Feel so nice to wake up and remember!

[decided]

Feel so nice to wake up and remember!

Someone suggested putting your booze money asside in a jar as a reminder, maybe labeling it with something you'd like to buy will help you re set your priorities. Like a trip with your kids, or something nice for yourself ? I've saved over 75 bux so far! Lol

[paulywogg]

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i shoplifted printer ink cartridges,and lip gloss from wal-mart,in front of my 12 and 13 year old daughters,real nice

[Icanwithoutacan]

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I can totally relate. D3 and feels so great to wake up feeling good, no shame, no trying to hide cans, rearrange the fridge so no one can tell the number of beers I drank.... And to be productive during the day! Knowing I didn't lose my temper w/ kids or put them to bed slurring!!!!!

[Icanwithoutacan]

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:goodjob:I can totally relate. D3 and feels so great to wake up feeling good, no shame, no trying to hide cans, rearrange the fridge so no one can tell the number of beers I drank.... And to be productive during the day! Knowing I didn't lose my temper w/ kids or put them to bed slurring!!!!!

[Kradle123]

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M22 :welcome::welcome:

Can't tell how often I maneuvered the kids to bed or outside or to a tv program or...just to drink in peace ...always telling myself I needed that time for me...never thought about the time I did spend with them being poisened by the time I didnt spend with them.

Now I am tucked in my bedroom with all of you and star trek episode but I spent most of te day with my son and have been at dance class with my twins from 5-8pm...now my me time really counts towards spending kid time...
Such a difference and it is doable. :h

Stay close :l

[M22]

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You guys are all wonderful. DAY 3 and STRONG!!!

:lYou guys are all wonderful. Reading everyones story really makes me feel like you do understand what I am going through. Last week I did something that I felt was a bottom for me. I had 2 small bottles of wine. I sent everyone to the shed to put the christmas tree away so that I could take both small bottles to the bathroom along with a big empty bottle to combine them to make sure I had enough to make it through the night because It was sunday. I felt horrible while I was doing it. I hid all 3 bottles in an empty hamper with towels so that they didn't cling. I couldn't believe I did that.
I also take my kids to school at 7am and I also sometimes felt like I still had too much alcohol in my system to drive them but I did anyway. The repeating myself over and over again because I don't remember asking them. Waking up and going straight to the wine bottle to see exactly how much I drank. Checking my phone to see who I've text or called and if I called how long did I stay on the phone. Juggling inbetween liquor stores because I am embarrased they see me too often. I've driven 20 minutes to buy wine in a different store because I am embarrased. Well tonight is night 3 and I am so Happy. I even bought boxes of wine because it comes with more. It didn't matter how it tasts as I gulp I didn't even appreciate the wine I wanted the high.
Thank everyone again. This website has helped so much. Your stories really help me get through the day. I look forward to going online and catching up. You guys motivate me NOT to drink !

Hugs to all!!!!! :l

[M22]

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I totally relate to this.

This really hits close to home. Tucking them it and being upset just because you want to drink alone with peace and quiet because I deserve it after a long day of working, cleaning and cooking. That was my reward. Thanks for posting this, it really helps me alot.

:thanks:

[Honeysoup]

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WOW, Were you living my life. I have 3 kids and the same thing. Let me sign your paper for school " you already did" Oh, haha just kidding...I have left a pizza cooking in the oven over night. I have done many loads of laundry without remembering. Which was funny cuz I would laugh to my self and say oh must have been the drinking fairy's again! Not really funny! I would have to rewatch tv episodes on my Netfix cuz I didn't remember them. My kids were like Mom, how many times are you going to watch this.

I am on day 9 and it is so nice. I was actually making a cake last night and thinking wow, I am thinking so clearly. And now I am back to my routine of after bath I read books to my kids and remember them...and I can read them without stumbling all over my words.

I have a routine with my youngest (4) that I sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star every night before bed. I wonder how the drunk version was??? EEEK!

Sober life is great and I am down 1.5lbs so far!!

Good luck to you an PM me if you need to!

[K9Lover]

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Hi everyone!

Yeah, the shaving of the dogs was a pretty chaotic night. Keep in mind the dog getting shaved was a cocker spaniel, he did not appreciate his new "look". That was my Charlie...he died last July in my arms :upset: BUT...at least I was sober as I was rocking him and singing "You Are My Sunshine" as he took his last breath at 3am. Thank goodness I wasn't passed out!

I used to read to my daughter every night, but I'd try to skip a few pages so I could get back to my drinking spot on the couch. SO many times I pushed her into her room so I could "relax". I have asked her if she remembers all of that or if she feels like I negelected her (I am very HONEST with her now about the drinking) and she says no, she didn't feel like I was pushing her away. Maybe she's just saying that to make me feel better. At least that is in the PAST. Let's not dwell on how things used to be...let's focus on the here and how and now much better it is!!

M22 - You're doing awesome. Keep up the great work!

K9

[Phin]

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I don't love hearing these stories, but I love the 'sameness'. I love that I am not alone, and that I can say what is on my mind and I won't be judged.

Thank you everyone...xo

[K9Lover]

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You are definitely NOT alone Phin. Whatever you've been through or done, I can guarantee one of us has been there, done that and has the T-shirt and coffee mug to prove it. LOL

Sometimes these "stories" can be sad or embarrassing, but I've realized that honesty is the best way to get past them. It happened, I survived, time to move on.

[damo180]

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This is a great thread. I understand its not "great" to read of everyones actions under the influence but i find it very helpful when you can relate we never have to repeat these again. Well done m22 on getting ths far and long may you continue with your new life

[Icanwithoutacan]

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Why?

What I wonder is if I know I feel so great, why does the thought of drinking still appeal? I mean I hate how I am when I drink, I'm so clear, energetic, free, shameless right now so why does the thought of drinking cross my mind?

[Phin]

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I don't know why, it happens to me as well. I just try to turn it off, and find something to do to occupy myself. Sorry I can't help more, Ican.

[M22]

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This is when it gets hard for me. 6pm dinner time. I just left the market shopping for things i don't really need just to kill time. I am actually sitting in my car in the parking lot asking God please give me the strength I need.... Right now. Off to my house i go. I will be strong! I will be strong! But why why must this be so hard.

I need to focus and be strong but all i want to do is cry. Today will be day 3!
Wish me luck guys.

XxOo