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[WhatALoser]

I'm a total complete wreck. I have had a chronic alcohol problem for years.

I'm scared to stop but also scared of what will happen if I don't. I can't go back to my doctor as I have a legal case pending with my ex-husband which may require disclosure of both our medical records. I only have about 8 valium to help me through withdrawals (which are going to be bad!).

What else can I do?

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[kuya]

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Hi What. And :welcome:

A lot depends on how much you normally drink per day TBH..... So a bit more info would help

[WhatALoser]

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It's shameful

2-3 bottles of wine a day.

[Hippyman]

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I detoxed myself with lite beer. I used it like a RX starting with 12 and decreasing 4 cans per day to avoid withdrawals. I had no meds but sure could have used them. I had a fellow alcoholic stay with me and that helped alot. If you haven't downloaded the MWO book it's very helpful.

[WhatALoser]

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Thanks

I'll have to try it that way. Hospital is not an option but if I don't quit, that's where I'm gonna end up whether I like it or not.:upset:

[Nelz]

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Ive been around here long enough to know that AL withdrawal is nothing to mess with.

I can see your mind is made up, or that for some reason you "cant" go get medical help, at the VERY least(since you seem to be having some withdrawal issues), would research the crap out of it on the net.


You might even convince a friend to come over as a precaution. As embarrassing as it is to admit that you have AL problem, the positives of coming through withdrawal safely far outweigh the embarrassment.

Wishing you much luck

EDIT: I think your screen name is kind of hard on yourself........you are not a loser, you have an issue with AL that can fixed

[Kradle123]

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Hi What and Welsocome:
Here's a hug for you:l YOu are the begining of this journey. Here at MWO we are all at different places but all the share the same goal-to get from underneath THIS! YOu are in a safe place.

I don't knwo alot about severe withdrawles just really bad hangovers and if they are anything like that you lots of space and time.

You mentioned you can't 'go back' to your Dr. because of the court case. I get the impression you have already been talking to your Dr. Is he/she someone you cn confide in regarding the court case? My Dr. Gave me samples of Topamax several years ago when I started . No records. She was very understanding.

If your's is the same perhaps they can prescribe one of teh anti craving drugs for say, Migraines...which I believe Topa is also used for.

Stay close here and read read read. This above all will soothe your soul right now.

one more hug:l

PS: I totally agree with Nels regarding yor screen name. We all simply MUST start treating ourselves with kindnes even if only a little bit at first' What about 'Billable Hours? In honor (no pun intended) of your court case

[Hippyman]

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I think a change of name would sure be a good thing! A friend to keep an eye on you is very important since you have made up your mind not to do a medical detox.

[Kradle123]

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What:

Sorry for all those typos!

Need to proofread more. :h

[WhatALoser]

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Thank you for the replies and the hugs.

Good suggestion about the doctors.

I am reading and reading and reading. I will change my screen name when I deserve it, which isn't now.

[Mom21961]

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I agree

I agree that your screen name is harsh, but I totally understand. I have to say that I was unable to cut down, let alone quit, before I found this site. The supplements help. I had a 4 bottle of Chardonnay a day habit, and I quit with no problem except insomnia. Melatonin and calmes forte (from this site) helped with that. I highly recommend massive amounts of micronized l-glutamine and kudzu for cravings.

Good luck!

M

[Findingcara]

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Welcome, What, and you do deserve a positive screen name. Yes we may have a drinking problem, but that doesn't make us bad people. As long as we are trying, that is the main thing. I'm in the process too of overcoming this.

Stay around and read, there is alot of good information here. :l

[kuya]

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You will feel a lot better about yourself when you read and realise you are just ill at the moment.
Your drinking is an addiction, not a weakness. Unlike many diseases this one can be cured completely by quitting the drug.

Don't despair, don't beat yourself up. It can be done with a little hard work and courage.

[Hippyman]

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You are not a bad person trying to get good. We are a group of sick people with a very real disease, trying to get well. Together we can heal! I think it takes an alcoholic to help an alcoholic. Others may want to try but they haven't walked in our shoes so they just can't know what it's like. I need this MWO community as my alcoholic support system! Thank you all for being here for me. They will be here for you too!

[dav]

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I feel for you. I truly hope you get the support needed to get you through the WD phase. I know how difficult it can be.