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[martye]

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mauritiusdodo;1461979 wrote: No offence taken in fact quite the opposite, you have made me laugh out loud :H I am not asking for any help I just find it useful to post in here sometimes and since this is an open forum I don't see any harm in it, I have every excuse in the book to drink yes and I use them alll however I am still trying, I am not looking for anyone to give me more fuel to add to my fire!! :thanks: for your input though

PS I am actually a lady not a Man

No harm at all I wish you all the best!

[jenniech]

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good job!! Don't give up. It is hard but SO WORTH IT.
I too have had issues with acceptance. But then I think about how my drinking affects my family. I am fortunate to have had a very high bottom. But I have so many real life examples of people who did not have a high bottom and they are still drinking and now they are in their 50s and that seems to be the decade that all the drinking catches up to you. My father died when he was 56....his alcohol abuse caused him to develop varicose veins in his esophagus. those veins burst and he basically bled to death internally. A very close family friend (for all intents and purposes, he is family) is now 57 and has heart disease and diabetes as a result of his excessive drinking. The heard disease has caused his feet to swell up to twice their normal size to the point where he really can't walk very well. He also can't manipulate his feet so driving should be out of the question. What does he do? He keeps one foot on gas and the other on brake then uses his hand to push on whatever leg is needed. And, I am sure he is doing that drunk. It is a catastrophe waiting to happen and I can't do anything about it.

Sorry to be harsh, but these are two examples that I look at. Even though I don't really want to quit and have a hard time accepting the fact that I AM AN ALCOHOLIC, I don't want to live the last few decades of my life like my family friend or worse, dead like my dad.

On a lighter note, I feel absolutely fantastic after 17 days this time around. I can think more clearly, sleep like a baby and not feel ashamed or secretive to my family. What a sense of FREEDOM that gives me.

Maybe you should just fake it until you make it.....get off the elevator now. That elevator is going down no matter when you get off. Getting off now will save you from hitting the bottom....

just food for thought. Don't mean to be all dramatic but these are the cold hard facts of what happens to some people who don't get sober (not to mention jail, losing job, losing family, etc.) I ask myself is drinking worth these very possible things that could happen to me?
HELL NO

[Pinecone]

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Hi Mauri, good for you getting some AF days! Obviously, something is working for you so grab onto that, whatever it is and add it to your plan. I'm pulling for you!

[daisy45]

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Hi Mauri; dad is keeping well this week. The docs have decided to stop treatment and we have delayed telling dad. We are waiting to have blood tests done and then we will have to tell him the truth. Today he is asking questions and feels if the tests come back abnormal, then he is being left to die. He looks so sad and I don't know how to make it better.......

[patrice]

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Hi Daisy- I remember you well from last year when I think we were all on a quit together, so good you are back.
So sorry about your Dad... but being AF will actually make it a bit easier. I speak from experience as my Dad was ill and died 9 months ago and I was still drinking.... going through his illness and his subsequent death whilst drinking make my sadness, at times, unbearable although thankfully he never saw this as I live overseas.. I'm thinking of you x

[daisy45]

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Hey Patrice; thank you. I know, I really need to get it together. I told my dad 3 hours ago that he is not getting any further treatment. Today was unbelievably stressful. He is devestated. Heading down to see how he is now.
Sorry to hear about your dad.