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[cathysgottastop]

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I feel like such a waste right now. I was doing and felt so good for 3 days now I feel yicky kinda out of it and smelly cause every beer I drink I smoke. Like chocolate chip cookies and milk

[FallenAngel]

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Yes he does. And you need you to be sober.
I have to take off Cathy, FlyAway is still here to talk to.
You take care girl. g'nite. :l

[FlyAway]

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And you need to be sober for you too.

[FlyAway]

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cathysgottastop;1455195 wrote: I feel like such a waste right now. I was doing and felt so good for 3 days now I feel yicky kinda out of it and smelly cause every beer I drink I smoke. Like chocolate chip cookies and milk

How many beers did you drink?

[FlyAway]

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cathysgottastop;1455195 wrote: I feel like such a waste right now. I was doing and felt so good for 3 days now I feel yicky kinda out of it and smelly cause every beer I drink I smoke. Like chocolate chip cookies and milk

You are not a waste by the way. Every person on this site has been where you are. You are worthy of love and respect and first you need to love and respect yourself. You have an addiction and you can beat it.

[K9Lover]

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Cathy,
I'm SO sorry you're struggling :l Believe me, I KNOW how damn hard this is. I am single so I never had to justify it to anyone, which is hard in it's own way. My disappointment in myself was finally enough to make me quit. I know you want to stop...I could see it in your posts this week. You KNOW it's what you need to do...now you just need to do it. And really, so what if it's hard for a few days? Once they're over, you'll never have to go through it again (as long as you don't drink). Get rid of the alcohol you have left...you'll be glad you did in the morning. A craving is just a thought, it does not control your actions, and it will never last as long as a hangover. I guarantee you won't wake up tomorrow morning wishing you'd drank MORE tonight!
:h:h:h
Stay strong!
K9

[FlyAway]

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Amen K9.

Cathy I was just reading over some of your first posts in this thread. I too called in sick to work because of hangovers so many times. I too lost it and went berserk on people when drunk. Some of my rages are just momentary flashes in my memory because I was half-blacked out. So awful. And now it's over. And now it will never happen again for me. Just a year ago I was in your shoes. This is not impossible for you. You can do this. We are all here to help and to hold you up when you need it. :l

[K9Lover]

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And Amen to Fly!

Cathy - I felt an immediate connection to you because you remind me of how I used to be. I LOVED my beer, but the beer did not love me back. The beer made me a raging bitch, took my money, my looks, my pride, and made me do stupid a$$ sh*t!! WHY would we love anybody or anything that did that to us? Because it gives us a "buzz"? So freakin what...that is hardly a fair trade!!!

I too smoked 1 cigarette per beer. Gawd the smell was horrible. My daughter always told me I stank (gee thanks..right?). She was RIGHT...I did stink. I felt bad, I looked bad and I hated what I was doing.

YOU can stop too. I have been sober 402 days. I quit smoking 19 days ago (previously 81 days, then relapsed). YOU CAN DO IT TOO...I just KNOW you can.

Please at least promise to start over tomorrow. You only fail when you quit trying to quit. As long as you never give up, you're still in the game.

Good luck Cathy, I am thinking of you! :h

[cathysgottastop]

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Thank you thank you all so much. Th is Friday night is tough my Friday nights always were like woohoo its Friday let's party I bought cleaning supplies for the morning thinking oh I can get up first thing before anyone wakes up and clean my house. Good idea. Then I hit the beer isle where there were so many people there. I actually conversed with a girl having a chocolate martini party tonight ughhh I was dead sent on going to dinner with my hubby. I made A dumb excuse its so cold out I'm tired and wanna veg let's do it tomorrow. Only for me to drink

[cathysgottastop]

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1 12 pack 2 packs of smokes and I feel I'm good to go. Ughhh

[cathysgottastop]

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I get to the smoke counter at the local acme and its sad the gal knows my oder

[FlyAway]

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You have to establish a new normal. What will your Friday nights look like from now on? Will it be a family night? Will it be a fitness night? Will it be a night you reconnect with your DH? Set a plan and know in advance what you're going to be doing. If it's dinner out with your husband, make a reservation the night before. Set it in stone and change up your routine.

[FlyAway]

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Have you stopped drinking tonight?

[cathysgottastop]

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I thought I was ready tonight why does work grocery shopping an cold weather ied car make me feel so stressed

[cathysgottastop]

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I get home and all I hear is what's for dinner. Ughhhh