I'm not sure where to start or what to say, but as the title says I have gone 5 days now without drinking.
I reached a realisation that I had to do something last Friday night. I was hormonal and emotional and started drinking as I made dinner and kept drinking through the evening by myself. I was drinking sake and had no idea how much I had been drinking until I started throwing up. Luckily my daughter had already gone to bed, so she didn't see thankfully. But I knew that is not the person, not the mother, I wanted to be.
I had one drink and one drink only at a family party on Saturday night and then have not had a drink after that.
I usually drink every night - and my husband drinks too. I told him what I was going to do and asked him not to buy things like sake or wine that we usually drink together. I didn't tell him to stop drinking too - because that is his decision not mine - but he hasn't brought alcohol into the house since then.
I am feeling pretty bad today.... Very anxious and on edge, but the headache from the last few days has faded.
I have been eating a fair bit of chocolate which helps I am pretty addicted to chocolate
I have given up alcohol before , when I was pregnant. I'm doing some of the sane things that helped me then - drinking Perrier from a champagne glass for instance.
I don't really have a question.... Just wanted to connect because it's feeling hard right now.
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