Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

[InnerStrength]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Yes you will be. Just drink lots of water and get some rest.
Much love to you
Jen

[Guest]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Kimmy,
We are here for you through smiles and frowns, through ups an downs, through good times and bad, through sucesses and failures, we'll be here for you.....friends til the end!!!!!! We all have rough days and rough spots to hurdle over....you can do this...start over. Tomorrow will be a new day!!!!!!!!

[Arial]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

A new day!

Hi Kimmy -

I've just spent the last few minutes reading through this thread and have really enjoyed your humour:H , spirit:flower: , energy:yougo: and honestylease: .

So keep talking, sharing, crying, laughing - we'll be here through it all!
Something I read: "The past does not equal the future,
Because you may not have succeeded a moment ago,
all day today,
or for the last six months,
or for the last sixteen years,
or for the last fifty years of your life
doesn't mean anything.
All that matters is
what are you going to do now?

Keep your motivation, your goals in sight and your head held high - you were in an amazingly difficult situation, and you faced it - you didn't hide - next time it might be easier...

Warmest wishes

[marcel]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Welcome back!

lease: Don't forget to come back. I will miss you.:l

[Noella]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Kimmie...

I just read your post where you said

"Tomorrow I will be better"

In my opinion, that should be phrased "tomorrow I will DO better"! You (as am I) are at the very start of the journey. Tripping ocassionally doesn't define who you are - neither does a bottle of chard or a bottle of Jonny Black for that matter. Hang in there!!!! If it were easy, this place wouldn't exist!!!!!!

Sending lots of love and hugs...

Noella

[Determinator]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Kimmy, I couldn't say anything better than the others, all I can say is I do know precisely how you feel right now....it was very recent for me, but there IS light at the end of our tunnel. Let us hold your hand once in a while ok?
D

[Kimmy]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Lessons learnt.

HI

I am here a little fragile and very disappointed in myself, but there was many lessons behind this all, The first thing I learnt was that MWO is a life changing experience ? until Tuesday the 13th March 2007 I never really thought about my drinking problem and then I found the site, the posts and the people who had posted them started to change they way I saw myself ? these people were talking about the book, supplements and everything that goes with MWO. I bet I am not the only one that has thought they could do it on there own with out the MWO tools aids and only the talking, posting and reading would get them through. Well it won?t I was only one day 2 AF so I really had not done much, but this did highlight the dark situation that I am in.

Lesson 2 ? How this is affecting my children ? I always thought I was still functioning as a mother regardless of how much I drank ? CRAP ? I am not, last night I was so court up in the drinking that I had forgotten about my child who was still at cubs ? one of the other fathers had to bring him home, this father not only brought my child home but also fed him, my other little boy (first time ever) was fetched my husband and spent until 8:00Pm with him in a pub (great parents we are) look my husband does not have a problem in fact he only ever goes to the pub on a Friday night and plays a bit of pool ? so I cant blame him, I should have fetched my son then he would not have joined dad in the pub. My daughter was at home alone, thank the Lord that she was not feeling well yesterday and never went to school.

Lesson 3 ? I need to change everything about me ? it?s the way I live my life that is the problem not my life ? I have a great life I have great kids, but the only reason I was so upset and disappointed in myself yesterday was because of myself. You wonderful people can give me support and guidance the book can be a reference but if I choose to ignore this all then I am the only one that is going to fail. I need to make the change, I can?t rely on anyone else to do that for me.

So I am here to stay ? life is like a board game it has a start this is where I am and it continues with a throw of a dice, this is MWO and I will move according to the program, some times I might have to go back or stay or even miss a turn but I will remain on the course, the middle I would have gained something and even at the end of this I will be here for those who will need my help guidance and strength which I would have gained from MWO.

Thank you to all of you who replied to my post yesterday and again you were there when I got home DRUNK, and (boy did you read what I was saying) I posted again.

Speak to you all again soon.

PS - Lesson 4 - never Mix White wine and Johnny Black - not a good Idea, and for heavens sake eat - this thing about not wanting eat on an empty stomach so have lost to drink first ? the only problem with that is that eating is going to get in the way of Drinking time?.Could not leave with out a joke:H

[Popeye]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

:l

[marcel]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Ditto Popeye.

[Arial]

Day 2 AF Scared of leaving safe zone

Great reflection - sounds like you've spent time really thinking it through and great to sense the real determintation - those kids can really be great motivators and they're so going to love this new Mum coming their way - just in three weeks AF I've found more time and energy to spend with the girls and I'm enjoying every minute with them - I just so wish I had made the move earlier as my oldest is about to go off to college - what precious times I 've wasted...

Anyway, it looks like you'll be around for a while so look forward to hearing how it all goes!
:l and warmest wishes,