Not a slip. I chose to drink.

[rednose]

I drank. Not much but enough to lose three days.
When I can man up and get 7 days in a row I will
Be back. I am tired of being a poor me poster.

Thanks for trying to help me stay AF.

Rednose

See you next Friday I hope

[patrice]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Hi Red,

Just keep coming back. That's all. Maybe you are not ready yet. It's taken me a long time to be ready ( see join date) But since my join date I have always had times when I didn't drink, slowly more and more regularly, slowly more and more days in between. I think for some people that's just the way it is.

Take care, see you soon!

Patrice
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[satz123]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

patrice;1467018 wrote: Hi Red,

Just keep coming back. That's all. Maybe you are not ready yet. It's taken me a long time to be ready ( see join date) But since my join date I have always had times when I didn't drink, slowly more and more regularly, slowly more and more days in between. I think for some people that's just the way it is.

Take care, see you soon!

Patrice
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Agree totally with Patrice Whatever way works for you Red - keep posting though - MWO is not just for those who have mastered AF - if it was there would be no point to the site!

[daisy45]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Rednose, we are all 'poor me' posters, me especially. More times than I can count I get a few days, mess up, get embarrassed and decide to do it alone and come back with a week or two.
Each time, without MWO, I come back and tail between legs, have to start at the beginning.
Stay, and if it doesn't stick, start again, and again, until it does......all the best you - we all understand exactly how you feel!

[martye]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

rednose;1467010 wrote: When I can man up and get 7 days in a row I will
Be back. I am tired of being a poor me poster.

Thanks for trying to help me stay AF.

If you want to be a "poor me poster" then stop posting. My suggestion is KEEP posting ....

[madmans]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

See you next Friday I hope

??? What are you going to do ? spend the next few days drunk and then come back? , i seen your thread from yesterday and most people here have had their hearts broken at some time in their life.
You have two choices get drunk , feel sorry for yourself or stop being a victim of AL.
I have had AL ruin 2 long term relationships , don't think for one min AL didn't play some part of the break up, i am now married with 2 kids and had i not stopped drinking i really think i AL would sooner or later destroyed my marriage.
When i was drinking i loved drama = reason to drink
Loved death = reason to drink
Loved happiness = reason to drink........ need i go on ?
We all had a reason to drink when we were drinking.
Right now you can't see your future , you can't see yourself one year from now sober and thinking back on this chapter of your life as the moment you reclaimed your life and started living again.
Partners come and go but AL will never leave you, it's up to you to show it the door.

[jenniech]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

even if you are drinking, read MWO...it will only strengthen your resolve to stop.
Don't let AL win!!

[Siren136]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Don't you dare disappear for a week! Don't you know how much we would miss you? Yes, you come here for knowledge and support but you give it to others, too. By reading your posts I gain greater insight into my own disease. Yes, Red - we have a disease. It's called alcoholism. If you had diabetes you wouldn't be hating on yourself now would you?

If quitting was easy then MWO wouldn't be here. It's hard. It's DAMN hard. You may not be AF yet but you are on the road and you are healthier than when you first found MWO.

So give yourself a break

Shake it off

Start again

[Ambrose71]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Rednose. I went 100 plus days this summer and then like you I chose to drink again. Did ok for a while. But then same old patterns emerged.

Today is 2 weeks for me. I have heard people say it gets harder to quit - but I find this time I am approaching the quiting with calm resolve this time. Much more peaceful.

Good luck with your journey.

[porqoui]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Hi Red....kinda knew that was going to happen after your last post.

Just know that we're still here and we're still willing to help in any way we can.

I think you may have gotten enough of MWO to start screwing up your drinking.

Everytime you have a drink I bet you'll think of us. I did.

Hope it doesn't take a week for you to reach out again, but we'll be here.

.....PPQP

[Icanwithoutacan]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

I don't see a difference b/n slipping and choosing ... Always a choice... I made that choice yesterday too and I'm wanting to hate on myself but you know what if I just stay AF til thurs of next week I'll have been sober 23/28 days in February andi should be damn proud because that's more sober than I've been in along time

[Lavande]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Red,
At the end of my drinking career I was drinking soley because I felt sorry for myself. I didn't want to drink anymore but I contined because I didn't want to end the self pity party

Developing a sense of gratitude & ending the negative thinking pattern is what finally worked for me. Negative thinking is a learned behavior, we are not born to be negative thinkers. With some effort you can delete the negativity by building on your gratitude!

Just leaving you with those thoughts & wishing you the best

Lav

[Honeysoup]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Poor me poster? Are you kidding? You are NOT a poor me poster! You love to drink...we all do, but unfortunately we can only decide when we are ready to quit. It's like a bad relationship....its bad when its good and its bad when it's bad. And we deal with it until we are just done...you are almost there. It's in your head, "I know this doesn't work for me but I love her/him" You are ready when you are ready and that's all there is. Just know that we are like family whether you choose to stay with or without that bad relationship we will be here to pick you up. We all know it will end, you just have to decide when.

Big Hugs to you...this is a struggle but we are strong and will get through this because family is worth it!!!

[K9Lover]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

Red,
Please don't leave. At the very least, keep logging in and reading...that way we can check up on you (by seeing your login date).
We were all in the "poor me" stage at one point...that's why we drank. But eventually that can switch to "amazing me!". Don't let AL win. Your relationship will still be over, you'll still be sad, and you'll have a hangover on top of it. It's OK to be sad and upset, we're human. Poisoning yourself in the process accomplishes nothing though. Please stick around. I don't know of anyone that got this on their first (or 20th) time...you only fail when you quit quitting.
:h:h:h
K9

[Hippyman]

Not a slip. I chose to drink.

K9Lover;1467353 wrote: Red,
Please don't leave. At the very least, keep logging in and reading...that way we can check up on you (by seeing your login date).
We were all in the "poor me" stage at one point...that's why we drank. But eventually that can switch to "amazing me!". Don't let AL win. Your relationship will still be over, you'll still be sad, and you'll have a hangover on top of it. It's OK to be sad and upset, we're human. Poisoning yourself in the process accomplishes nothing though. Please stick around. I don't know of anyone that got this on their first (or 20th) time...you only fail when you quit quitting.
:h:h:h
K9

Listen to Winkie. Never quit quitting. You can get sober and stay sober. I know you can!