Company needed for Day 1 - Please and Thanks

[reriveritas]

Company needed for Day 1 - Please and Thanks

4 Days AF Today!

Hello Everyone,

I just joined this group last week, I've been AF for 4 days today. Yay! I've battled the alcohol demon my whole life. That being said, over the years I've managed to actually drink less. However, don't be fooled by me! I get sucked under as easily as the next person.

I'm here b/c I don't want to drink again. I've stayed sober for 30 days over and over and over. Then I "allow" myself to drink, and next thing I know I'm in a constant battle for "control". Truth be told, alcohol has a hold of me. If I'm not drinking, I'm planning my next drink or I'm talking myself out of it again. It's the same old song and dance. Sometimes I can do this for weeks at a time, wherein I only drink 2 nights/week, sometimes I drink every day.

All I know is I don't want to drink anymore, and if I don't find some friends and a community of people to surround myself with who are like-minded, I will surely fail.

Thank you to everyone for sharing their stories so far.

I look forward to getting to know all of you!:new:

[struggles]

Company needed for Day 1 - Please and Thanks

Hi everyone. I also do not want to ever drink again...but somehow it always seems to happen. I broke down yesterday and drank and here I am at 4am with my heart racing and the shakes. Tears are falling as I type. I have isolated myself so I can continue to drink and I will have my kids today until Friday. I am glad to find this thread. I drink beer and lots of it almost daily so this is a tough one for me...but I did it over the summer and I know I can do it again. Snowflake, did you finish Jason Vale's book and how did you like it? I have it but have not finished it. Sipping water right now and trying hard not to toss it back up:upset: I hate this feeling so why do I keep doing this to myself? I know how it ends, but that doesn't seem to stop me. I just think it will be okay this time.

[patrice]

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struggles;1465885 wrote: Hi everyone. I also do not want to ever drink again...but somehow it always seems to happen. I broke down yesterday and drank and here I am at 4am with my heart racing and the shakes. Tears are falling as I type. I have isolated myself so I can continue to drink and I will have my kids today until Friday. I am glad to find this thread. I drink beer and lots of it almost daily so this is a tough one for me...but I did it over the summer and I know I can do it again. Snowflake, did you finish Jason Vale's book and how did you like it? I have it but have not finished it. Sipping water right now and trying hard not to toss it back up:upset: I hate this feeling so why do I keep doing this to myself? I know how it ends, but that doesn't seem to stop me. I just think it will be okay this time.

Hi Struggles,
I'm here with you. You can do it. We both can. Hang in there my dear, drink the water try and sleep and it will stop.

Hi everyone, just checking in. All is OK. I plan to add meditation to my tool box and am upping my acupressure sessions to try and take the heat out of my body caused by alcohol ( even while moderating, my body became really out of whack)

Take care
Patrice

[4thekids]

Company needed for Day 1 - Please and Thanks

Kradle123: Thank you for the welcome. I have gone through some posts on the tool box and newbie nest. I will look at more today.

It appears that you have been AL free for some time now. Do you remember when enough time had passed that you felt the cravings stop? We're there any particular strategies that you employed which you found worked best? Any other advice?

Another question, if not too personal, does your spouse drink? Another serious challenge I have is that my husband drinks and really does not feel any need to stop. As I said in my first post, I don't think he needs too but I haven't even told him that I intend to stop for good because I do not think that he will lend much support. I think he thinks I should just cut down a bit...as though that can be so easily accomplished!!

Sorry for all the questions...it just helps,to have someone who has already been down this path discuss their experiences.

4thekids

[whitemarshmom]

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Hello again

Hi everyone, I too am a Mom of 2 young children, i have been in and out of my way out.. Mostly only getting 4 or 5 days AF... I just recently got a demon off my back, as seen in the cheated while drunk thread.... and i feel free! I dont have to be afraid or worried.. One of the reasons i ve been drinking so heavily the past 2 years. I can hear my subconcious whispering to me that I drink for so many other reasons! This was a big worry and its gone now.. Im not going to let AF win! Today is DAY 1 for me

[mommyKW]

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I'm in too. Also the mom of two young kids and echo many of the things said in this thread. Today is one of the many "Day One"'s I've had and am resolved to make it happen. The trigger is when I get home from work and have to put dinner on the table and other mundane chores... hope I can surf over the craving. Best to you all.

