I'm also going to have to do something about the amount of fags I'm smoking. Yuk! I had a cigarette hangover from HELLLLLLLLL this morning. Believe me it was. The amount of diet cokes and coffee I'm drinking is'nt a good move either but so what right now! I remember going to an AA meeting once and the room was so smokey I could hardly make out the individual participants! I remember thinking that the people were simply killing themselves in a less embarrassing and more socially acceptable way! Its a mixed up world.
Driving home this afternoon I daydreamed of a nice cool vodka and red bull (my fave) with loads of ice. Unfortunately one tin of red bull = at least 4 tots of vody per drink. Need a serious distraction and only wish I could channel my restlessness into my creative work. That unfortunately just is'nt happening. Got bills to pay and commitments to meet. I'VE GOT TO GET MY S... TOGETHER and stop buggering around before I lose everything and believe me thats just waiting for me round the next corner. Its sure as hell not through lassiness... maybe fear.
Yeh I know... I can hear you all saying it, "give it time!." but that sentance just infuriates me more!
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