to sit through a movie without having a drink! Or wanting to stop by the store to get wine before heading home.

It's a new kind of freedom to not have to worry like that anymore, isn't it?

Definately a new kind of freedom. It's only now that I fully realise the extent of it all and how tightly it had me in its' grip and it's a bloody scary realisation.

So grateful to be free from it and to be living such a different life now

[Alcoholic]

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Yea, I was one of those highly functioning drinking people... My husband still is in denial of my drinking, and my close friends probably suspected a problem, otherwise, majority of those around me had no idea that I needed to have enough wine at home and was a daily drinker.

Sad about those kids....

[merry]

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i have to agree with all of you and can thoroughly relate
we lie and make up excuses for why we do what we do
i am hoping i can become af in 2013
i know I need to for my self and to be a better person

[HereIgoAgain]

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First day on here also. 39 yr old male from South Georgia. Been drinking for about 7 years now..mostly at night before bed. I'm so sick of being so sick and tired. I give it up for four days here and two days here, but I always start again. My face is always red And I have pressure under my right ribs that doesn't go away. I've had several test for this but it all comes back normal. I'm sure it all has to do with the AL ...If I could just give my body a good break!...sux! I do work out and keep my outer body in good shape. My inner-body is suffering. enough of the same ol same ol. This site looks great so I thought I would hang out a little while if that's ok.:new:

[pixie]

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Welcome HereIgo! It starts to feel like you are on a merry-go-round, doesn't it? I think you will find a lot of people on here will have similar stories. Hope you stick around.

[HereIgoAgain]

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Hi Pixie,
Thanks for your reply. I did make it the new year without a drink.. I'm glad I found this site. I plan on absorbing more of this information that's on this site than the AL.
Good luck to you and Happy New Year!

[paulywogg]

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hi here i go,your avatar looks just like my dog petey,i too am 39 and started drinking 7 years ago too! maybe the magic age of 32 is haunted,who knows

[HereIgoAgain]

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Hi Pauly
That is one of my American Bulldogs. I have two...Athens and Georgia. I think I started to get a little crazy around 32. I'm still a little crazy but I'm trying to slow downnnnnn. Gettin' to old I guess...lol

[K9Lover]

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HereIGo - I love your doggy pic...so cute!

This thread is so true. Like Jingle mentioned earlier, it took some serious organizational skills to keep up the drinking (and deceit....)

Many, many (too many) times I would turn down the chance to be social so I could sit on my couch alone and drink. Sometimes I'd deny my child a chance for a good time because I didn't want to be out, I wanted to be at home with my 12 pack. There were also a lot of times I had to ask someone else to bring my daughter home, I'd use the excuse "I'm not feeling well and just took some cold medicine, I shouldn't drive..." It's so nice now to be free...I don't even worry about what time it is when she's out, I know I can jump up at any minute and go get her. I even got pulled over the other night (because of a headlight out) and didn't end up in jail! (A first for me...lol)

AF = Freedom!!