[Snowflake]

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THANKS again KUYA and Hello to All

Dear Kuya, It’s as if you read my thoughts, I was sort of feeling lonely on my thread, and then you appeared from nowhere, hovering over me again, looking out for me and offering me your wonderful support and guidance, it is much appreciated, thank you so much. I know that you look after not only me but all of the community and that it must take up so much of your precious time, so thank you once again for everything,

Kradle 123 – Thanks for looking out for everyone and the great advice.

Teezah - Thanks so much for jumping in to say “well done” – I was so touched and it makes me want to do well

Struggles –I’m so sorry I’m only reading this now – I hope you managed to get help from someone at MWO when you most needed it earlier on today. If you managed to stop over the summer – you can do it again now. Please take a few deep breaths, throw all your alcohol down the sink and go for a walk if you can, most importantly don’t take that first sip, it’s just not worth it. Please take some time to go through and read posts from the MWO community and you will find many knowledgeable posts covering all different aspects of this disease/addiction. You are not alone, we are all basically in the same boat and you can see many success stories – so yes you can do it. For me I am taking it one day at a time, so why don’t you start slowly also, don’t look too far ahead that would be too overwhelming, I’m sure you can do it, it can only get better from here if you start right now. Re the JV Book - Sorry I have just managed to get the first chapter read – so can’t help you there, but I did hear that it got great reviews. Please check back in tomorrow to let us know that you are OK?

4thekids - At least you have taken the right decision to start your AF journey, it is a wise move – your children are still young – mine are a little bit older now and I know that I wasted so much precious time in a daze because of my excess drinking, and unfortunately over the years it just became worse. My children now thank me every night for not drinking – it is quite heart wrenching, when I think of all the wasted time, I feel physically sick. Maybe you could ask your husband to support you and you could go AF together – just to get you started?

reriveritas – It sounds as if you know what you have to do and yes you will find many people here that will help you along your way – Congratulations already on your 4 AF days – Please stay around and keep us up-to-date with your progress, Well Done!

whitemarshmom – Yes, you again are a Mum to two small children – so please don’t waste any more time with the bottle, your children need you more than it does. Please forget the past and look to the future and congratulations on your Day 1 – One day at a time.

Hi MommyKW - Welcome, Yes that was my downfall, the trigger went off as soon as I came home from work, congrtulations on starting again and of course you can surf over the craving - if I can you can also!

Glad that you are well Patrice and hope that your acupuncture works for you. And hope that you are well Free At Last.

Well, another AF day done and dusted for me (fantastic feeling), kids in bed and most grateful that Mum has not been drinking recently– Life is much better this way.

Yes Kuya – I’m just trucking through slow and steady – it works for me. Anyway, it’s past midnight here, and have to get to work early tomorrow, so I’ll sign off now.

Good Luck to all and look forward to speaking again tomorrow – thinking of you all and sending my best wishes.

Snowflake
AF Day 10

[mommyKW]

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Thank you Snowflake. Fighting the cravings right now. I'm hoping posting to my fellow first-dayers will help get through this. Why does it have to be so tough?

[free at last]

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Hi Snowflake--congrats on 10 days. You are an inspiration. I managed to log several AF days and then had an evening work event and was not strong enough to walk away from the wine. I don't have any evening work or social activities for the next 12 days--for which I am extremely grateful. If I don't have wine in front of me, it is harder to give in. Will try to log in daily to see how everyone is doing and to be accountable. Thanks to all for your encouragement.

[patrice]

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Hi Free and all other Mums,

Glad you are back and keeping on trucking. We did all start on the same day but I'm not up to Day 10 either, more like 5. But it is getting easier. As usual with the weekend looming I will be super vigilent.

I too will check in daily, mostly have but with the time diff I don't get to read your comments until the next day.
Fantastic Snowflake you are another motivation for us all to keep going

Take care
Patrice

[kuya]

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Hi Snow, good to see you have mastered another day, and that is ALL you have to do, just this day.

There are stages everyone goes through so don't be surprised when different thoughts hit you......just come straight here and scream for help.

The good thing is at your stage is you never have two bad days in a row. If you have a bad day it is because your brain and every cell of your body is readjusting to running on different fuel .....food, not alcohol. A bad day is a sure sign repair is happening, embrace it keeping in mind the next day you will feel better.

It is an erratic process which can throw people when they think it is a steady improvement.

