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paulywogg;1522277 wrote: hey decided long time no "see",thank you so much for sharing this with us,i was struggling real bad last month,i slipped and said f-it and kept drinking,i hated myself so much for one slip i just didnt care,its stories like yours that really help to motivate others to dust off get back up,strengthen that no al resolve,glad youre doing good take care

PAULY! I thought of you alot during all this...I remember having a really hard time watching you struggle...one of the things I noticed here is that one drunk seems to have people feeling so disappointed in themselves that they just give up like you said...I tried to keep that in mind as I've been going through this as I've seen that it only helps to trap you an bring you down...it's all part of the game AL plays...if it can't negotiate with you because your resolve is too strong...it will wait until your weak spirited ( maybe a fight with someone or a financial problem..stint of axis or depression) and it will cut you down and take you out as fast as it can... When I'm axious or down its not even a subtle attack...it's not even one drink...it's "let's get f*ucked up" point blank period. "who cares what's the point life is shit anyways and you already had a glass so..."

At times like that play out the how much worse can it get scenario and as go through all the benefits of not drinking you will realize that it's more than just a hangover that's at risk here...it's everything You have worked for, its every time you've stayed strong and said no, it's every other time you suffered though a craving and made it out alive and better off for it an its everything you have ever wanted and could ever be. It's not easy and on long nights melatonin and embarrassingly bad reality tv shows where people make fools of themself have helped to make it through till my mind was strong enough to say keep fighting.

One foot in front of the other girly...just keep it moving :x

If you have any questions or I can help in Any way please let me know.

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3June2013;1522278 wrote: decided, thanks for the reminder that those of us who can't control our drinking have to give it up. Sharing it with others helps us all, thanks for being accountable and for opening up. Good to know you'll be around more. It's how I get through each day AF!

Thank you
I felt that I would be cheating if I kept it to myself...

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spiderwoman;1522404 wrote: Very glad you decided to share the experience Decided. Reading posts like yours keeps me aware of where a drop of the stuff could lead. I have a friend who comes to my home and insists on bringing her bottle of wine, sometimes cider on the side, because "she has to have a life" and have once sniffed the glass after she left, it smelt vile.I know if I tried just the one, within a week every penny of my disposable income and money that should go on bills would be handed over at the local shop for wine.

Hi spidy!

It's so important to know and respect your limits...testing yourself really is a lack of respect for all your hard work and for you as a person. It's important to know what you can and can't do and accept yourself as a fabulous person with just as many positives and negatives as the next. Don't throw everything away trying to be perfect it's a mean thing to do to yourself.

When I tell you that one sip is like handing the keys right over to AL and refusing to put on a seatbelt believe me...I have NO reason to lie to t
You.

Tell your friend she can have her " life" some place else of she can't respect yours...a comment like that to ME shows that she too has an unhealthy relationship with the bottle-and probably hasent faced it yet ( if you have to bring a bottle with you to a non drinkers home to drink alone in order to have a life...finish this sentence lol) ...just be conscious of how her attitude may or may not be helping/hindering your own goals.

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witts end;1522455 wrote: thanks for reminding us
that one sip is one too many

It's a poison...there really is no point. My body still feels more agitated than it has is months since I quit, and my anxiety is just under the surface always...1 sip, weeks later 2 sips 2 weeks later 1/2 a champagne glass an BOOM I feel my control on this slipping through my fingers as I fight the voice and am faced with another argument every few hours. Things are finally slowly starting to move in the right direction and I have alot to celebrate...but the last thing I need is another glass of champagne if you know what I mean...