[Mick]

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hiya snowflake how are you? well done on your day one!!! every single one of us is on a day one..its just that some have more than others...you slipped..each and every one of us could do that ,though we try our hardest not to..so welcome back..go for it

[Snowflake]

Company needed for Day 1 - Please and Thanks

Thanks for all the kind wishes and support

Nice to hear from you again Free At Last, glad that you are getting back on track, and that you’re not letting that work outing pull you back down - Well Done for that. I don’t know how I would have handled a work outing or any outing for that matter either – I can’t even think of it at the moment – it’s too scary. I have not yet had to face wine in social outings as you have – I am keeping well away – I’m lucky though as I have the choice. My work doesn’t do “outings” and I am just declining any social outings with friends for the moment. I am also trying to lose the weight I put on with my nightly wine drinking so it’s better to stay home at the moment and concentrate on what matters most - Alcohol Free nights with my family!

I am managing fine – 12 days ago I would have cried and maybe been physically sick if I thought I had to leave the supermarket without my nightly potion, seriously just even thinking of not buying it gave me a huge panic attack. Now I don’t even look at the wine aisle, of course I have a long, long, long way to go – but at least it’s a start, I’ll just truck along slowly as Kuya said. I’m still a bit short-tempered (in fact more than a bit) but then when I was drinking in the evening everything was wonderful as I was on Cloud 9 (well until it wore off – then it was definitely Cloud 0) – UGH!

Glad that you are well Patrice – I think of you often out there in a foreign land, on your own with your little one – it must be tough – so sending my best thoughts your way and wishing you strength on the weekend.

mommyKW – So sorry that you are having a tough day – but it’s not easy, but I really think a lot of the pain we suffer is due to habit and habits are hard to break – try to do something else when you would usually have been starting to think about drinking, the urge will go away, I promise. Please look through the threads and read as much as you can – you will see we are all in the same boat, we all had to start somewhere and we all have our good and bad moments. Our wonderful Senior Member Byrdlady, who like Kuya is always looking out for us (as are all Members) always attaches the following two wonderful aides to her signature – I have dug them up for you, so please check them out. If you are really in trouble please check in – especially to the Newbies Nest – that is always buzzing and someone will always be there to help you. Also, this is what Kuya said to me ------ “Hi Snow, good to see you have mastered another day, and that is ALL you have to do, just this day.” ------ Kuya is right it is just a day that’s ALL – One Day At A Time – Please take Care and please don’t give in, think of your kids also, you will really be glad tomorrow.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html = Tool Box
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...est-30074.html = Newbie's Nest

Dear Mick, thanks for popping in and for welcoming me back (2007 – was a long time ago – how I wish I had stayed – what a waste of precious time), but it’s great to be back amongst a fantastic, caring community and as I said before I’m fine at the moment with my one day at a time. I have still got to get to know everyone – It’s a busy community – but I hope to catch up with everyone’s stories eventually!

Dear Kuya – You never fail with your words of wisdom – I am so humbled – thank you!

Wishing a great day and evening to all

Snowflake
AF – Day 11

[free at last]

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Ok, almost the end of the day here. Refrained from going to the hotel restaurant for dinner, ordered room service and in two hours I will be ready for bed. I failed to mention that I travel two weeks a month for my job which makes it really hard to get some kind of routine going. But Day 1 AF is almost over. Will check in tomorrow.

[Sober22113]

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Hi All,

This is day 1 for me. I chose my username as sober22113 because I am forcing myself to try to live up to my sobriety date of Feb 21, 2013! Today!

Snowflake....your lifestyle is identical to mine. I am a mom of 4 beautiful children, have a wonderful and supportive husband and work full time as a functional alcoholic. I stumbled upon this forum, desperate to put an end to my daily drinking. I start drinking after work, while I cook dinner or after a workout at the gym and don't stop until 10 or 11 p.m. I've been having a difficult time staying asleep at night and once I wake up, I toss and turn until its time to get up for work. I feel groggy in the morning and each morning I say "no more", then 5:00 pm rolls around and I'm back at the liquor store buying that bottle of wine.

I am a woman who loves to work out and eat healthy, yet I put this toxin in my body daily. Why? I have gained 20 lbs over the last couple of years and I know it's from the wine.

I grew up in a dysfunctional family and my parents have/had addictive personalities. My oldest daughter has given me many challenges and stress and I turned to drinking to escape my stress, disappointments and pain. But that can no longer be my excuse to drink.

I want desperately for my children to not see me with a wine glass in my hand every day. I want to successfully break the cycle. So here is to day 1!